Jeff

i hate asking people to spend any amount of their time to be with / talk with / think about me, for the same reason :’)

NICE!!

a big step in my personal journey is learning to let go of the passive goal to optimize everything. In myself or in others. Live and let live, and for myself, enjoy and learn from the process rather than always fixate on a result or improvement.

this is the kind if bravery I envy you for

there’s something to be said for knowing the truth and choosing to be happy in spite of it

my roommate’s dog keeps trying to nom on Boomer’s face, but Boomer could not care less; possibly because the dog’s mouth is too small to actually fit around any part of it

save me Amy Vorpahl’s uncontrollable breathy laughter

Never question the worthiness or propriety of fun & cheer & silliness in times like these. They are more important than ever.

Don’t feel bad when the despair makes it hard to feel, and commiserate when you need to.

But joy is both the purpose and the drive of our fight. Embrace every moment of it.

also woke up nauseated. also having to move on despite nightmares

I also believe in those things you mentioned, because they’re worth believing in. I think of belief as a tool to shape reality.

We have to believe in the world we dream of; how else can it become?

HEMA does this for me. Hard to think about ~other things~ in a swordfight.

Although last night we were too short on space to spar and I volunteered to help the club librarian, so I wasn’t thinking about a lesson or anything… so my mind wandered anyway 🥲

i challenge you to a duel (romantic) (sexual)

noooo 😭

i love being a little in love with my friends, dude

if my current job ever goes south, I’m heavily considering going this route instead of trying to find new footing in the software industry

(copy/paste with your passion topic filled in)

god i love knowing a ton of stuff about swordfighting

I wish so desperately I could understand why sustaining fun, healthy, and interesting hobbies is such a difficulty for me

so far the only explanation I can come up with is that god gave executive dysfunction to ND people as a balancing mechanic, otherwise we’d break the game

the best I’ve ever gotten is up to twice a week with HEMA, and that’s bc I’m supported by a beloved community and a lifelong interest.

I sometimes dream of the swordsman I could be if I was working on it every day but I have yet to figure out how to be that person

at least, as of t+6 hours… always possible for my mental state to give out again at any time 👍

but while nothing got fixed long term (not going to happen in 50 min), hopefully between getting a bit off my chest and grabbing a buoy of hope, I’ll stay afloat for at least a few more days

extra therapy session came in clutch today, which is good because I can’t afford to be a complete emotional wreck this week

SCREAMING CRYING SWEARING

do you know when you might get more info??

Manager’s dog got attacked last night 😰 BUT he texted me from the vet to let me know the dog is going to recover alright and so now we’re talking about how much we love our dogs and setting up a playdate for later

saaaaame

i’m just a potato girl in a computer world

we love multitudes <3

I sure hope so 😅

damn 😔 really sorry to hear that. let me know if there’s anything I can do, hope you feel better soon

yeah, I met Corrie on a dating app too.

thank you, that’s a helpful reminder to not turn away from the potential good amongst the bad <3

it’s the path of healing

also, your printer was out of cyan

just gonna throw this out - if anyone secretly wants me to ask them out over here, hmu