Luca

I took my Adderall and ate a bunch of food like I was supposed to and now my body hurts too much for me to focus on work. Mods

it feels a little more elegant than I would ever let myself perceive myself as, though

the timeline where instead of imprinting on the name Luca from On top of the world (GFDM XG) I did a different wac song and called myself Lucy

Arriving overnight 7 AM - 11 AM from Amazon: a tiny sheep plush, a 12 pack of Guarana soda, and a Samsung TV remote

sometimes I'm alone in a crosswalk under the dark hazy sky and there's a car coming and I wonder in the headlights that make them faceless if tonight is the night they decide they don't want to stop

update: I now wear this basically every day. I like how it looks...(but not how it leaves rubber marks on my clothes)

misreading "agree" as "agere". it's over for me

the cat, in a stirrup collar

hey

Amazon cart containing "EPOTHEX Progesterone Powder USP, Bioidentical Micronized P..." and "Tuggui Baseball Bat Steel with Carrying Bag (21 in, Silver)"

It would be better to do so motivated by my own happiness and comfort, but I'll get there eventually.

I should learn how to raise my needs and wants at appropriate times rather than assume and pretend a want for nothing so that the people around me can better trust that they're doing good by me!

Adjacent open tabs for Google searches for "dissolving dried blood on metal" and "degaussing crt"

Adjacent closed tab history for "Dirac comb" and "Britney Spears discography" on Wikipedia

Adjacent closed tab history for "twitch.tv/ddrillini", "Cake Shake - @fatboydiet on Tumblr", and "olimar specieis - Google Search"

Adjacent closed tab history for the homepage of Fur Affinity, a PubMed article starting with "A case of suicide attempt with...", and a Getty Images purchase page

a flowing gathered outfit, hooded robe and skirt and geometrically shining scarf, all white, with a shoulder bag, a mask, and glasses accentuating it. a couple of kandi also lie in frame. it's all in the dairy aisle.

existence cultist

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my partner has figured out that she can make me do mental calculations to help me calm down (sometimes I need to double-check afterwards...)

cons of going it/its only: I like being more identifiable as transfeminine within the rhythm game/doujin music space, and "she" tethers me more to a sense of humanity that might be best for me to preserve
pros of going it/its only: deep, inherent happiness

A baking tray, parchment-papered, full of somewhat misshapen pretzel rolls sprinkled with salt. Some lye stains are visible on some more parchment paper in the corner.

The Return (they were still pretty strong, but less Dangerous than before)

the only two political moments that have given me hope in the last decade or so have both been assassinations

2024-11-25, 19:04 Frums: [Onion's / $4.75 (image of Onion's)] Frums: wrong image. Frums: [KinkFest Registration / Thank you for your payment]

horniness will probably only really come up in passing on this account, though. dm for the True Depths

sure hope people listen to the "18+ please" better here; you can't softblock people here so it'll be a full block

…でも明確じゃなくてもそう言う前提で考えられてると雑談などで遠ざけられやすいですね　きつい…

getting a new therapist b/c my old one basically told me "hey, I'm not really knowledgable enough about bdsm and kink scenes to help you work with the emotional/mental health impacts of them, but this person is", which feels desperately on brand

the previous outfit, in a bathroom mirror, now with a fluffy white scarf, black lambskin gloves, a con badge, and a Baba plush

update: scarf

ジェンダー・ジェンダー表現・性的対象、そしてそれぞれの関係性の「全て」を受け入れない方は好奇心がもっとあっていいと思う…

an all-white outfit - skirt, blouse, lab coat, gloves - with a hole at the front of the thumb of a glove.

that's what I get for getting cheap gloves

me, fast asleep with bag and mask still on, wearing a lab coat, skirt, and stripey socks, curled up on a dog bed with a blanket draped over it

I got up at 5 to get them baking and ended up falling asleep on one of their floors afterwards...

a baking tray of 15 ill-split pretzel rolls, sprinkled with salt

made some pretzel rolls for play partners a couple days ago - first time I've cooked in the new place, now that I think about it! they came out real Spicy, so I'll have to adjust the lye concentration next time -w-

gonna try and make this one a little more cosy than the encorestage days