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Ashes reading arc

What does substack actually like do?

I made it through the recovery weight. I genuinely have no idea what's going on with mine :(

I'm sorry yours is back 🫂

I think this would give me a heart attack 😬

Our therapist is going to be so disappointed in us

Hello again ED. did not miss you. Don't know why you're back. Don't want you to be back. The world is stressful but please stop. I wanna be doing good again

Job hunting stresses me out so much. An interview is a good thing. Objectively. But my brain is so so upset s d anxious and angry and ughhhhhh

<- bitch who wants a cigarette

I unf get why people want to vote third party. At some point we need a real leftist party and electoral reform. D3ms can't keep doing literally nothing to help us and holding us hostage every election 🙃 like yes, we need to vote to stop crisis rn, but it can't be a crisis every election.

She sounds like a very brave snake 💜 hopefully she feels better soon!!

update pinterest 4 times and every first photo in the feed after the update is your aesthetic

Im dead 😭

World's most normalest girl

I'm going to be v normal and independent and not have a mental breakdown even tho my brain started doing that yesterday bc I don't want it to seem like I'll have a mental breakdown if fae ever leave

BIPOLAR! YOU TAKE ORDERS FROM ME BITCH! WE ARE GOING TO BE NORMAL!!!!

Waiting for my husband (partner) to get back from the war (faer parents house) (in three days)

My partner is going to be gone for three days and I'm so sad :(

Yikes 😬 gross gross gross

Dreamed I was back at my first job in high school because I got desperate and it's all I could get. Was sad. Wanted to die. Desperately looking for a way out but couldn't. Horrible. I'm so sad.

2/18 approx sleep

Went to bed: 12 am
Fell asleep: 12:50 am
First wake up: 3 am
Back to sleep: 3:30 am
Second wake up: 7:30 am
Back to sleep: 8 am
Third wake up: 9 am

Why does the world hate me. Why does my brain self destruct all the time for no reason. What did I do to deserve this

Objectively life is okay. Imperfect but okay. Why am I fucking spiraling rn.

Sending you all my love 🫂 here for you lovely and I'm so sorry that the world is being cruel to you

If you like, just take my life
Rather die than hurt you one more night
Love is good, love is all
Cut all the ropes and just let me fall

Shoutout rye bread

Doing my best :) you're very sweet

Barely touched on trauma responses in therapy and I've been dissociative since

Or $3 either way

Blood oranges $1 a pound I got 6 oranges for $2 😁

Now I have yet another bad habit that my brain randomly sends urges for. We already have enough of those! Stop! Cease!

I wanna beat the shit out of past ashes so bad wtf were you doing starting to smoke like ??? We knew this was a bad idea. Wtf???

2/17 approx sleep

Went to bed: ~11:30 pm
Fell asleep: ~12:15 am
First wake up: 3 am
Back to sleep: ~3:15 am
Second wake up: 8 am, stayed up