There's so much going on in my life now, and the last 3 weeks have been super chaotic.
Partner been away. I've been away. Kitchen sink broke = no water or drain. Now we've got visitors staying for some days. Birthdays. X-mas upcoming.
I just want to press pause on life for a while.
Know the feeling. Hang in there!
Reorganization at work; new manager (but ive been dealing with him before), and I get a teamleader to offload him.
Luckily, ive been in this game so long, it doesn't bother me. No organization lives more than 2 years before it needs to be changed.
That's it; doctor ordered long-term partial sick leave. 25% off every day for the rest of the year.
In addition to having already gone from 5-day to 4-day workweek.
I simply can't work, despite being pretty good at what I do, when Im able to do it. 😢
#ActuallyAutistic
Half of the vacation has already passed. And I'm far from rested. In fact, so far, it's been extremely busy with partner being away almost every single evening.
Ah, well. Now, the calmer period of it begins. Then I'll try 4—day working week for the rest of the year...
4:40 and neither my brain or amygdala has any intention to relax and go to bed.
My meds have made me drowsy, but not enough to relax and keep my eyes closed for longer than a minute or two....
Grrr.. I want to sleep!
One week into vacation. Starting to be able to sleep long in the mornings (woke up at about 12, but didn't get up at until 15).
Unfortunately, had a big brawl with the partner yesterday. :-( Barely spoke to her since. Takes me days to recover from such brawls. :-(
Fxxx.
Oh, yes!
I got burned out a decade ago, and has ever since been progressively worse, to the extent that I'm now having real problem getting things done at work.
We did have in-ears and Walkman cassette players back in the '80s.
But before that, I assume the noisiest riders got a punch in the face.
Partner went away for a girls-only trip this morning. Back on Friday. She deserves it.
Today, the ADHD kid and the ADHD/Autism kid is already all over the walls, after being calm for several weeks.
God, please give me strength!
Inner monologue? I just saw a post about people NOT having an inner monologue?!? 🤯
I didn't know there were such a thing as lack of inner monologue!
Anyone here heard about that before?
To me, it's a constant talk, repeating of sentences, visualization of dialogues and snippets of music.
Finally #Vacation! Although the spring holds plenty of national holiday, giving longer weekends, I'm still exhausted. Asked my manager for another week of vacation, and am going to take every Friday off for the rest of the year.
Yes.
EU requests for insurance proof ignored by over a fifth of ships
▶️European Commission remains silent on what action will be taken against ships failing to comply
▶️Head of Oil Pollution Compensation Funds concerned about the ongoing risks involving uninsured vessel
www.lloydslist.com/articles/202...
Sunday saw an attack on Oslo power grid.
A disused transformer next to the new 300 kV one was emptied of 60 ton oil after a break in.
Clumsy execution?
I believe a successful attack would have taken out about 30% of Oslo area electricity transfer capacity, caveat, am not a power engineer.
❗️Russia broke the "ceasefire" and attacked the energy sector in Slovyansk, Donetsk region.
That’s all you need to know…
Finally, I'm on track with my backlog at work. Time for the yearly performance and growth talks. Phew.
Living the life on Hard Mode.
That should be grounds for keeping the ship impounded!
Finslly!
I've finally managed to complete a work-task that's been under my responsibility for quite a while.
Now it's "only" peer-review left to do. Then fix up. But in the mean time, I can Move on to the next.
Probably a case of "why not"? I guess it's done partly as exercise, partly as PR to highlight the event.
Fxck.
Felt bad yesterday, so I had a nap between job meetings.
Today, I didn't even start working.
Anxiety and tired.
After doing "this", I realized it took about 4 times as long as I expected, not only because I also went on another side-track.
One hour left before its time to leave work:
"Fxxx, another day wasted. And no more meeting-less days for a week".
Rinse and repeat.
Next: Starts to re-read up (since I've forgotten what I knew last week) and getting up to speed with what colleagues have done since the last time I checked it out.
Stops midway, thinking "if I do *this* first, I'll get a better understanding of the problem".
I've been procrastinating a lot at work lately. Like a lot.
Usually it goes "yes, tomorrow I have almost no meetings at all - finally i will have time to tackle the X problem!"
Tomorrow:
Starts by tackling the totally unrelated issues popping up during the day, without really finalizing them.
Back at work. Vacation always seems to be too short.
Inlaws coming for a surprise visit. Well, at least that got me into the shower.
Small win!
“Brexit-optimist economist Julian Jessop, a fellow at the Institute of Economic Affairs, admitted that Brexit has made it harder or “impossible” for small businesses to adjust.”
Finally.
Ive showered today!
Like 8 hours after getting up at 1400. After sleeping 12h straight.
Guess I needed to sleep.
