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Tuesday golf sesh.

It's been a while but I felt a hitch in my heart when I remembered how your hand felt on mine. The feeling accompanied was not of despair like before, no, but of a lovely memory, a small chapter in my book, a part I'll cherish forever.

Good shots. Still lots to fix.

I was a fool for longing for her. Even as she broke my heart, which was then pulsing only for her, I remain magnanimous in defeat.

Everything blew up after this.

If she only knew

I just feel so unimportant.

I would have done anything and everything for you.

I'm disappointed in her

I know that what she did to me was far egregious than mine (because I swear to God I meant no harm), but why is it that it feels like I’m the one who wants to mend. It feels like I am so unimportant to her.

I don’t know if one day we will be able to talk out what happened that time. I really meant no harm. I hope destiny gives me a chance.

As I have had time to process, I am more disappointed than anything with the omission. It was a big thing that could have stopped me from pursuing.

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I want to make things back like they used to but only time can do that for me. I'm very impatient.

Wore my heart on my sleeve. Look where that got me.

I see your eyes through the moon, shrouded in the sea of clouds, as it stares back at me.

Some people say, “Maybe in another life.” Or “In another life…” But I mean, what we have is today. So live life to what you would like to now. Choose what you want and it would be for the better. If you hurt people, try to repair it. Life is short. There’s no other life.

Sometimes I cannot believe how forgiving I am. Do you think it’s bad? I dunno.

She hurt me. I inadvertently hurt her, which I really really did not mean to. I really didn’t. In the end, it was me who was feeling more sorry for the misunderstanding.

My sister and I got talking a few days ago about our childhood trauma. We concluded that because of what happened then, we have become a bit submissive to our partners or anyone who we love. It was really the case.

The moon is pretty. And I am awful.

I don't wanna lose that connection. I want it to be repaired now, but I also know it will take time. It sucks.

This is so me.

But I am better now. Sometimes I still cry, but that's what happens to people like me who bottle feelings up. Once my heart gets broken, it just bleeds everything out.

I didn't know something like that can hurt so much.

Every now and then, I was crying.

Never recalled being in so much pain as I did yesterday.

Took a risk. Failed. Meh

Sabi niya mixed signals. Girl, hindi mixed yun. It was clear as day, 100% na signal. Hahaha. I'm having time to process e

I need to read books to keep my mind clear. But first, I got to write about you.