i think it does have some good flavor that’s easy to miss if you’re particularly sensitive to spicy things but it also pairs really well with their house made sauce (or ranch if that’s your thing) and all of their spice levels work with the rest of their menu
i’m guessing from the name they used carolina reapers for that? th chicken place near me uses ghost peppers for their hottest 🌶️
oh god how bad is the stomachache? i did the same thing once before and nearly threw up 💀
but uh yeah my food isn’t gonna get here for another 20-40 minutes and i’m not sure how i’ll manage it
is anyone available to talk bc i was supposed to eat three and a half hours ago but i only JUST ordered food and idk if i’ll be able to manage eating alone tonight bc my friend gave up on me so now i’m just like what’s the point in eating (even though i know i need it for my meds to absorb properly)
girl dinner
it makes me feel absolutely disgusting and question if literally anyone would want anything to do with me whenever i get turned down and there’s no way to say “i want to have sex and if you say no i will want to die” without being manipulative!!!!!!!! i hate this!!!!!!!!
i don’t care if you were planning a threesome tomorrow!!!!!!! i want you and you alone to hold me down and [redacted] right now!!!!!!!!!! other people can be fun but they’re usually so disappointing and i just want YOU!!!!!!!! no one else!!!!!!!!!!
i just need someone to talk to but of course no one responds to me!!!!!!!! i don’t want to have to text the fucking suicide hotline because i’m pissed off enough at the fact that i’m horny but can’t get someone to fuck me that it makes me want to kill myself!!!!!!!!
new piercing!! ordered some ends for it too
update i definitely had a reason to be upset but we talked and i realized i was in fact splitting. calmed down and apologized for how i spoke to him and trying to piss him off. we’re gonna try therapy and i’m gonna do my best to find ways to communicate with him more.
have fun with your family. don’t even think about me. expect me to worship the ground you walk on when you get back just like i always do. tell me about all the ways i’m not good enough and how you’re reaching your breaking point. i’m not gonna kms tonight but good god it might happen soon anyway.
i thought he loved me yknow? he says he does but he hasn’t really been showing it recently (at least not the past month) and it’s making me feel like shit to say the least. idk if i’m splitting or if i’m justifiably upset but i don’t want anything to do with him right now.
he didn’t call me at all when i was in the hospital and every time i called we barely spoke until last night when he told me he was going to baltimore even though i let him know i’d be home today and told him LAST WEEK i wanted to spend christmas with him.
i don’t know if i want to tell him how his (lack of) actions makes me feel when i talk to him next because i’m sure it’ll just end in an argument.
was discharged today. thought things would be good when i got home but i feel so angry and neglected by my partner to the point that i haven’t even told him that i’m back. i’ll let him have fun with his family and not think about me until he gets back MAYBE on the 26th.
so i’m not dead. had a serious mh crisis last week and didn’t have a choice when it came to going to the hospital (my therapist would’ve had ems take me involuntarily)
can’t do anything until after christmas gifts are done but maybe if i start planning now i’ll finally be able to kill myself soon
it’s 3:20 and i can hear people “talking” (yelling) and laughing outside should i blast no cock like horse cock out the window
WHY CANT YOU ADMIT WHEN YOURE WRONG ITS O-FUCKING-KAY TO BE WRONG ABOUT THINGS SOMETIMES AND IT REALLY FEELS LIKE YOU DONT RESPECT ME ENOUGH AS A PERSON TO ACTUALLY SAY “YEAH YOU HAVE A POINT” AND APOLOGIZE
i got boba and they sent a cake??? thing?? i’m not sure what it is bc the packaging is entirely in chinese but i’m loving “lactic acid bacteria flavor”
be so fr am i giving blue hair and pronouns or just a cool guy
i think this may be my new go to hair color i love it so much
whenever i drink directly from a two liter bottle i feel like a toddler who has been granted his special big boy drink
losing my mind a little at this interaction
look what i bought my partner for his birthday isn’t it so fun
i brought my loops to work with me and they’re actually helping a lot but i am worried the supervisors are gonna think they’re earbuds and get mad at me
the fact that i have to work on my birthday should be illegal
everyone abandons me it keeps happening maybe i should just give up on holding onto relationships and let it all fail maybe if i run away to kill myself i’ll finally make people happy maybe i was never meant to make it
really feeling like the best option for everyone is for me to kill myself
