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I can definitely squeeze in the tv dw I'll start it either tonight or tomorrow

I have not but I am always willing to look it up and learn more 🫡

Oh yeah definitely I only talk to people aiming at recovery but just aren't ready Safe spaces are needed for this kind of this but sadly this is all I have atm But jeez I didn't know it was that bad on twt Feel free to block if my account still isn't sm you wanna see, if not I still like video games

I started this account after my Tumblr got reported for constantly calling out fatspo and bullying I do not care that you are fat genuinely. I know I am not healthy, and I will never say that I am. From my experience ive only seen the same on bsky but I understand if it's not the same for others

-Reduce the issues I have at the root of my eating disorder

I've never had Twitter for more than a day, literally deleted it after seeing a bad star trek opinion. I am not pro ana and refuse to engage w anybody trying to make anyone worse. i understand these spaces can easily become toxic, but my goal is harm reduction till I can get the treatment I need to-

But sorry for the mix up, genuinely thought you were an ED account you show up a lot in the space recommend so hopefully you can get out of that shoehorn by like blocking people n tags like crazy

Huh?? I mean maybe it's because I don't get involved in a lot of discourse but this is the first time I've heard about this. I understand that historically beauty standards are racist, but I dont do this for looks. Im here to talk about being mentally unwell not to uphold systems of oppression

I must have assumed you were an ED account, sorry if you're not

W my stepmom now working evenings and nights and my dad not getting home till the evening I can starve all day till I can't finally have one of my job applications accepted 🎉
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I came back after successfully restricting for a bit tell me why my feed is suddenly porn wtf #edbsky

Haven't been able to consistently restrict, I haven't learn how to skip meals in front of people that actually care, and I have a messy love life so I'm gonna stay off this account till I can get this ball rolling again and because consistent again 💀
#edbsky

Alrighty a month of being at my dad's has made me gain around 10lbs so one breakdown later im forcing myself back into this and HARD.

325 cals today so far..... hopefully I can get away w it.... and not be asked to eat dinner....
#edbsky

Going from the most isolated and body image negative side of the family, to living in a family that actually makes sure you eat and feel cared about this late in my life is actually fucking terrifying... YOURE MESSING UP MY DISORDER LET ME SUFFER #edbsky

I'm so happy to have a pool and long ass walks because the lack of time to be alone is really annoying

Having a family that wants you to relax and be taken care of is terrifying me. QUIT making sure I eat 3 full meals and get snacks. Never going to get used to it. The sooner I get a job the better- anymore weight gain and I will sob.

Been eating really healthy since I moved back in w my Dad but after this hangover I'm gonna let myself go back to restricting slowly and just yoyo till I get a job over here

Do I have a disassociation disorder or did I learn how to daydream so hard I'm now annoying to myself and can't turn it off?

The situation w my roommate has gotten so bad that I've decided to crash on my dad's couch for a while and not only am I upset to have to resort to this, but I'm realizing I probably won't be able to get away w eating once a day... Like I'll have to eat 3 meals a day and In front of family

Sorry I was gone for a while, I fake recovered and then became a bulimic

My roommate keeps saying her "bf" as an ED because he isn't hungry after work sometimes.... Little does she know, wtf when am I going to get accused of an ED

Spent the entire day on 283cals which is pretty impressive considering I ate most of the kitchen 2 days ago
Tomorrow staying under 400🤞

2 melatonin gummies, one serving of Tylenol sore throat medicine, one cup of cold water, and half a cup of cotton candy. If I don't sleep though this cold I shouldn't outlive it

Okay but cotton candy is an underrated sweet in this community like you don't even need a full serving to rid the sweet junkie phases
#edbsky

Wdym my pedometer wasn't counting my steps?.... WDYM MY PEDOMETER WASN'T COUNTING MY STEPS????
#edbsky

Like I still like... Hallucinate? But not really because it's always really short bursts of fucked up corner-of-my-eye shit so CLEARLY my eyes and inner monologue are not to be trusted

Ik a have a noticeable disassociate disorder of some kind just because of other people saying so, but I definitely don't have a system because I feel like I would have known by now like it develops in childhood n all that. I'm probably daydreaming too hard again and being influenced by imagination

Felt like a different person and started eating normally and dropped back down to my usual weight but now the stress of everything is getting to me and I've been itching for a relapse like it's meth. So now that I'm 100 percent sure I will not be influenced by... Uh idk... I'm relapsing!
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-dw

Okay so new plan, (ignore my imagination telling me to eat, focus on muscle, ect, ect...) fast for 3 days, eat a meal under 500 cals, fast for another day, slowly add more calories for 3 days, fast one day, then metabolism day, and repeat till I want to give up!