how could i not love you? / how could you love me?
i just can't trust you! i can't trust anyone! everyone is going to hurt me!
some things are hard to write about. after something happens to you, you go to write it down, and either you over dramatize it or underplay it, exaggerate the wrong parts or ignore the important ones. at any rate, you never write it quite the way you want to.
because i hate myself! is that what you want me to say?!
i'm sorry for always messing up the things that matter
why are you giving up on me?
worldβ¦ forget meβ¦
I swear to God that all I've ever wanted was
A little bit of everything all of the time
A bit of everything all of the time
thatβs the first honest thing youβve said to me since the sixth grade.
itβs going to take me a while to get over it.
i can lose everyone. but not you, oh god, not you.
People are like thorns. Everyone just hurts me when they come near me.
i hate when you wanna talk about something that bothers you but you feel like you've already talked about it too much so you just hold it in
i just want you to remember me like this. someone that was your friend for a little while.
i can only hope itβs true enough that every little thing i do for love redeems me from the moments i deem worthy of the worst things that iβve done
maybe you should have been there to protect me
he doesn't hate him, he came to realize, and that's what he hated.
and if i could give you the moon. i would give you the moon
for the rest of your lifeοΌ i'll be there. i'll be stuck in your head like the roots of your hair.
he needed more than me. iβm friendly and thoughtful and quite awfully pretty. butοΌ he needed more than me.
I have an issue with people who make noise early in the morning fr.
hardest thing for me to grasp as an adult is you have to keep showing up no matter how you feel. you gotta do this sad, do it heartbroken, do it grieving, do it tired. life doesn't care, it waits for nobody, you just have to keep going
i should not have to reach crisis for you to believe my distress.
there's something about being fifteen and feeling so confused and hateful at all times and just wanting to give yourself over to another person and find yourself in them instead of in yourself
We'll be together forever, won't we?
ive lied to you about myself, my personal life, my online life, the people im friends with, the people ive dated, the social medias i have and dont have, the things ive done on the internet, the things ive eaten that i shouldnt, the things i stole when you werent looking. im a liar. a pathetic liar.
i feel fear just being in your presence. i feel my stomach drop when you speak to me. i feel like theres barbed wire tightened around my neck whenever you question me. you dont have anything to trust me for, anyways. ive done nothing my whole life but lie to you about every single thing.
but you probably wont even believe a word i say anyways. its not like id say it to your face, either way. you dont trust me one bit. you ask me almost everytime you see me if im doing anything i shouldnt. i feel scared to leave my device open when you're around in fear you'll go through it.
