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Been friends w these girls my age from work for like 6 months now and im still so awkward around them I hate myself 🤠

My dumbass bought svedka from the convenience store up my street and didn’t realize it was diluted 💔 (even though I know it’s all diluted)

On one hand it’s Friday and I’ve done v well this week, on the other why can’t I go more than 3 days without a binge :,)

Rip </3

It’s 1:30 and I haven’t binged yet today !!! I can do this I can do this I can do this 🤞🏻🤞🏻

Day 4 of no binging but it’s also Friday errr. I already had a Christmas Buzzball this morning because I’m off of work but I planned my meals for the rest of the day so as long as I stick to the plan I’ll be okay 😗🤞🏻

Day 3 of no binging !!!! Tomorrow is Friday and the weekends are literally my downfall every week :,) might have a drink or 2 tmrw but limit my food intake

I literally have so many cute fall/winter outfits I could’ve worn if I just locked the fuck in the last few months :( but I did a 30 min leg day workout and burned 240 cals this morning!!!

sighs heavily

Wtf happened to me in the last 9 months :( missing my lw right now

Bought chicken + a salad from heinens for work but I know as soon as I get home from work my brain will tell me to devour everything in my house 🤠

Been 5 months since I’ve been on here and I’ve gained 30lbs by stuffing my face. Literally HAVE to start holding myself accountable again. It’s gotten so bad I was literally in the ER twice for gastrointestinal pain. I actually hate myself rn chat </3

I haven’t weighed in i almost a week bc im too scared lololol

Day 9: 5/28/25
No alc + no binge!
1066 cals in total
My Stomach is growling + I’m about to go to bed so that’s a plus !!
Reminding myself I am in control. I control when i eat and when i don’t

Day 8: 5/27/25 (forgot to do again)
No alc + no binge!
658 cals ate in total
Forgot to post yesterday but I ended up hanging out w friends after work so I didn’t eat as much :3
If I could have days like this everyday I’d be so happy
Trying to learn that I’m still in control of what I eat :,)

I ate like 4 quest chocolate chip cookie dough bars yesterday + my stomach hurts so fucking bad. Gonna see if I can get through the day just liquid fasting because i definitely don’t need to eat today

Day 7: 5/26/25 (forgot to do)
No alc but major binge
3 day binge in a row how great.
No matter what I do I cannot get out of the cycle of binging on the weekends. I will never get back to my lw bc I will always be a fat pig + devour everything in my house on the weekends. Actual hate myself rn lol

I am a pig

Day 6: 5/25/25
Alc + binge :(
Upset as hell but not gonna show it til tmrw because im drunk at the moment
Im never gonna get back to my lw bc I just keep eating like the fatass bitch I am lololol

Day 5: 5/24/25
No alc but huge binge :(
Idk how many cals I ate
Not extremely thrilled with myself but the more I hold it against me the worse it gets so I’m just heading to bed early tn (should’ve just done that in the first place)
At least I didn’t drink ig

I bought those Olly combat craving capsules today. I’m hoping they work as much as I’ve heard ppl say they do !!! Anyone have any experience ???

Day 4: 5/23/25
No alc but minor binge
1,708 cals ate in total
Upset bc I went 700 cals over my limit today BUT my watch said I burned 1355 active cals today at least :,)
I worked out 5 times today (after every meal)
I’m 4 days off alc tho! I feel like I’m actually semi locked in again :3

On the bright side it’s like 50° out so I’ve been pretending it’s fall (my fav season + my prime skinny season) so I’ve already lost 4lbs :3

I’m such a loser lol </3

Fridays so are bad because I’m off + my parents both work + I have no friends so the urge to binge drink/binge eat is so strong 🥲

Gonna weigh myself tmrw + I haven’t weighed myself in days im so nervous 😭

Day 3: 5/22/25
No alc + no binging!
1,405 cals ate in total
Again, a bit more cals than I’d like, but I ran this morning and worked all day so I’m trying not to tweak about it (I’m gonna tweak about it) 🥲
I’m gonna either run again or do some other cardio in a little bit

Day 2: 5/21/25 (almost forgot to post)
No alc + no binging!
1,026 cals ate in total
Ate a bit more cals than I’d like 🫠usually I aim to eat under 1,000.
Other than that today was an easier day I guess. Going to bed + my stomach is growling so that’s a win lol

Day 1: 5/20/25
No alcohol + no binge eating!
950 cals ate in total
I still feel bloated because I did binge yesterday but hey one day at a time.
Other than that I actually feel pretty good.
Gonna start going to bed early if I can’t stop thinking about food because idk what else I can do anymore.

Gonna start logging how I feel each night, whether I binge or not. Maybe it’ll help my brain realize I actually feel better without stuffing my face with bullshit 🥲💔