Lane

It's
Tiring lol
Having a past of being disposable follows you.

The ever present looming manic itch that says "everyone is pretending to like you," "you need to be better NOW," "you're not as important as you think you are" regardless of the reality at hand

I literally come in, do my job, support my coworkers, laugh and hee ha with everyone, go home. One single person has a problem with me. One single person has EVER had a problem with me on this team.

Have never had a manager go to a coworker and say "I think he's not doing his job bc xyz, I think he's bullshitting call outs to make me mad, I think Lane is bitter and retaliating against me." but here we are.

Tomorrow I get to explain to my manager why it upsets me that he spread untrue rumors about me behind my back and I. Am tired lmao I am too old!

@littleconan.bsky.social hi

Need to get rid of that disease I have where I vow to put in the minimum and still end up doing the most.

EEPY!!!!

Man
My brain clawing at the curtains wanting attention yet plagued by the ever looming dread that I am not wanted
Can you take a BREAK

Do you get bored, brain? Huh? Huh???

The bipolar urge to just

Love the fall but that first week of chilly weather MURDERS!!! my sinuses

Putting my name on a new roleplay thing always makes me nervous bc oh no what have they heard about me on THIS corner of the internet??

If I can't transfer, they're about to see what happens when I check out, after consistently filling all the spaces they needed filled. I was teaching. I was helping everywhere. I was supporting when my coworkers needed someone. Fuck that.

But oh fucking well. They dug their own graves. I'm fed up with the bullshit and bouncing out for the holiday when they'll really need me. See how they like it when they don't have the support they need, either.

The manager himself is new and inexperienced. I cannot stress what a stupid choice this is, to appoint someone even newer and even less experienced. He needed someone he could lean on, not have to teach from scratch.

It didn't even need to be me. It just had to be a fair fucking shot. No one got a chance to even TRY. I would be happy for anyone on my team to take the spot.

I'm planning to let everyone know what happened, too. People deserve to know when an entire team got fucked out of a competent leader.

They are losing at least two of their best people to this shit. Hope it was worthwhile hiring someone with zero knowledge or experience in our department.

So instead of letting anyone interview for the open asst. manager position they appointed some unqualified person from sales. As the most qualified person, I am very upset.

About to be spiteful and transfer. To sales. lololol

I forgor to post my pride fit this year on the interwebs.

Idk man I can't be nonchalant with my friends if I tried. I am obsessed with all those bitches.

Good to hear 🥺😌 also hi

Maybe this will be my [SCREAMS INTO THE VOID] social media bc literally there is no one here to Witness lmaooo

Trapped and tired.

I have written a thing and perhaps I will write more of the thing.
archiveofourown.org/works/66035299

joshneku

So uhh. whatcha doing there guys
#art #twewy #ntwewy #neotwewy #joshneku

Neku tryna flirt with Josh and Josh looks at him n goes, "call me when you're off your parents' phone plan."

Trying to turn off that part of my brain that sees the latest bullshit and wants to vigorously rub my family's face in it screaming "fucking apologize!!!"