alex ‧₊˚

abandoning this account, moving back to tumblr (same user as on here if you wanna follow)
i hope y’all reach your ugw’s and whatnot

i mourn the person i could’ve been

dropping out of school to focus on starving myself and playing video games

i’ve been locking in for the last few weeks and i’m no longer fluctuating to 130 jail this is so sigma

today marks a year since they deleted my first edblr account 💔

i keep on forgetting this app exists and whenever i look at my feed when i remember to it makes me feel less alone

“don’t become an anorexic” TOO LATE MOM 💥💥💥💥

i’ve seen 5 people from secondary school in the past week is this a sign to stop going outside?

i keep on losing and gaining the same 5lb when will the cycle end

binged binged binged bunged can’t stop fucking binging binged probably gained like 10kg oh fuck oh shit

also I SAW THE FUCKER THAT TRIGGERED THIS RELAPSE AGAIN IN PUBLIC IF I SEE HIM AGAIN I’M GONNA FUCKING DO THINGS THAT’LL MAKE ME A FELON

everyone keeps on saying that i’ve lost weight and that i need to stop losing weight but i don’t want to stop, it’s not even about losing weight anymore i just want to feel in control while my life is in an unpredictable era

how i feel i look from the side

why is my scale edging me today it said i was 123 then i weighed myself again and it said i maintained wth

went to a charity shop and the lady said i was tiny i’m not gonna shut up about it

i dyed my hair and the dye completely skipped my roots im gonna crash out i swear

love how my sister has gone from lovebombing me with food to fatten me up to stealing all the sweet stuff my parents buy me and getting fat herself
karma really is a bitch

meow!!!

Meow

my legs hurt and i’m 10 minutes away from home life is unfair

Hiding an ed is more work than having one istg

i think i found the solution to this: chicken stock cubes AND they’re a 1/3 of the calories too

“you’re a fat emo bitch” and you’re dating a child stfu 🤭

just saw the guy that triggered this ed relapse in public i genuinely had to stop myself from crashing out on him (he’s like twice my height and weight and a gym lad he’d fuck me up)

can they make chicken soup another colour it tastes so banging but i can’t get past the colour i feel like i’m eating sick

new insecurity unlocked: how massive and weird i look on my parents’ outside security camera