luna🌙

switching to main. pls follow me if you want @/cousone

me every day of my life

the fucking size 0 shorts are gonna haunt me forever. and I’m just letting it slip through my fingers. I’ve never been a 0 in my life. I should take a pic in them before I get too fat

maybe going to the beach tomorrow and I feel so disgusted with myself for my dumb big ass breakfast. what was I thinking.

any besties here w bpd? how did you know you had it?

I mean like I already got mad danger foods here. bread for one, peanut butter, nuts, honey. maybe I’m doing too much?

defo the hardest part of recov is trying to understand portion sizes. is this like how normal people eat? is this normal? or is this too much food

thank you so much dolly!!!! love you sm🥺🤍🫂🫂🫂

thank you soooo so much rhys🥺🤍🤍🫂

sending you sm love dolly🤍

back again. in recov, again. fit into size 0 American eagle shorts tho and I don’t wanna stop. was forced to give my scales away. struggling!!! part of me wants recov and another part doesn’t at all. I am at war with myself constantly

Hey guys anyone still here? I did semi recov and then failed badly.

she fr loves this lady more than she loves her kids. she reveres bff, never judges her for her flaws, never gets offended when bff has her moments (unlike how she acts w her kids). bff is a good person and im sad for her. also worried abt my mom tho. she fr has no one else in her corner like that

srry to always be a downer here but here goes.

TW Cäñçêř

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so, my moms bff of 40+ yrs/my bonus aunt is in end stage břêäşț çáņçèř rn. her lívèř is failing and they can’t do çħèmô anymore. she doesn’t want anyone visiting and my mom is distraught. she believes bff is her platonic soulmate

she posted today that she lost her baby and for some reason I feel so guilty. did I unknowingly send out some kind of energy for this? I reached out to offer support but she hasn’t answered. I feel bad. This isn’t what I wanted. I just want my own to come back to me

I liked it for nights out dancing. but the day after? so not worth it esp if you already struggle w äñxíèțý. not even a bèņżô could calm me down. fr absolute horrific äñxíèțý. It’s been years tho and I have no desire to do it again

yeah so after that whole thing happened with my friends I ended up b/p tn. I still feel like I didn’t get it all out. Feeling disgusted and I hate myself

when you had nothing at all to say when I finally discovered the cause of dèäțħ? FUCK you and I don’t need to make MY self and MY grief smaller so YOU feel better

like I have known these girls for damn near 20 years. I was their bridesmaid and maid of honor. these aren’t people that don’t know me well. how tf are you so callous? how do you have no sensitivity, NONE whatsoever? to just say that, when you haven’t talked to me in months?

and you know what? I legit just blocked them both instantly. Like if you don’t know how to read the fucking room then you’re not my fucking best friend

my “bffs” are both přêğ rn. One is the girl who sent me the “surprise” Xmas card that I opened with no warning. The other just told me today, over txt, the week before my şbôřñ’s 1st bday. for context when I told her abt my Hashi dx and that’s how my bby died she did not say one fucking word

love her🥺

you are so kind dolly tysm🥺 love you sm🤍🤍🫂🫂

literally all I want rn is a massive bowl of white rice. Like nothing more. Maybeee some furikake on top

srry my room is a mess don’t judge😥

pïłäțèş bc and 🍑🤪

but I’ve been so âñxìöúş all day bc im terrified of having another episode😭

thank you so much my love🥺🫂 I woke up with the worst migraine that I’ve had all day, I actually had my țħèřäpý appt today but like. Honestly I feel like I have to fight for a bêñżǒ which is seriously what I need. Still don’t have it😢 hopefully my follow up thurs they’ll give it to me

tw pțşď

I was dx’d 2 yrs ago, did êmďř and improved significantly, did not have any more fbacks for about a year and a half until last night, I had a terrible pțşď episode😢