mostly just intrigued by why that happened
big evil fox trying to jaw at my throat instead of a wolf this time
they're going to give me an award. they're going to kiss my feet. for reasons unrelated to the horny
im going to invent the world's first noble way to be horny
mysterious as hell little girl.
hello jade goodbye jade
can't do anything other than sit in a hot bath and try to not pass out
think it really is insane that libido is just like a 24 hour thing now
chewing through my restraints
I'm going to a really big award for having the world's quietest panic attacks
ugh why did I do that I feel so bad
ugh I was trying to wax and shave in the shower and it upset Luca and she retreated and now I'm left feeling like I personally betrayed a loved one
overflowing full of seawater. i want to go home.
noooothing makes me want to stick my head under a backing up car more than the spd. I can handle cramps. I can handle the splits. every neuron in my body optimized towards oversensitivity is a recipe for death
confronting with Luca is interesting because ill be perfectly normal and leveled and then she'll hear or be told something she likes and we're off to the vibrating happy :D yay yay races
HEEEELP
rebloging exusiai "it's hard to be a big sister, huh" and watching in absolute muted horror as straight cis girl mutual reblogs it because she doesn't like her biological sister
she would probably request the snake emoji and i think of anyone she's earned it most.
I guess I could do emojis in the name but getting any of them to pick to agree on a tiny gay symbol to represent themselves is. going to be impossible
i dont want to explain this to someone. Who will not understand it. Like ever again. I did this for so long in silence
I need to. figure out a better way to represent the fronting on discord. because if I have to have the "why is your name different" or "why is your avatar different" conversation multiple times a week for the foreseeable future I am going to. shake and shake
dysphoric so bad. please.
fiamos sex scenes really satisfying to write because I can project onto either of them in basically any configuration
being around another person when I'm the unlovable creature is not a good idea probably
physical affection ...but at what cost
okay jade can have it there you go good girl
can one of you claim the endmin kin so I can stop feeling like ive been punched in the heart by every piece of art of her getting fucked or sucking a girl off
still don't want to do anything or be alive but sometimes my brain decides that the best course of action is 'jerk off and THEN kill yourself'
having a libido during this time of my life is deeply stupid
this panic attack shit is not fun
