The Autistic Engineer 🇸🇪🇪🇺🇺🇦

Half of the vacation has already passed. And I'm far from rested. In fact, so far, it's been extremely busy with partner being away almost every single evening.

Ah, well. Now, the calmer period of it begins. Then I'll try 4—day working week for the rest of the year...

4:40 and neither my brain or amygdala has any intention to relax and go to bed.

My meds have made me drowsy, but not enough to relax and keep my eyes closed for longer than a minute or two....

Grrr.. I want to sleep!

One week into vacation. Starting to be able to sleep long in the mornings (woke up at about 12, but didn't get up at until 15).

Unfortunately, had a big brawl with the partner yesterday. :-( Barely spoke to her since. Takes me days to recover from such brawls. :-(

Fxxx.

Oh, yes!

I got burned out a decade ago, and has ever since been progressively worse, to the extent that I'm now having real problem getting things done at work.

We did have in-ears and Walkman cassette players back in the '80s.

But before that, I assume the noisiest riders got a punch in the face.

Partner went away for a girls-only trip this morning. Back on Friday. She deserves it.

Today, the ADHD kid and the ADHD/Autism kid is already all over the walls, after being calm for several weeks.

God, please give me strength!

Inner monologue? I just saw a post about people NOT having an inner monologue?!? 🤯

I didn't know there were such a thing as lack of inner monologue!

Anyone here heard about that before?

To me, it's a constant talk, repeating of sentences, visualization of dialogues and snippets of music.

Finally #Vacation! Although the spring holds plenty of national holiday, giving longer weekends, I'm still exhausted. Asked my manager for another week of vacation, and am going to take every Friday off for the rest of the year.

Gen X are just 45-60 yeae Olds, who look like 30-40,but feel like 100-110.

Yes.

EU requests for insurance proof ignored by over a fifth of ships The EU has made it a mandatory requirement for ships passing through European waters to provide proof of insurance, but nobody is clear what happens if the one in five ships refusing to engage do not comply

EU requests for insurance proof ignored by over a fifth of ships
▶️European Commission remains silent on what action will be taken against ships failing to comply
▶️Head of Oil Pollution Compensation Funds concerned about the ongoing risks involving uninsured vessel
www.lloydslist.com/articles/202...

Sunday saw an attack on Oslo power grid.

A disused transformer next to the new 300 kV one was emptied of 60 ton oil after a break in.

Clumsy execution?

I believe a successful attack would have taken out about 30% of Oslo area electricity transfer capacity, caveat, am not a power engineer.

The russian immediate ceasefire on energy and civilan targets lasted for an entire hour...

❗️Russia broke the "ceasefire" and attacked the energy sector in Slovyansk, Donetsk region.

That’s all you need to know…

If you've heard that Putin has agreed to a ceasefire, these are the conditions put by russia: 1. Stop on any military and intelligence aid to Ukraine 2. Stop mobilization in Ukraine 3. Remove "the origin" of the conflict. 4. Prevent Ukraine from attacking oil refineries and ports. However, only point 4 is reported by the US press statement, phrased as "ceasefire on energy infrastructure". Ie., nothing has changed for russia.

Finally, I'm on track with my backlog at work. Time for the yearly performance and growth talks. Phew.

Living the life on Hard Mode.

That should be grounds for keeping the ship impounded!

Finslly!

I've finally managed to complete a work-task that's been under my responsibility for quite a while.

Now it's "only" peer-review left to do. Then fix up. But in the mean time, I can Move on to the next.

Probably a case of "why not"? I guess it's done partly as exercise, partly as PR to highlight the event.

Fxck.

Felt bad yesterday, so I had a nap between job meetings.

Today, I didn't even start working.

Anxiety and tired.

After doing "this", I realized it took about 4 times as long as I expected, not only because I also went on another side-track.

One hour left before its time to leave work:

"Fxxx, another day wasted. And no more meeting-less days for a week".

Rinse and repeat.

Next: Starts to re-read up (since I've forgotten what I knew last week) and getting up to speed with what colleagues have done since the last time I checked it out.

Stops midway, thinking "if I do *this* first, I'll get a better understanding of the problem".

a hamster in a cage with the words run and i run and i get out and i 've gone nowhere Alt: a hamster in a cage with the words run and i run and i get out and i 've gone nowhere

I've been procrastinating a lot at work lately. Like a lot.

Usually it goes "yes, tomorrow I have almost no meetings at all - finally i will have time to tackle the X problem!"

Tomorrow:

Starts by tackling the totally unrelated issues popping up during the day, without really finalizing them.

Back at work. Vacation always seems to be too short.

Inlaws coming for a surprise visit. Well, at least that got me into the shower.

Small win!

The damning statistics that reveal the true cost of Brexit, five years on As January marks five years on from Britain leaving the EU, Alicja Hagopian and Kate Devlin explore its impact

“Brexit-optimist economist Julian Jessop, a fellow at the Institute of Economic Affairs, admitted that Brexit has made it harder or “impossible” for small businesses to adjust.”

Finally.

Man in shirt sleeping against the steering wheel of a car.

Ive showered today!

Like 8 hours after getting up at 1400. After sleeping 12h straight.

Guess I needed to sleep.

I did manage to both get a shower and buy new pants. Despite the risk of an over-crowded mall because of the post-Christmas sales!

I deserve...

... to sleep for a long time tomorrow morning! 😁

Two weeks of vacation is almost up.

Spent most of the time either sleeping or scrolling.

Feels like I've wasted two weeks of potential creativity on nothing.

Maybe I should take a shower today, not waiting 2 days?

#ActuallyAutistic

Meme about the word short is longer than the word lonf

Remember:

A new years resolution doesn't have to be to change your behavior to better fit the society's expectations.

It can be to simply remain authentic and unmask even more.

Jeans seams last only half a year for me.

I grab a new set of those free pencils everytime I visit IKEA, since the ones I got the last time have gone from hexagon shape to round.

Ball pens break within a week.

Strangely, noone ever realized my fidgeting might have been a sign of autism...