Keebs!

A black and white puppy in a tiny bed with a plush crab for a pillow

tell me about the fun stuff youve been doing lately!! and in return, here's a recent sora pic because she loves her crab

- very mild spoiler, but the movie had a couple scenes that were NOT emetophobia friendly
BUT, i'm very proud of myself because!! i was able to handle it!!! i've done a lot of work getting a handle on my phobia and i've made so much progress ;o;

- i also got back into neopets as is annual tradition

- i played the long con by getting addie into enjoying distractible with me a year or so ago so we could both go see iron lung
- we did go see iron lung last night!! i'm not a horror movie person and i had no real expectations going in, but i really enjoyed it (the cinematography was phenomenal)!

little life updates because it's been a while!!

- sora is a little over six months old now!! she's been doing amazing 🩵 she's still very much a puppy, but she's starting to really mature, and i'm really proud of her progress with her training.

it looks like for whatever reason, the colours on the bluesky upload are washed out compared to how they're supposed to look >:(

A screenshot of the Electrician in-game. He's standing on a pole in Metropolis at night, holding a charged electric spear. He has a teal glow the same colour as his body, and the mark of communication hovers above his head.

canon-compliant appearance:

A reference sheet for a Rain World OC, a slugcat called the Electrician. The poses featured in the artwork include a front view, a back view, a side view of him walking, a frightened mouth-open expression, a small stylized doodle, and a series of silhouettes to show his size compared to Thorn (a scavenger) and an average slugcat. The design notes in the image are as follows: - Mark of communication - Short ears and big nose - Stubby fingers - Can be drawn with two or three fingers - Short and chubby build - Whiskers and antennae move involuntarily with emotions - Stylize me however you want!

oh i forgot to post Lex's ref here!!

“Lex” the Electrician | he/him (they/them OK)

💚 Scavengers, Pearls, Jellyfish, Small Centipedes (as food)
❌ Explosives, Red Centipedes, Jetfish, Squidcadas, Garbage Worms, anything else that would bully him

full info: www.tumblr.com/deerkibble/7...

#silksong

a little kid walked up to us at the end of puppy class and says to us, "your puppy is the cutest puppy in the class!"
(mind you their family has their own puppy with them!)

sora has been a lot of fun and she makes me happy!! and the grievances of having a puppy are going to be so worth it when she's an adult (doing training with her has been one of my favourite things!)

i still wish we'd waited longer, but at the same time, i'm so glad we have our sora now

don't get me wrong—it's been really hard without luna. i'm going to miss her forever. filling the silence in the house with a puppy didn't do anything to negate those feelings, not that i expected it would.

having sora has brought me a kind of structure that has been helping me get through, however

i also have to say, i felt like i was suffocating through my anxiety attacks within that first week of having sora, holy hell

things got significantly better during the second week, going into week three, the anxiety is pretty much completely gone

i've been really happy to have sora here ;o;

okay okay fine because i need to show her off. photos of my wuppy because i love her and her stupid little darling face so much

And here is the Little Free Library World Map: littlefreelibrary.org/map/

Art of Raya from Yokoka's Quest, looking upwards as she is either falling or jumping with her legs and arms spread upwards.

Guess who's here!!
(hint: it's Raya!!)

(🎨 by @deerkibble.bsky.social) #YokokasQuest

one of our friends irl also has a small child (just under 3 now) and it reminds me of all the nights he'd be like, "okay, i can play games tonight, daughter's asleep"
and then she'll wake him up at 3am because she wanted fruit loops

having a new puppy (and crate training her) has also taught me to appreciate how long two hours feels when she's taking her naps

i know Sora is the name of a few notable fictional characters, but we picked the name because of the meaning, and the syllable count (all of my pets' names have had two syllables so going against that felt wrong LOL)

sora, the sky, and luna, the moon... i thought it was really lovely ;o;

i mentioned on tumblr i'm not posting pictures of her yet for privacy reasons, but our puppy's name is Sora!

she's a border collie mix but she's like. a border collie face on a jack russell-sized body. all her siblings have proportionate legs, except for her. she's so tiny and i want to cry over it

so yes, i still regret getting another dog so soon. sometimes i regret getting a puppy, who needs a lot of supervision and activity, as opposed to an adult dog.

but i already love our new puppy, and i know she's going to turn out amazing. she's already so, so good!!

it's going to be okay.

all of it has been extremely rough. i do feel like it IS slowly getting better, and i know that eventually the anxiety will go away as i adjust to the changes.

addie and i have been talking a lot about the things we can do to honour luna and work on healing. i know that, too, will mend with time.

i don't want to get too deep into it here either, but the other piece is that i didn't give myself enough time to process losing luna. i didn't think it could get any worse than it was, but it feels like i'm already ripping into fresh wounds.

i'm not resentful of the puppy, but i miss luna so much.

i want to be clear, while it's very valid to be frustrated about your puppy's behaviours, that hasn't been the case for me!

my anxiety feels completely irrational, but a lot of it has to do with the unknowns about the future, massive life changes, and feeling like i fucked up getting a dog so soon.

i only recently learned that "puppy blues" isn't just a cute term for feeling upset over the normal things puppies do. it's a real phenomenon that's a lot closer to PPD, and apparently it's common to develop severe paralyzing anxiety as soon as the new puppy comes home

as i have learned firsthand!!

i am so glad we have her. she's already so smart, she's friendly with new people, she's sweet and affectionate.

what i wish i'd known going in was how bad my anxiety would get having her around, and how much it intensified my grief over losing luna.

we found an adorable border collie mix from out of state, a puppy who had been taken from a hoarder situation. we applied, not expecting it to actually go anywhere.

well. we got accepted, we met her, and went through with the adoption.

let me tell you, first off, she is a WONDERFUL puppy!!

we lost luna a month ago. i hated the quiet.
we had been tentatively preparing ourselves for a second dog over the past few years (we wound up deciding against it, but i've been doing a lot of research and slowly accumulating supplies)

so, we'd been looking on petfinder mostly hypothetically.

so, i mentioned this on tumblr, but!! we got a new puppy!!

we have had her for four nights and it's already been a huge roller coaster of emotions.

it's been helping to talk about, and i already typed out and then deleted a thread this morning LMAO, so here goes

i do keep meaning to use this website more consistently. just. everything fucking sucks right now