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It’s my favorite movie so far of the year. The acting! 🎭

Soooo damn good.

I did a brave thing. I wrote my story.

It’s the truth of my life, the messy parts, the beautiful parts, the parts I almost didn’t survive.

Alongside is the poetry companion. These are the feelings that didn’t fit neatly into chapters.

MEMOIR: tinyurl.com/5bfn8x7t
POETRY: tinyurl.com/aduate3n

I love watching straight men react to Heated Rivalry. They lean in, laugh, blush, get invested. It makes me believe walls can come down. That more men might finally see two guys loving each other, romantically and physically, and not flinch. Not recoil. Just accept it as what it is. Love.

I finished my memoir and poetry companion book. They go live in a couple days on Amazon. What are good ways to find an audience besides family and friends?

The Vampire Lestat

Excuse me? 🥵

The Boy Aquarium

I’ve watched those first three dropped episodes of “Love Story” about JFK JR. and Carolyn Bessette. I wasn’t going to, but I love the Kennedy dynasty. I’m treating it as a separate story as it’s been fictionalized. JFK JR. would have done great things had he lived.

Got my poetry companion proof book today. The memoir proof comes Monday then mid-week they both go live on Amazon. Holding this today in my hands is a surreal moment. I can’t believe I did it! It’s taken me a long time to finally put the words to paper. My hope is my story to help someone else.

Heated Rivalry

If you see this, post a character that starts with M:

I literally just finished this!

I was obsessed with them!

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Happy Valentine’s Day to my single lovers!

Happy Birthday Hudson Williams

“My All” by Mariah Carey

Click the “like” button if you plan on ordering both of my books. Also, leave an honest review on Amazon. They go on sale next week! I hope I sell some!

Seeing the wave of love and donations pouring into #JamesVanDerBeek’s GoFundMe honestly got me choked up. People show up when it matters. That part is beautiful. A family should not have to rely on public generosity just to survive a health crisis. Our healthcare and insurance system is a mess.

New Memoir and Poetry Companion book promo:

I spent all day formatting my book for Amazon. Redid the cover, reread it a dozen times. I submitted it and now the 72 hour wait begins. Paperback is $12.99, ebook $7.99. Once it’s live, I’ll order a copy to see how it looks. Not perfect, but as close as I could get on my own.

‘Heated Rivalry’ Reaches 10.6 Million Viewers in The U.S. With Audience Increasing by Over 100% Since Finale 'Heated Rivalry' has reached 10.6 million viewers in the U.S. to date, and the show's audience has more than doubled since the Season 1 finale.

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I mourn, every day, the man I might have grown into. The husband I never got to be. The family I carried in my heart but never had the chance to build. I don’t dwell there on purpose, but it finds me anyway, reminding me of the life I imagined and the love I was ready to give.