MaddyFox_NSFW

I’ve been outed as a gamer

Concert was nice but anxiety and other mental health issues make me really uncomfortable around crowds

And because I need to stay true to the nsfw part of this account…

Going to a concert

Time to make it impossible to do anything!

Going on a mini vacation tomorrow, and going to be a bit busy the rest of the week, so potentially no updates for a while.

On the plus side, I get to be a little bit /fancy/ tomorrow night.

In the meantime here's an old picture I don't think I've posted before?

The combination of Bluesky staff going off the rails and literally every other website having some crusade against NSFW stuff makes me think I need to just learn how to make my own website for pictures

😢

It happens and I’m desensitized to it at this point but it would be nice to not always be “one of the guys” in every single group

Find new internet community to be a part of.
Put in profile and use she/her pronouns.
Actively tell people multiple times I’m a girl.

“Must be a guy”

🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

Four locks never hurt anybody

It's also the most dangerous!

Which to use this weekend 🤔

It was difficult wanting to volunteer and hiding my frustration when I was told no.

Actively doxxing myself with costumed lore

Keeping on the subject of the last few days, my biggest regret is having a job six years ago where I came dangerously close to these, but was three inches too tall to fit and had to be a handler instead.

I’ve wanted to do it for so long but unfortunately moved out of the area that had some opportunity, and my current area has literally nothing available

I’ve always been a big fan of city mascots or convention booth mascots and I would die for the opportunity to try it one day.

I just wanna run around and sweat in a dumb animal costume or do a stage show.

I don't want to be at a front facing desk job with people who are never satisfied with what you do.

Does it make me a weeaboo if I envy Japan's mascot culture and would take a job like that without hesitation over the jobs I've had now?

This is almost exactly how I’m feeling lately and feeling like I’m beating myself up because my needs aren’t more demanding than what my partner can or wants to provide.

It's definitely that. It's not like I'm not cared for, but with all the garbage I have to deal with outside of plush suiting sometimes I just want to disconnect from the world and disappear for a couple of hours with no obligations and it's hard to do that :/

I appreciate it but I will continue to be self depreciating until the end of time until everything finally decides to work in my favor

The hardest part for me is just trying stuff. There's not really an outlet around here to experiment more than I have.

I'd love to find a group to do this but the hardest part is that my fetishes are a bit more tame compared to others and it's hard to not have an interest in one thing and suddenly be lumped into people thinking I'm into seven other different fetishes I have zero interest or involvement in.

The hardest part of wanting to talk about these thoughts and feelings is the fear of being judged or ridiculed for talking about kink interests or fantasies openly.