Fluffy Poison

I will be saving as much as possible to get what I need to at long last become a VTuber.
With how much I am making and how much I am able to put aside for this goal I am hoping to have things together come the latter half of this year.
Please continue to bear with me for now.

Hello everyone, I have good news!
I have managed to secure a job.

It pays well and if I play my cards right, I can work this job for the next couple of years until I am able to move onto more of what I want to do.
Before the end of this year, I promise you will see more of me.

"Collaboratings uwu I'm so scawed"

Baby doll. I'm gunna hold your hand when I say this. 99% of us are indie not making any money. It's called making friends and playing games with new people. Stop over thinking it and just reach out to people. It's literally fine

So long as loneliness doesn’t kick my ass first I can actually imagine where I’ll find myself in five years. Things can look up. Back to working on it.

A couple days in and I have a loose plan to move forward with. Because of my current living situation actually getting anything started and done is going to take a painfully long time. For once I actually have an idea for my future.

‪I’ll be back when I have more figured out and ready to go. Life is needing my focus and improvement.‬

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Well, that’s enough from me.
I’m gunna leave for a while. I’m not sure how long I will be but it was nice being supportive and hanging out.
Things have come up that I have to deal with. There’s a lot I have to get done now.
Goodbye.

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What I don’t know hurts a lot actually. Fuck you.

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I DON’T WANNA DIE BECAUSE I WALKED INTO THE BATHROOM AND THERE WAS A LITTLE BIT OF BABYPOWDER LEFT IN THE AIR LET ME BREATH BRO PLEASE

YouTube video by Sound Central I don't wanna do this no more (CoD Meme) - Sound Effect

The slightest bit of dust or some kind of powder or literally ANYTHING other than oxygen in the air and my lungs go

youtu.be/mmH-OTGKsmk?...

Time to start the Majora’s Mask-esque countdown.

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Nothing negative or sad going on at least. I am being overwhelmed purely by joy and other cringe gleeful things but do not let that fool you because I am still on a fuse, I am feeling way too much and there are no vents I’m gonna pop.

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What am I supposed to do about all of these feelings I am feeling ASIDE from exploding violently because I don’t think becoming a firework is good for the body. I am AWFUL at processing emotions and I am getting flooded by them right now

Going insane in ways I can’t actually explain or talk about anywhere because it would be too personal and weird

A digital illustration of bulbasaurs with gingerbread elements, instead of a green body it’s light brown with darker brown specks, with drizzles of white icing and green/red sprinkles. One of the Bulbasaurs bulb is whipped cream with a sprig of holly while the other has a candy cane instead of a vine

Gingerbread Bulbasaurs 🌱 🍪

I've only been awake for an hour today and it's already one of those days where I don't really want to exist. There is way too much going on everywhere.

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Skrell looks pretty aerodynamic.

Found myself thinking “I should be doing terribly right now why don’t I feel awful with everything happening?” And it’s a stupid thing to think because I shouldn’t be doing terribly, regardless of whatever’s going on. I don’t feel awful because I’m happy and will continue to be.

Well, laptop is officially dead. The battery has finally given in and this thing is so old and falling apart that there is no replacing it or having it fixed. Lots of plans and all my things are now dead with it. I’m kinda fucked 🙃

My friend getting an itch to play Valorant while I get and itch to play League. We are not the same but we sure suffer the same.

Would you still love me if I was a hairball?

I have noticed that one of my playlists on Spotify has a single save and the fact that I can’t see who saved it is upsetting. I don’t know anyone who listens to half the songs I do. Hopefully they vibe to it same as me.

Pokémon TCG Pocket is great every day I just open the 2 free daily booster packs and go “wow nice! very cute!” and my day is improved by like 2-4%. I don’t even battle, I just like looking at these cards for a few seconds and then closing the app

I have finished watching Arcane. The lesbians win but at what cost.
What a beautiful show, like in so many ways. Emotionally it is a masterpiece and the visuals? The scenes with Viktor and Jayce? So fucking good.

Cooking meals for people who don't even really appreciate it or come out to eat it. I don't know how or when but I gotta get outta here at some point and find some people to cook for in life. Somebody get over here and eat these sausages with me.

I wouldn't care as much as I do if I could be consistent enough at the game to not have to rely only on teammates that are competent. With bad connection and lag though that's never gunna happen so the game just feels BAD more often than not.

Valorant. A team-based game where your team is on your side only 20% of the time.

My sense of time is GONE, I just do not have it anymore. It is either way earlier than I think it is or way later than I think it is and there is no in between. I am consistently lost any time I check a clock, I gotta find me some normalcy cause it's wild out here.

Do you ever follow an account then unfollow them for a reason only to come across them again later and forget about said reason just to follow them once more and reexperience why it was you unfollowed them the first time? I gotta find a way to stop doing this.