forlorn diary girl

Vacuuming (Research Project) by y4k0 First-Person Godot Game and Survey for my graduation project.

after so many months,,, behold,,, my vacuum (pls play,,, for my research >3<)

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i love speaking to myself through time and space so, here little future flower:

i am going to graduate, i am going to get a visa, i am going to get a job, i am going to spend eternity with my beloved amongst the stars.

popping my head in here to see how everything's looking,,, oh,,, can that other site explode already so everyone's in one place again.....

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I'm glad you're alive <3

meow meow ^3^ i wont be using here here very much but i just wanted to leave a note for future me / anyone else who stumbles upon this place

haiiiii :333 u deserve to be happy !!

yes i am aware of the irony of this tone ^3^ it's delicious

I come from a place where I was already broken; there was nowhere to go but up.

I'm enjoying the view now that I can see the sky and breathe. Each day feels like a dream - some unremarkable but always better than where I came from.

i feel cathartic now from yesterday, but also a dull bitterness from how my country's history is being literally rewritten and censored because that human garbage son of a dictator got elected

I feel loved

my heart feels so warm

I was born to sing the blues...

I dream in black and white - see it all through Laser Eyes..

before I go.. before I go...

I'll see it all through Laser Eyes
I'll see it all through Laser Eyes
I'll see it all through Laser Eyes
I'll see it all through Laser Eyes

Again I find myself speaking through different tongues, different fragments of myself spread across time.

I hold them all close to my heart, because they all need/needed/will need love.

Gratitude for every self and broken piece of mirror.

slowly, eventually, I will reach my pool of serenity

warm water and ripples from fountainheads

i will be free, i will bathe in the minerals of the earth and connect my consciousness to the heartbeat of the universe

this platform rlly does feel like it doesn't have much juice

bestfriend drew us and it made me cry like 5 times it's so heartwarming how they see me

i think this is good. i should tap into my real life more, just for this week. bye for now

ah,, im glad im taking a break from being online - this is good for my psyche, i have to remember i still exist in real life

ah goodmorning sunlight mood stabilization

i forgot how it felt like.. it's torture to my mind.. i cant .. i csnt fucking breathe

I cry again now; seeing your face brought no emotion, but the way you looked at me..... I haven't felt that in so long. I don't think I've ever felt that from anyone but you.

I hope one day that changes.

...still a bit surprised at how "normal" I look in this photo

im actually a really bubbly person irl if u can even believe that lolol

so eager to share myself with the world; I wonder why?
(I know why)

I think stretch marks are so beautiful
lovely lines of lightning-stricken change

had a nap and horrifyingly torturous dreams again we are so back

remembered my past and how I did everything for my trans ex just because I wanted it done to me so bad, and i thought "this was the closest i could get" since i thought having it done to me was impossible

i still see it as "impossible" that nothing short of a miracle would save me

..... the song is stuck in my head now

i just woke up what the fuck did i write here (im glad u were happy and manic past me)

happiness psychoanalysis done !!

it felt so nice existing in the gym with the current me. In my boy past, I went to the gym because of severe heartbreak and body dysmorphia.

Now I'm just here to get hotter !! And to fit in clothes easier/get healthier. Cathartic.