a time where I ever felt that any other human wished for me in a romantic fashion.
I don't think of myself as someone whom people would dislike. On professional and friendship levels, I doubt every person I've met has been faking it this much if I was truly unlikable.
Or maybe, I'm just delusional.
of past events which may make it seem quite likely. And I metaphorically fall to my knees in a sort of phantom pain.
And all of this because of someone whom I think I may love
That most likely will never ever think of me.
And then I think back 13 years or so, that I don't recall
Which gets to a point where I can't turn it off and rest, and it prompts me to fall into a checking cycle, which, based on pseudo-patterns of association, I convince myself into things that may exist but I do not have any evidence for it. And then those thoughts stick and I delve deep in the memory
And then, it evolves (devolves?) into a circle of self-pity and deep introspection of what I really am, of my failures and my weaknesses. And oddly enough, it really strikes me whenever I try to sleep, and it just feeds on my dreams to walk in a fantasy.
This inability to properly transcribe and, quite honestly, reliably express what I'm actually feeling seems so mentally taxing, but at the same time, feels like something that I should be able to fight through.
But it's funny, it always starts because of my potential attraction to someone
So, let's do a bit of screaming into the void.
Sort of
Because when I try to put into writing what goes on in my head, things just start to feel wrong and everything that felt right to say, seems to find it's way into a wall of possible reality that will completely break what I hoped could work
and again, another time I try to speak about something related to me, and I just get ignored.
but hey, at least they say they always try to reply to the other people in the group when they leave work.
too bad with mine they're not doing work so fuck me I guess
Always hurts when you're ignored multiple times by the people you care about but want your attention when it's their turn
Instagram today
Esta frase é só muito boa
In children per year, the US birth rate is at an all-time low, but in Miles’ per hour it’s at an all time high.
We have a full afternoon of streaming tomorrow!! ✨
Finishing our Lego bouquet💐
Big announcement👀
League of Legends solo queue🔥
And Kena: Bridge of Spirits to start a new story based game 💜
www.twitch.tv/ymna
Don't miss out!
Starting after lunch, around 14h30+ GMT💗
Mais relevante do que nunca, isto está ainda a sair, e vale a pena ver para ajudar a perceber:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=SdIk...
Any 'Panty & Stocking with Garterbelt' fans here-? ʚ♡ɞ
I had this sudden nostalgia to redo a cover I did in 2013-
And so here we are with a cover of "Fallen Angel"!!
youtu.be/Y1m_W-Mlg7c
Hope you enjoy it! 💗💗💗
Credits in the description! 💕
Retweets appreciated*
#歌ってみた #youtaite #pantyandstocking
The fact that are movies that we all have talked about and never even got my @ added to the tall, idk, it really bothers me, but I've had the chance to say something earlier. Or be more assertive. Which I'm not
For real though, idk how I feel that they never told me to join them to watch the movies, and just realised about it after they posted in the shared group chat.
I know I'm not forgotten, I think I've learned enough about them to realise that they are doing this mildly aware of it
Pois é, posso dar os meus rants aqui e já nem me lembrava.
Respondam-me aí, estou a fazer um estudo de caso
You know, maybe this is one of the reasons I get no matches
We're back to the mood to relisten to every Queen album
Lençóis polares, 5 cobertores = confy af bed
Realising I've left uni with essentially 0 friends from it
Interesting day ahead
Our #RBD2024 entry is here!!
We sang 'Dear' by Giga!! 🤍
Please check the full video: youtu.be/xXGO7PaR56o
Was a pleasure to work with everyone even with all the rush !!
I hope you can enjoy it and all credits can be found in the description 🤍🤍🤍
(repost cause link was incorrect)
#youtaite #歌ってみた
