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Unfriendly Black²feet Óṫ’’k̇oaṗi•siak̇īī

@pandabbadon.bsky.social

Call me Coyote| They/them| Late 30s| BlackNDN| Blackfeet| 2S| Queer as in fk you| Kemetic| Actually Autistic| Exvangelical| Schizo-spec and hella open about it| Professional Halloween Scientist| Useless Gay Vampire| Polyamorous disaster

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Bsky: We don't need to sitewide ban fascist bad actors who work tirelessly to vilify & eliminate from the face of the Earth most of our core posters 😜 our content moderation tools are robust and many 😜 moderate yourselves 😜 put that in your waffle maker

Also bsky: We have permanently banned Link 😇

06.10.2025 14:05 — 👍 484    🔁 148    💬 4    📌 6

It’s not just that this does not matter (it does not matter). Everyone with sense knows what those words mean. It’s that this is not 2019. There are no stakes on this website. The political economy of outrage has so moved on that it’s in a different universe.

06.10.2025 14:51 — 👍 74    🔁 4    💬 1    📌 0

You honestly cannot still be doing this in 2025. I’m serious.

06.10.2025 14:50 — 👍 128    🔁 6    💬 3    📌 0

Someday, we're gonna find out that the decisionmaking went like this:

Mamdani proposes city-run grocery stores. Conservatives say it'll never work. Mamdani supporters point out that DOD runs a bunch of grocery stores. Hegseth decides to close them to own the libs.

02.10.2025 16:32 — 👍 4670    🔁 1298    💬 117    📌 54

Quoteskeet if you’re fucking hot 🍑

15.05.2024 16:11 — 👍 159    🔁 25    💬 9    📌 7

Anyway; I saw a commercial for Christmas sales yesterday

The Christians must be stopped

02.10.2025 15:16 — 👍 3    🔁 1    💬 0    📌 0

Yeah; I just always feel—idk “better” isn’t the right word at all but—comfortable? When I’m not compelled to bleed sorrow (justified or not) so openly. But I’m doin it anyway bc the alternative is journaling in a way my therapist wouldn’t approve of 😂

02.10.2025 15:15 — 👍 2    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

I’m fine; I’m just being a dramatic baby for some reason. Idk I just work here

02.10.2025 15:01 — 👍 4    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

I’m nothing if not dedicated to maintaining a sense of whimsy in the face of the unending horrors

It’s just hard to feel it atm w my Hell Brain so loud and nothing to really do abt it but ride it out and try to avoid triggering myself into smth worse. Esp w all the crying 🙃

02.10.2025 15:00 — 👍 3    🔁 0    💬 2    📌 0

Prolly better to not complain in a public forum too but almost nobody I know irl follows me here I don’t think and those that do are either never on or don’t interact and I tend to be a LOT crueler to myself when confining this type of journaling to my own eyes—deserved or not. I’m still trying, ig

02.10.2025 14:48 — 👍 3    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

I guess if the options are awake & mired in anguish w varying flavours of both valid and not valid self-loathing that all FEELS equally valid (and Very Important bc why not be self centred too I guess) and not that but the trade off is someone else having to deal w my symptoms, it’s better to cope

02.10.2025 14:48 — 👍 3    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

She’s still a lil sick and me screaming her awake isn’t ideal either. She hasn’t had that happen in a while but idk if that’s bc the amount of night terrors are currently at a lull or if I just don’t sleep enough to fully get into them bad enough my body is doing stuff w/o me

02.10.2025 14:48 — 👍 3    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

With your Hell Brain actively screaming at you makes being unconscious for 20+ hours instead sound way more appealing. At least if I’m having night terrors or nightmares I don’t always remember them, I just wake up with that Feeling™ but then since Gf A is off today, even if I were coma depressive,

02.10.2025 14:48 — 👍 4    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

So hard in therapy to be able to cry legit and now I’m being punished w impending salt buildup on my contacts or having to wear my glasses and get glasses migraine? Fucked up depression options 0/10. I guess sleep all the time depression isn’t exactly BETTER but I feel like spending 20+ hours a day

02.10.2025 14:48 — 👍 3    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

Who the fuck let me have insomnia depression and not coma depression? Put me back to sleep; the combo crushing weight of my own tenebrious existence, Everything™ going on in the world, and a selfish fixation on my own failings should be able to be slept through at least a little. Like damn I worked

02.10.2025 14:48 — 👍 14    🔁 0    💬 3    📌 0

Zitkala Nuni was found by Red Cloud's band 4 days after her mother had been murdered at Wounded Knee.
Lying and disguising himself as half Seneca, General LW Colby- a perpetuator of that massacre, went to Red Cloud's camp and forced them to give him Zitkala Nuni- who'd already been taken in by clan.

