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🙏🏻🖤 I never win things but I’ll give it a shot so let’s goooooo

Needless to say I needed to know we had a house fire right that moment

If anyone ever needs proof that divine protection is real: last night had I streamed I would not have a home. Around 9pm I heard a pop and fizz like a sprinkler coming on, and was sitting on my floor pulling cards to see the “ash” card appear. I had asked for what I needed to know right then and uh

- more great books to get lost in
- more moments of silence and holy stillness
- more sauna
- more consideration + conversational kindness
- more soft clothing
- more long winding walks
- more consistent stream times
- more lofi
- more ease in my space
- more organization
- more flow

The rest of my 2025:
- more talking to Ishtar all the time
- more occultists who have done their work and wrestled with some hard shit
- more celebration of little magic on the daily
- more spontaneous miracles
- more belly deep laughter
- more staring at the stars
- more fire pits
- more good food

I’ve had a lot of loved ones die over the last 2 decades, I’ve learned that there’s no point in keeping my rhetorical powder dry. If something sucks I’d rather say it and maybe upset someone than die and regret never getting it out there and maybe effecting some change in a positive direction.

Door in the gate.

This is by no means an exhaustive list because I’m not perfect by any means. If anyone out there has similarly experienced interpersonal abuse, feel free to add things that work for you to the list 🖤✨🫂

- nervous system de-escalation: practicing techniques to calm and ground myself when I feel the spiral coming

- not keeping up with people who are keeping up with those spaces

- taking mixed signals as a “no” the first time

- learning how to work with my body’s rhythms

- grieving long + hard

- not engaging with people who are determined to paint the people that hurt me in the best light possible (I already overthink enough)

- exercise (when appropriate)

- practicing cultivating a sense of trust in forces outside me (prayer)

- lots of exposure to food, nature, scenes of power

recovering from intense interpersonal abuse has looked like:

- focusing on my hobbies in moments where I can’t stop feeling angry about what happened to me not having any justice done

- taking lots of long slow walks alone or with my dad

- letting friendships that are judgy fall away

For anyone who has also had a month of near constant bad news: hang in there 🫂🖤

Having a really hard time functioning at all amidst all of the world events + my own personal conundrums. I have no idea if it’s just me, or if everyone is collectively here too, but it feels very strange to have nothing that sparks even an iota of joy or interest

Downy Woodpecker

Watching Joffrey and Reek trying to bully Jon Snow was quite a thing.

I have watched so many Scandinavian crime shows I feel like I am a depressed detective with a dark past battling alcoholism with a family life that is falling apart due to the long hours I work obsessively hunting down some dude in a knitted sweater.

Ricardo Gatti sculpture

3 science stories from the last week that you might have missed 🧪:

😖 Chronic stress inhibits brain circuits that promote flexible decision making while boosting circuits for inflexible habits

🏔️ Mountain ranges could be treasure trove of natural hydrogen

🧠 Gut microbiome linked to MS

In Early-Phase Pancreatic Cancer Clinical Trial, Investigational mRNA Vaccine Induces Sustained Immune Activity in Small Patient Group Learn how MSK researchers are deploying mRNA vaccines against pancreatic cancer.

An #NIH-funded research team has developed an mRNA vaccine to treat pancreatic cancer. Results from the clinical trial were published this week in Nature.

#pancreas #cancer #mRNA #vaccine #medsky #science #medicine #bluesky

👀 NEW: the current under secretary of State for Management, Ambassador Tibor Nagy, has sent an email regarding OPM's request for five accomplishments: "No employee is obligated to report their activities outside of their department chain of command."

Finding moments of happiness in this wild world has been tricky tbh, but family, friends, art, food, games and stories have helped quite a bit.

Been getting more hyped about personal art! In particular oils! Oh and got manga paper to hopefully get started on telling my own stories!!

Thank you!

Very nearly forgot to post this one- but my mother accidentally dosed my sweet little dog’s eyeballs with superglue instead of his medicated eyedrops- and so this piece was born of my resulting anguish. Things are looking up now, but at first it was quite horrifying

I’m trying to use screens less so I’m trying to read more actual paper books and draw/paint more in my sketchbooks

Another day I haven’t inherited a charming yet battered bed and breakfast by the sea with a dark history only I can uncover

Whenever you hear someone sneer about scientific research that seems useless to them — “they’re studying the spit of lizards?!” — remind them that’s exactly how we got Ozempic.

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Wasps of various colors

As a former member of this field, all I can say is I am sickened that an industry that is already thankless is now being even more horribly ravaged by these policies. These are, unquestionably, America’s darkest hours.