kiku vents a bit.

doesn't matter now because i'm tired of this fucked up website. having no fun anyways. fuck you.

i wasn't even mentioning what happened directly or who it was because i was just uncomforable an upset because it was someone i know i couldn't ask about privately anymore. I was scared i fucked up and that people would sprepad lies about me because that's fucking happened before.

also subtweeting about someone having a panic episode is scum and you should feel bad.

doesn't fucking matter anymore because i have this person blocked now.

"no one should feel bad for curating their space" uh huh i had my fucking reasons for feeling paranoid. i am in the same discord server as the person that blocked me so of course i was paranoid. so fucking sorry that i'm used to being hurt and stalked by people that do this kind of thing.

whatever.

also kinda wanna deactivate everything and have people forget i fucking exist.

people not reading into shit, acting like they know everything when they don't, and trying to join in when I'm strictly MDNI and i'd really fucking prefer if minors didn't get involved with things I do because i can't actually DO anything with them so it feels wrong and uncomfortable.

Seriously thinking about undoing the SL for Integrity I was working on and keeping it not only mdni but more strictly between people i trust if I even do it anymore.
i am tired of doing SLs and then feeling like I am not even remotely as important as the others despite hosting the SL.

And then

idk if it's a good idea for me to be here.

The newer fans of the series aren't going to see the appeal of the original either, I feel.

There were people upset that it was made in unity- i gues that's a little rightful? I don't know. Unity gets a lot of shit.

like the original sound track and some of the sprites back to their previous states. So yeah.

It's harder for me to just accept changes and move on sometimes when it comes to things I like, but I guess that's why i'm just happy I have the original to play instead personally. On top of that, I want to assume people are going to find a way to mod things

that bothered me along with the fact the artstyle doesn't feel as.... gritty for the promotional art / etc.

I do hope these are just valid criticisms.

I am a little miffed about toby putting his own oc references into a song for a character that actually isn't related other than his being inspired by it, but.... y'know, that's just me nitpicking a bit.

Again. I know you said it's no one here but i'm honestly thinking those are the main things

i do apologize about my reaction falling into this criteria, i just was honestly upset that the music didn't capture the same feeling that the game gave me.

yes i get it yOU WERE INSPIRED OH MY FUCKinG GOD

kinda angry dedan's song sounds nothing like dedan's theme it's just. papyrus now.

having just replayed zone 1 mostly, I . GENUINELY feel like the music has less of a fucking impact

bitter

i'm sorry but . you should have the rights to your own game's music?
no offense to toby fox doing the remaster's music but hte fact pepper steak isn't even in the game anymore pisses me off for some reason.

Toby Fox's music feels... too different from OFF. That's my opinion. I guess i'm kinda

OFF SPOILERS?? Idk i'm just.

is anything different

i'm tired of seeing this on skeetdeck and tokimeki keeps glitching out.

part of me really wants to be on neutral terms with chris again but idk. i'm just still abit uncomfortable.

LOVE

Make sure to check all your stuff when you're settled down. Worst comes to worst, you could have left it at your uncles house iirc and you can likely go back to grab it i think?

I really get uncomfortable seeing portrayals of yuri from ddlc as relapsing into self harm for horror elements. I mean monika pushes it, yes, but it just doesn't sit well with me as someone who has self harm tendencies and has relapsed in the past. i just really don't like it.

i don't know why but i feel so uncomfortable.

started to panic abruptly again. cool cool fucking cool great fuck