🂡⠀╱╱⠀𝐀ᶜᴱ⠀𝐨𝐟⠀𝚂ᴘᴀ𝕯𝑬𝑺⠀﹖⠀˚⠀.

❆．noia

if pc2 rp was a think you better bet id write valem

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⠀⠀ its ok we’ll put a labubu flower bouquet on his grave

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⠀⠀ we can play with labubus and make our own cool labubu world..

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⠀⠀ you’re the child i always knew i wanted

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⠀⠀ haha.. that’s what i thought ( lizard blinking )

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⠀⠀ i like this

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⠀⠀ is it because im hot or what

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⠀⠀ I AM HOSPITALIZED WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT

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⠀⠀ who starts a conversation like that i just got up

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⠀⠀ do not eat the dubai chocolate matcha labubu crumbl cookie

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" 𝙸 𝚌𝚊𝚗'𝚝 𝚋𝚎𝚊𝚛 𝚝𝚘 𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚛𝚊 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚜.

𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝙸 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚜 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠

𝚒𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚒𝚜 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎. "
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❆．noia

time to write that other thing i said i was gonna do last night

❆．noia

last thing before i sleep, the reason for chance no longer wearing two gloves is because its hard to properly flip a coin while wearing a leather. he keeps the other one on to hide how badly burnt their right hand is

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⠀⠀ then he disappeared—— admins what if he thinks i don’t like him anymore .ᐣ

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⠀⠀ i—— .̲.̲.̲ i’unno.

( shrugging their shouldersˎ turning their head away so they wouldn’t face him. )

i’m worried sickˎ sev. our last conversation wasn’t really all that good— at least i think it wasn’t.

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⠀⠀ ‘sev .̲.̲.̲

( ungloved hand meticulously picking at the leather on their gloved oneˎ voice wavering as they spoke up again—— sounds like he’s on the verge of tears. )

have you seen elliot lately .ᐣ because i haven’t. did i do something .̲.̲.̲ .ᐣ

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⠀⠀ i just .̲.̲.̲ thought being alone for a bit would have helped me collect my thoughts.

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⠀⠀ ( body going tense upon hearing the words “ have you been alright .ᐣ “ ﹔ shoulders slumping almost instantly .̲.̲.̲ )

not really. i’ve been feeling anxious— unlike meˎ right .ᐣ

.̲.̲.̲ sorry for going quiet.

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⠀⠀ ( slightly jolting upwards out of surprise .ᐟ only to relax after realizing who it was .̲.̲.̲ )

hey sev’. missed me or somethin’ .ᐣ

( teasingly cooing out. )

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❆．noia

BREATHE CHELA BREATHE!

i'm tired of doing the same thing everyday.

thought i wouldn't be writing in this again. in fact, i didn't even want to touch this book again. but putting my thoughts to paper has always been easier than speaking them out loud. i'm worried about elliot. i haven't seen him around lately... he's not the type of person to disappear with- out a word nor is he someone who'd abandon any- one in times of need. he may not fully realize it but he's someone irreplaceable, and i know it's a lot of pressure to put on one person but elliot is a pillar ; essential to our group. how can we even begin to function the same without him? it's not even the fact that he supports us- instead, it's simply because he... he's headstrong, positive too. not many of us are like him in that regard. losing that would mean losing one of, if not the most important person in- ( continue to the next page. )

our team. i miss him so much. it's only been about two days yet it feels like its been an eternity since i last saw him. where could have my dove flown off too? i don't even know if he's okay and that's the worst part, because if i did? i wouldn't be feeling this sense of dread everytime i wake up. and it gets to a point where praying that he's okay, wherever he is, begins to fall flat. it doesn't reassure me about anything. i want to see that he's fine with my own eyes; and not by some false image i've painted in my head. ... but if he ran away? i understand. i wouldn't want to be here either. ... you won't see this, elliot. but know that i love you. because of you and seven, i started to believe in my- self. i can't be fixed with all the damage that has been done to me, but know that you filled the cracks that i thought were unpatchable.

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⠀⠀ ⺀ entry OO2 ۪ ⠀✧ because you.

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/ / apolocheese...

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♤⠀ — ﹔ ⌞ ᴀᴘᴘᴇᴀʀᴀɴᴄᴇ. ⌝

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// everyone look away

i think there's something wrong with meˎ why can't i just live happily 𖤠