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NOOPED I LAUGHED IRL 😂😂😂

Apparently I'm an old head now 😭

Idk what that means but if you're describing yourself as 'big' in any way ima fight you you def are not big

I still don't think it was right to say. Commenting on other people's eating habits just never feels good :(

Me holding a handful of popcorn as I read this 🙃

Anyway if your body is telling you it wants food, I think you have every right to give it that. It's telling you got a reason 💜

Out of cigs so hopefully this will be how I stop again. I'm going to be a good girl and not buy more. I just need to stick to it

And then I see this on a completely different app I need to fucking fast omg.

My eating is so so so out of control I need to fucking stop.

Feel this in my soul 🥲🫂

Ikik I'm not going to. My brain can't decide if it's bc I think they're not working or they're making me worse or contaminating me and I'm in control enough to know that's a good sign not to stop

Trapped in a world that wants me to die but also is forcing me to live.

its world mental health day and mine is shit. hope you’re all doing okay. sending so much love to each and every one of you!

That's so so so fucked up I am so so sorry lovely :( that's a horrible thing to say to anyone regardless of if they have an ed.

I don't know what's happening. Why am I suddenly feeling like this. Why is my brain so scary all of a sudden. It's not fair. I don't want to feel like this what did I do to deserve this

I want to stop taking my meds and idk why

Missed an interview bc I was sad last night and didn't set an alarm ✌️

I shouldn't know what the insides of my arms look like. I shouldn't have intrusive thoughts and like detailed visuals about cutting so so deep. I shouldn't have scared nurses with my sh. I shouldn't have any of this. And yet. My brain hates me.

I'm safe 💜 not going anywhere and not going to anything but be emo appreciate youuuu

Maybe I'll try that in a bit when I'm ready to shower 🥲 right now sounds impossible

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Hanging in there 🥲 I have no sharps which is good. Will make it through tonight hopefully tomorrow is better. Better for both of us.

This is so so hard. I'm so sorry lovely 🫂 sending you love and support I hope you can take time for you

The urge to self destruct is so so so strong rn

I was not supposed to live this long.

Thinking about my birthday in a month and now I'm su!c!dal :(

This is so so sweet I'm glad she's so supportive 💜

Also makes me want to k!ll myself but that's a different thing

Applying for jobs makes me feel so dirty

They're both fine they walked away like 2 mins after starting that's why I'm okay laughing but still