I have 50 billion fictional husbands

I’m in deep… fuck this tragic villain and his stupid red hair and his stupid snakes and his stupid pretty face!!!

Listening to sappy unrequited love music and crying over my fictional husband

If Hiro has at least a good prognosis I swear I'll start cooking him dinner from now on. I'll make sure he eats the best he's ever had for however much time he has left.

I’m a fat old average looking loser, I’ve lost one dog and am about to lose another, I barely make enough to pay bills, I have no drive to create anymore. God I just hate it all! Why am I like this.

If I didn’t have Chunkers and Lilac to care for I might have just gone with him. This is just the worst possible outcome. Why is this happening to me, right after I lost my Nikki

If he needs any kind of surgery, my mom made it clear she’s not helping me pay for it, or for at home euthanasia again. If it’s bad, I might be forced to put him down right away.

I’m so nervous about Hiro’s biopsy results I feel like I’m on the verge of a panic attack.

My screen showing lots of little drawings of mice enjoying soup and posing with veggies

🐁🐁🐁

Lets be real here, the reason I want validation that I'm pretty is so my fantasies of fictional men falling for me at first sight have a basis in reality LMAOOOOO

Also my Hiro got his biopsy done today. Waiting for the results is gonna drive me crazy... He's outwardly doing fine. He's just laying on my bed hoping I'll give him some of my dinner. I won't because it's covered in spicy seasoning, but I'll give him a snack later.

but to add onto it, there's another voice that says "wait but we don't want that kind of attention it just disgusts you" and then I weep because I'm a grown ass woman and still don't know what I want out of life LOL

if I was super pretty that my quiet nature wouldn't get this much in the way.

IDK I feel like sometimes I just need reassurance that I'm not some ugly troll woman, but also not just "eh" either. It shouldn't matter because I think I'm pretty! But fuck if the craving for validation doesn't nag at me

Am I ugly and fat? Am I the most adorable girl on earth? Am I average? I keep bouncing between the three. I wish I didn't tie how attractive I am with how much I get complimented. I tell myself it's because I'm reserved, and that's why no one approaches me in earnest, but then another voice says

Feeling bad about myself and my appearance tonight...

It’s not like she didn’t already go on a Disney trip without me, and isn’t already going on one next November without me (with her friends!) because I couldn’t get the time off, she also had to plan to be even meaner just because she had to clean up after the dogs.

I lost my Nikki and will soon probably lose my Hiro and my family doesn’t give a fuck, still whine and complain about all my shortcomings even as I work full time, and then ruin my vacation.

I love my family even though they are so mean to me all the time. And I can’t even get mad at her about it because she’ll just make herself the victim.

My little sister cried to my mom how awful it was to take care of the pets for us because the dogs ate so gross, and then she conspired with mom to go to Disney without me on my birthday as some kind of revenge

레전자도 재밌게 했어요. 아래는 플레이 캐릭터

Sparkly sparkly

Commission of my Tarnished and Messmer from @missusruin.bsky.social

This is just... awful. I just lost his mommy to cancer. And if I lose him, then his baby brother is gonna be without his best friend, and Chunky has always been a healthy dog but... I'm just terrified I'm gonna lose all three of my remaining childhood dogs in the next year.

Yeah it looks like the vet found a "scrotal mass" on Hiro and wants a FNA to see if it's cancerous. It's gonna be max 240... my dad keeps telling me it's pointless to do because if it's cancer there's nothing we can do about it. I dunno. If it is at least I'll have an answer...

It never ends! It never ends! It never ends!

My dog Hiro might have cancer now

I lost a black dog, so I had to get a black kitty of course ☺️

My new kitten Yume ❤️