30.09.2025 11:35 — 👍 10    🔁 5    💬 2    📌 0

Their ignorance is more comfortable than reality and they’re quite literally willing to burn everything down and take everyone out with them to keep it

What do you do in the face of that? What can you say to a person who needs to debate the validity of your existence before they can hear you?

30.09.2025 12:27 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

Infinitely more of this and the ability to enact harm reduction essentially goes out the window

And it’s so mfn frustrating bc it’s genuinely their own lack of intellectual curiosity and their own clinging to participation in hierarchal bigotry that’s stymying meaningful change

30.09.2025 12:27 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

Save it’s life by taking away the trash

Only, the goat’s stomach issues are everyone’s problem, not just the goat and it’s always a mess the goat avoids cleaning. Bc it’s a mfn goat

Not saying we should all collectively stop trying to get these mfrs to quit eating trash bc THAT road just leads to

30.09.2025 12:27 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

Those hands is like trying to get a goat to quit eating indigestible trash with persuasive arguments alone. It ain’t gonna work bc it needs the full participation of the goat and the goat isn’t interested in not eating trash. It likes the texture and the taste and how dare you try to

30.09.2025 12:27 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

Confused they got a bleeding bullet hole in their foot and infection is setting in fast. It requires they love something more than the money they’ve already decided their souls are worth

Trying to get them to see the sense in biting the hands they think feed them with the intention of BECOMING

30.09.2025 12:27 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

They’re just a pig in people clothes, just really useful bacon, who could stop the inevitability of equality?

But again, it requires that they love something stronger than their own bigotry which is already so bonded, they’ll gleefully shout themselves directly into the foot but still get

30.09.2025 12:27 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

They’re gonna somehow Animal Farm their way to the table. They will NEVER listen until they realize that they’re Napoleon and the pigs in this situation, not one of the humans and damn sure not one of the other animals. The minute these fuckin dingdongs realize that at the end of the day,

30.09.2025 12:27 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

Engage with it in a way that makes them feel superior to us, is money. Which is why the richest among them use that in particular to keep their lowest common denominator in the position of a half-starved fighting dog pitifully convinced that by gnashing its teeth wherever their master points, that

30.09.2025 12:27 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

The mfrs that NEED to listen have never listened to a Black woman that they couldn’t tokenize in ever. They sure as fuck ain’t gonna start now bc if they loved themselves as much as they hate us, we wouldn’t be in this shit also

The only thing they love more than their own bigotry and ability to

30.09.2025 12:27 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

Black women are constantly in a state of Sisyphus + Tantalus. Pushin a fuckin boulder called meaningful change up a slope greased w systemic issues and the fruit is at the top! It can be seen! It ain’t ever gonna be reached while we Scooby-Doo slippin uphill, anklet chains dragging our weakest links

30.09.2025 12:27 — 👍 6    🔁 4    💬 1    📌 1

Thread!

30.09.2025 12:05 — 👍 3    🔁 1    💬 0    📌 0

Written for a single work for SURE. I have like 20 pages of notes in my outline which is absolutely my longest outline hands down though 😂

30.09.2025 12:04 — 👍 3    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

I mean outside world building notes. I think the fact that all my OC takes place in this lil urban fantasy AU I created for myself as a kid (complete w its own probably too complicated conlang lol) means that nothing I do will ever be as long as the sheer volume of OC combined, but longest I’ve

30.09.2025 12:04 — 👍 3    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

I mean so the answer is yes and no 😂

I am having a fucking GREAT time at least and it’s like looking at my own lil established literary universe from a different angle and oh my god why haven’t I done this way more?

Another 30K-50K words and this’ll be the longest thing I’ve ever written too

30.09.2025 12:04 — 👍 3    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

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