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It's kind of funny how in her element she is at Corvis Base before Singing Strix gets going proper. Having her inner voice hype up the place as a sub buffet really isn't going to play as arrogant as I thought

Those rebels are horny BEFORE the big horrors

Bailey, tbh though?????? For an alarming number of future women???????

Always tough. Feel like a weird asshole for trying to get involved and bond here.

Thank you for the kind words though friend 🧡

People can just sense the panicked abuse victim in how I talk and that really sucks too. That I just come off boring and dry and unworthy of talking to. I'll never fit in with anyone

I didn't need this feeling before my trip.

Truly I think I was abused bad enough to be unable to be me and fit anywhere. I'm kind of broken and it means that, even if my writing was exceptional, people wouldn't really, truly want me here.

I'm just naturally off putting because of it and I wish I wasn't. I wish I was enough for cool people

I just can't seem to belong anywhere no matter how much I feel like the people in a community

That's true enough, sure. But it's frustrating that personally, I'm too off putting to make connections with people here. No matter where I go and who I talk to, I never seem to fit anywhere.

I'm always the weird, uncomfortable, distressing one

It's this horrifically melancholic feeling that your permanent absence anywhere would never truly be noticed. I wish I was enough for this space. I love writing here but I'm too messy and too off putting.

I wish I was like everyone else. I'll focus on the trip now

It just doesn't feel nice to know I'm not quite good enough. This community is really nice but I know I'd need to be more than what I am

I'll try and enjoy my trip and pretend I'm okay

I really shouldn't be crying over this I'm sorry. It just always hurts when the hammer hits me and I realize I just don't belong in another community. That I'm too weird and off putting for where I like being.

I really like writing mechsplo but I'm not good enough for this community. I'm sorry.

I try to keep in mind that my role in life is mostly as a background character for others. It's miserable but I know when I go out there and try to yammer with people it never works for me. I'm off putting I think

Regardless, I'll try and enjoy the trip and leave people here be. Apologies

I might silent drop chapter releases too if I keep them up. Thing is kind of bombing and I think that's because it's just not good enough. I can do better and people deserve much better.

My apologies. I'll try to keep to myself better and focus on my trip

Apologies that I've been overly chatty the last few days. Going to try and enjoy my trip and be quieter here beyond posting chapters.

Sorry for being a little invasive and too talkative in people's replies here. I know this isn't really my community beyond writing the same stuff as it. Apologies

Proud of you, ya nebulous family entity. Damn talented one too 🧡

MY FATE IS SEALED THEN. ALRIGHT.

The first two chapters of Hunter Without a Nest are finally up! Featuring a mech fight I'm quite proud of, a call with a mysterious corporate girl, and Bailey living it up in a cheap bar.

Read here:

archiveofourown.org/works/717982...

readonlymind.com/@R_O_Sulliva...

#mechsploitation

No, no, this all makes sense, actually. As long as you're happy, in theory, any family tree makes sense, little Rho!

I'll fit in there somewhere eventually. I make a great house cat!

Part of the fun of seeing it is that it makes zero sense beyond you all being happy about it. Lucky little family <3

There are two doctors who can operate on this woman and she's spending half her life's earnings to make sure they live as long as her lmao

Fun extra challenge as I wrap my pre-trip writing is having Bailey undress and finally figuring out how I want the cybernetic arms to look back there. Wanted to nail the balance of "this is horrible Frankenstein tech that should kill her" and Bailey's commitment to looking sleek and smooth.

Normal for the cool ones!

True! True! True! But what isn't hot when a beautiful god-empress etched from the heavens is doing it? 😵‍💫

Welcome Aoi into your heart. She's not really going to give you a choice, so better to just do it now, riiiiight~?

Fun thing about Bailey is that she is being infinitely more of a bitch to the girlfriend she's fucking than the one she's sending to the NTR dimension (first draft sloppiness incoming)

She has slightly begrudging respect for maybe two women (three or four tops in the future) and the rest... oof

waow finally something good for an irish gal like me from the british

She's playing out the harem route in real time, folks. Be afraid. Be very afraid.

Not jealous though. Obvi.

FEAR MY FIRST DRAFT SLOPPINESS. RUN FROM IT.

But, yes, writing her in her element twice (thrice counting Stray Valkyrie to an extent) before Singing Strix is a lot of fun, given I get to tear her out of it for a good while after c:

Fun thing about Bailey is that she is being infinitely more of a bitch to the girlfriend she's fucking than the one she's sending to the NTR dimension (first draft sloppiness incoming)

She has slightly begrudging respect for maybe two women (three or four tops in the future) and the rest... oof

"You know, Kronk predicted all of this."

"Who did what?"

"You know, the hounds, the assault on Leukon Base."

"Kione Monax. Kronk was the henchman in Emperor's New Groove."

"Oh, right."