Jenn Parks

Things are gonna get better for me I can feel it. And so it is.

I'm so sick of this shit. I'm so nerve recked I can't eat latly. At least I'm loosing weight. I don't want to see him at all if I can help it. Thank the gods For my mum and my friends from club house. I feel like I'm gonna be sick over nerves. Tomorrow is a new day though.

I'm awake and I don't want to be. I want to be sleeping. I'm listening to Sleep Token. They are pretty awesome. Soothing but also Hard rock. It's a nice mix. I don't feel sad right now thankfully but it comes in waves. I am so thankful for my friends and family helping me and supporting me.

I'm a bit anxious and a bit sad. It's a lot. I am trying to keep my mind busy I wish we went to 5 below today but we didn't. I need crafts or something to do. Maybe I'll order some crafts online. I've been crying on and off since we broke up. I'm glad it happened but I feel bad about it.

So Matt and I broke up. So there's that. I no longer have a FB too. It's weird. Life is strange. Its gonna be ok.

Happy Mother's day to all the mama's out there. Especially my Mum. The bf made breakfast for us this morning. So sweet of him. I barely use this app. Im in a flair today. Lots of rest for me. Though this flair is not as bad as some I've had in the past.

Im made a lot of jewelery lately, and I sold a few things I made. Also, I'm down to 1lter of oxygen now when I excersize or am out and no oxygen at home. Im healing. This is awesome!

Thanks

My brain is too active, latley. Worry and hope swirled about. Thoughts of dread thoughts of a hopeful futures battle it out in my brain tonight and lately. I'm trying to keep it together. Everything will be ok. It needs to be. Fake it till you make it.

Happy international women's day. Keep fighting the good fight yall. Im trying my best to be strong in these times. I'm worried but hopeful at the same time. That duality is crazy. Don't forget daylight savings time tonight. I think it's a rediculious thing tho. Trying to keep it together.

Things are still nuts. But trying to stay above it. Trying to stay calm trying not to prepare. Hopefully moveing soon. We'll figure it out.

Today was a wild day. Iam sick of the dramatic ways around here. People need to chill out. My mum needs to chill out. And I really wish I could move already or that other people would move. I just went to my aunt's wake last night and tonight was in the middle of a fight at my place of residence.

This morning I couldn't remember the name for a bagel. I said "not a donut but also round breakfasty with a hole in it" lol I donno my brain is chaotic as of late with this remembering words stuff. It's a remember everything like the thing but not the thing.

I wish more people I knew were on here. I'm still learning this app. I know some of my other friends have one of these I don't know how to find them tho. Still figuring it out.

I just hope things don't keep getting worse. I pray for the people affected by all that's about right now. I pray for myself. To have the strength to stand up for myself and others. But part of me wants to hide. To not engage. I need to conserve my energy. I'm on oxygen, I have mobility issues.

Being physically disabled I'm worried. I wish I could do more to help people. I wish I could do more to help me. So many people I know are close minded. And I live in a usually liberal state. I just hope things don't keep getting worse.

Music helps so much. It keeps me sane. Thank the gods for noise cancelling headphones 🎧.

Bottom Of The Deep Blue Sea MISSIO · Loner · Song · 2017

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Favorite flower: Honeysuckle, hibiscus
🪨 Gem/stone: Tigers eye, amethyst, hematite
🌾 Herb: Lavender, clove, cinnamon
🐰 Animal: Cats, racoons, ravens, crows, wolves, spiders
🩷 Color: blue, green, purple, black
👑 Deities: Quan Yin, Demeter, Athena, Hecate

I am a person with multiple disabilities. But I don't let that bring me down. Or at least I try not to. I hope things change for the better soon. I pray for that.

What I support:

LGBTQIA+ 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️
BLM 🖤
Free Palestine ☮︎
Indigenous People 🫶
Women’s Rights 💖
Pro-Choice ❤️‍🔥
Gender Identity 🤍
Mental Health Awareness 🎗
Autism Awareness ♾
Disability Awareness 🏥