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Little miss nothing without male attention

I want to feel loved and chosen and cared about sigh..

Please someone just idk take me out for good atp idfc

I cant deal with people ,an its too much for me I dont have the fucking facilities for this shit

Im a fucking soul diminishing parasite fuck duck duck I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO i just want to be likeable but my stupid fucking mental problems just get in the way of that and then I get stumped on what to do to retain the limeableness I worked so hard for and its ALL LOST BC I ALWAYS CHOOSE THE WDONG

And I feel like fucking shit rn but I always fucking do and I always drag him into it and he says its not too much but its literally disgusting EVERY DAY I hit rock bottom and he just has to put up with it he's gonna start fucking walking on eggshells around me and I HATE THAT MAN I HATE IT

I CANT DO IT IM NOT BUILT FOR THIS GET MENOUT GET ME OUT

Tell him anything about it because he's gonna think I'm a jealous fuck which I DONT WANT TO BE fml

I have too many mental issues to be a good gf... everything was fine and then he talked about that fumbass girl which I wasn't thinking anything of at first but FUCK WHY does it have to be like this??? Why do I have to go through this??? I just started fucking spiraling from there and ofc I can't

Idk anymore man.. I just want to be a likeable person and gf whys this shit so hard?? I can't do this. Every single thing I have to conte,plate on its just driving me nuts. I can't do it any,ore. Everyday lately I just think gosh I hope I dont wake up tmr 💔 I dont like this man I want out

Need to Knowledge Management System myself immediately

It'll never be okay. I will never be good enough because I wasn't good enough then.

WHY do I always feel like I have to fight fucking tooth and nail to be seen and loved. WHY CANT PEOPLE LIKE ME. WHY CANT I BE LOVABLE WHY CANT I DO ANYTHING RIGHT WHY CANT I JUST BE GOOD ENOUGH I DONTBGET IT!!!!! INTRY SO HARD SO FUCKING HARD

If I break up with him, stop talking to all my friends, not register for next semester and get rid of most of my stuff I'm good to go

Yea idk it just ain't gonna work i think I just need to isolate until there's nothing to hold onto anymore

Yea so um idk i think it has to happen. I still have the same habits I had at 16 and I low-key don't think I'm gonna change and I'm not happy so idk maybe I should like just end jt fr cus like it'll always be this way

At least I'm smart enough to know people don't mean what they say

No amount of therapy is gonna uncover why nobody has ever wanted me. It won't erase the fact that I was unwanted from the moment I was conceived to every moment I breathe now

Why am I so freaking unwantable

Please somebody just go back and erase all the bad and replace it with good so I don't have to feel like this 4n

Emotional labour

I just want SOMEONE to hear me and say wow that's awful I love you so much and I always will no matter what and I'll support you through this no matter how hard it is because I love u as a person and I want u genuinely... is that so much to ask for??

I have passed thr point of needing to talk.I need to just end it

Anxious attatchment where I get the slightest bit of attention from someone especially a man and I immediately become overwhelmed by the urge for them to be responsible for my emotional wellbeing

Ya so um it ain't gonna work

Once again considering isolating from everyone so I have a better reason to kay em ess

Dont even get me started on tge rrsponse ibget when i try to bring issues up. Little old me has nothing of value to say. The secobd i criticise u its a wrap. It must be right? Cus urcallergic to self reflection. So yea idc

Responsible for me and u didnt care how i would be affectec so yes fuck u end of story. Let me see the look on your face when the rest of ur children turn on u too.

So i dont care. I dont give a flying fuck becausexall not im still an enemy tonu. I truly dgaf. I know for a fact u never did gaf and u nevercwill so why must i?? You cannot make me feel bad about my actions until uve taken a LONG. HARD. lookb at yourself bc U were the parent. U were the one

Response. Every little move i made would be met with unfair criticism. Just pure judgement and ud make sure i know JUST how much u were DISGUSTED by me!!!! You called me fuckijg DISGUSTING BRO FUCK YOU when i dont do the shit u want me to do how u want me to do it im DISGUSTING