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my brain taught me that if i'm "fine", or even just at ease, it means:

a. i must be forgetting something;

b. i've been faking all of my mental issues while gaslighting myself into thinking i was sincere to have the perfect excuse to be a lazy piece of shit + a neglectful friend;

Transmutation

i really wanted to doodle an old man && then i forgot what i was doing.

#art

i am currently wearing a video games ruined my life t-shirt.

its fun to paint i need to do it more

wait a second. these chords are immaculate.

let's drop the "this is the enemy's weapon" logic && just make fun of rightards. i love my boring fact-checking, but it's not an effective enough strategy on its own. we need more.

i also just like to laugh instead of feeling dispear every single day, but maybe that's just me.

making albums is the best mental health checkpoint i have.

if i'm wondering what kind of mentally ill weirdo i currently am or was last years e.g: i just have to listen to a few songs, read some titles && look at the cover art.

that one, like everything else was or will be, was reduced to a particular description. in it's case, a warmth running along my arms.
it's all lossy, not unlike this image. how novel!

thanks a lot for all of the info!

i'll look into it!

that part is fairly obvious. i'm talking about the sensory experience. i heard nipples can to get very sensitive for some people. i'm not gambling with that info in mind.

the few sensitive zones of my body already bother me at times. adding nipples to the equation sounds overstimulating.

the more i think about it, the more i realize the only thing stoping me from considering estrogen is the fact that: i really don't want boobs.

it sounds both dysphoric && like an overstimulating mess that would clog my mental space.

no glue

i like my valium: great for anxiety or moral boost in general. but it's usually not enough on its own if i need to do anything but just chill or sleep.

that is why i usually mix it up with thc to make activities more interesting.

A-tier on its own, S-tier with thc.

glad && reassured to see i didn't post anything or sent any DMs while drunk. because i was fucked up.

being drunk sucks beyond one or two drinks. you can't even 'enjoy' your high. still really low in the drug tier list.

it's just one of those days, i guess.

so how was today?
- awake at 9 am, out of bed at 4 pm.
- no discernable emotion except anger.
- no motivation to work on projects.
- no efficient way to alter current state of consciousness except (yuck) alcohol.

valentine’s day #oc

because it's valentine's day, i wish every aro-ace folks a very normal day

especially the aegosexual ones-- MY PEOPLE!! 🚬

maybe i like this 'sketch' just fine as line-art.

#oc #art

ralsei doodle

#deltarune #art