✨🌸Astrid Indigo🌸✨

a close up of a woman 's face with the words `` oh my god '' written on it . Alt: Betty Cooper makes a grossed-out face and says, “oh my god.”

Rewatching s2 of Riverdale now that I know who the Black Hood is…uhhh…okay, his phone calls to Betty sure do be *EXTRA* uncomfortable 👀😬😮‍💨

I just
Like
Goddamn, y’all, I
Really do not how to do any of this 😆😭😭😂😭😭😭
I am *so good* at trying too hard and driving away the few people I want close to me
And *so bad* at moderation 😭

Why are none of the highly competent, nerdy, socially awkward mascs I fall for ever masc SAPPHICS anymore? 😩

(…because Denver queers are too intimidating; any woman who talks to me for 5 min will see that I am a giant baby who can’t look after myself, and if they were into that, they’d date men 🫠)

I’m not
Like
Socialized enough for this shit
I’m too feral
I need somebody with actual parenting skills to adopt me and give me a wholeass do-over being raised
And then in like 18 years maybe I’ll be ready to attempt friendship (and confusing crushes) again

a man in a black sweater says " not today " in yellow letters Alt: David Rose looks pained and says, “not today.”

someday, I will get used to the acrid, burnt sugar smell and taste that my synesthesia floods me with when I get hardcore rejected

…that day is not this day

I have loved myself plenty, even if I’m not super in that headspace right now. It has never in any way impacted my compulsive, autistic need to fawn and people-please; that’s from ptsd caused by abuse when I *didn’t* people-please, and my fully-disabled dependence on my frequently-abusive family. 🙃🖤

Your brain is so right

psshh, I don’t have deep-seated abandonment and self-worth issues, I just absolutely define my value by how much attention I get from the people I want attention from and how much they like/want or don’t like/want me 🙃🫠
22 years of therapy and I’m still just waiting to feel *seen*
ugh, repugnant

(Archie’s song “for his friends” in the season 1 finale is, uhhh…very that 😂😂)

There hasn’t been a more obvious “polycule that just hasn’t figured it out yet” than Veronica/Archie/Betty/Jughead since…
…like…
The Road to El Dorado 😆😂
The *drama* of people who obviously all REALLY love each other but think they’re not allowed to do that is just so 🤦🏻‍♀️😂😭🤌🏼
Just all live together 😩🤌🏼🤌🏼

What TV moment best embodied #BisexualPanic for me? 🤔
…embarrassingly, probably this one? 🤣 When Jughead yells at her to fire, then Cheryl’s coolly competent shot? OOF 😳🪭😮‍💨😂

( #VideoDescription: a clip from the show #Riverdale; #CherylBlossom and #Jughead play William Tell in order to prove a point)

Okay, I gotcha…like, gruff and beardy looking silver fox with warm patriarch energy, I can dig it 😆💖

My guy type is…
Uhhhh
Honestly, it’s just “nerd who looks at me like they just got hit by a train and *liked it*” 🤣🤷🏻‍♀️
But the moment Cheryl plays William Tell with Jughead is the epitome of bisexual panic for me, so, yknow, whatever that means 😂😂

this story 's about me not him written on a cartoon Alt: Kuzco as a llama pauses the movie the audience is watching, breaking the fourth wall and explaining that, “this story’s about ME, not HIM” while circling himself and X-ing out Pacha on the paused screen in red marker.

I *literally* cannot picture that first one, and I have hyperphantasia 🤣🤌🏼🤌🏼 what?? I need like, a visual breakdown or something, like those bits where Kuzco pauses the movie and circles things 😂😂

…but the Eva Green bit makes sense, your selfies totally channel her vibes. ✨🖤✨

Like, yes, hello, I am here to volunteer to love you back in an equally unhinged yandere way; just use your rich bitch money to keep me alive and I’ll help dismantle the lives and sanity of your abusers while giving you backrubs, brushing your hair, doing your nails, and punching people for you 😍🙏🏼💖😂

In fairness, that’s how Teen Wolf kept me watching, too 😆🤷🏻‍♀️
I have a type (okay, several types, but whatever) 🫣😬😂
And it’s apparently “ginger rich bitch who’s only mean to cover for the fact that she’s never actually been loved or accepted except as an object and is both hurt and pissed about it” 🤔😆🤷🏻‍♀️

a woman in a red shirt is making a face and saying `` my body is perfection '' . Alt: Cheryl Blossom (a pale, redheaded femme in a red turtleneck and red lipstick) looks affronted and says, “My body is *perfection*!” in an outraged tone.

Accidentally reminded myself of my enormous crush on Cheryl Blossom, so now I’m rewatching (and trying to finish, it was still coming out last time I watched any) the absolute trainwreck that is Riverdale 🤣
ENTIRELY because I am forever weak to an unhinged, high drama sapphic ginger yandere 😆😍😭🤌🏼🤌🏼

🤣🤣🤣 your backdoor handyman (wow, THAT’S a phrase 😆) should be HONORED 😌😂

I turned the page last night and was like “ooOOOoooh, I LIKE this one 😍” 😆💖

Tho my nesting partner isn’t used to it yet and says it keeps jumpscaring him when he goes to leave the computer room 🤣 (it hangs opposite that door)

🥰🥰🥰

A photo of my grandma with a milkshake.

A photo of my grandma, Anne Minervini, when she was in…probably her 30s? Late 20s? Beautiful Italian woman with light olive skin, a dark perm, Italian nose, strong brows, brilliant smile.

A photo of me and my grandma at one of my birthday tea parties

A photo of me and my grandma at a *different* one of my birthday tea parties

Today would’ve been my Grandma’s birthday. I’d tell you how old she would’ve been, but she always said it was rude to give away a lady’s age, so instead I’ll tell you that she was an amazing woman for every one of those years, and the best friend and truest protector I ever had.
Love you, Gram. 🫂💛🌼✨

who else sick af with some kinda sinus/lung/snot/cough illness from hell? 🫠

…also, follow-up: what HELPS with the hideous sensations of ossified snot in your upper sinuses & the endless, viscous, choking snot-rope running down the back of your throat that feels like being waterboarded with glue? 🤧😭

Me trying to embrace whimsy in 2026

Finished work 🙌 time to clock into 🍃 za time and my to do list

AI girlfriend??? No, thanks, I'm too busy dating six women in Stardew Valley!

Oh hey, did you ALSO go to the doctor this week and have them say you’re probably fine, but now your snot and cough is only getting worse? 🫠

I grew up both privileged in lots of ways *and* a cash poor latchkey kid in the middle of the woods in rural Appalachia, surrounded by rednecks literally trying to kill me for being fat/brownish/queer/a witch, so like, mixed privilege bag for me? 🤔🤷🏻‍♀️

But:
Tissues
Paper towels/paper plates
Microwaves

I am SO SICK of this muthafuckin COUGH and WEIRD NONSENSE with my throat 😩🤧😭😭
I wanna be done with the sick plz thank you

Hmm, does somebody have a white knight complex? 🤔😜

YEP 😭

(I always feel SO BAD doing this, even when I’m playing in character as an evil OC…and yet, somehow, I can’t *not* do it, because I always need ALL THE CONTENT 😆🤣😭🤌🏼🤌🏼)