Luca

I can't always see it, but the idea of saying nice things about myself would have been unthinkable a few years ago

feeling very grateful that I've been surrounded by enough love to make me believe sometimes that I'm something worth preserving

Pro Game Dev Tip: consult your most perverted friends for all your worldbuilding. 100% of the lore for heaven in bdh is designed around what makes the angelgirls I know respond with keymashes and/or custom emotes

I think they are! being treated as a pet often involves the complete removal of choices (at least those that can't be answered simply and non-verbally), whereas being treated as a child often involves putting importance on small choices, personal preferences

status: learning to feel love, learning to rest, trying not to crack

I think rock paper scissors would be more strategically interesting if playing paper required you to give your opponent a dollar

uh oh !

sorting out if my "pet" and "child" modes are different or not

when you get older you can upgrade to the hexagram mobile

trigram mobile

I took my Adderall and ate a bunch of food like I was supposed to and now my body hurts too much for me to focus on work. Mods

it feels a little more elegant than I would ever let myself perceive myself as, though

the timeline where instead of imprinting on the name Luca from On top of the world (GFDM XG) I did a different wac song and called myself Lucy

sometimes I'm alone in a crosswalk under the dark hazy sky and there's a car coming and I wonder in the headlights that make them faceless if tonight is the night they decide they don't want to stop

update: I now wear this basically every day. I like how it looks...(but not how it leaves rubber marks on my clothes)

misreading "agree" as "agere". it's over for me

hey

It would be better to do so motivated by my own happiness and comfort, but I'll get there eventually.

I should learn how to raise my needs and wants at appropriate times rather than assume and pretend a want for nothing so that the people around me can better trust that they're doing good by me!

existence cultist

my partner has figured out that she can make me do mental calculations to help me calm down (sometimes I need to double-check afterwards...)

cons of going it/its only: I like being more identifiable as transfeminine within the rhythm game/doujin music space, and "she" tethers me more to a sense of humanity that might be best for me to preserve
pros of going it/its only: deep, inherent happiness

The Return (they were still pretty strong, but less Dangerous than before)

the only two political moments that have given me hope in the last decade or so have both been assassinations

horniness will probably only really come up in passing on this account, though. dm for the True Depths

sure hope people listen to the "18+ please" better here; you can't softblock people here so it'll be a full block