Gleamy Dreams ~ ✨

Everyone else is so sad and I'm just thinking about my upcoming four day hibernation post connn

Happy Friday the 13th ❤️
6 years after the country shut down due to COVID!

Wishing you all luck for the rest of the year!

Big big same

I have a mild excitement, then a super anxious energy right before, I get there and things are great and then Sunday or Saturday night? I'm so tired and excited to return to my own bedroom oml

Then I see some of you who make conventions, going to conventions and doing things at conventions your entire personality and identity

And I kind of feel concerned for when you're at home?
They're an escape and all with exciting moments, but don't you ever just get tired ahead of time too?

As someone who vends, I'm exhausted about going to an event months ahead of time. I enjoy making things, don't get me wrong, and I get happy thinking about talking to people but

Simultaneously, I'm tired before the conversations begin because I can't trust that you're actually telling me the truth?

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I don't mean this to be offensive, but some of you spend so much time focusing on conventions and obsessing over them (panels to host and whatnot)

I've never had that or any type of post con depression, so I'm a little confused on what it's like?

I have social anxiety, I have no social battery.

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I'm taking a bath, calling @djmoontune.bsky.social , emailing a detective and contacting customer service.

What are you doing today?

They shut down, yeah.

It's a sad thing honestly.

Here's a relevant passage that I wrote that you might find interest in.

docs.google.com/document/d/1...

It was a heck of a time for me, I remember how cold it was pretty vividly.

I was asleep in the tub, dozed off after taking a bath to help with my back. No idea what was going on so I actually used it as a wakeup alarm and debated going back to sleep.

I still have both of these from @harmonycon.bsky.social 2019.

Where were you? #MLP
I remember being asked to confiscate SwatCon stuff because it made the venue upset, but the venue is kill now so I figure it's an okay con memory to share now.

Anxiety really makes everyone just focus on the smallest of details but not the fun ones

I won't remember hours of us happily talking, but I'll remember when you raise your hand too quickly or drop your voice lower.

I won't remember loving you, I will only remember being in fear of you.

I'll agree to things, not because I still love/trust you, but because I'm afraid of you.

I'll remember forever every moment that you have raised your voice, but I won't remember when you've brought me flowers or made me a meal unless I simultaneously remember being hurt by the thorns of the rose or worrying about what you want from me, or the food being poison in some way or another...

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The one thing I've noticed about my memory issues in relation to people is that I remember less of our conversations when I'm having fun, when I'm having a good time.

I remember every moment that I feel anxious though. I remember the physical pain of being anxious more than anything. It hurts...

Derpy!

#mlp #mylittlepony #derpy #mlpart

How could I possibly leave Princess Luna without her big sister? 🌙✨
Grab a fresh baguette! 🥖✨

And if you’d like to get one with your own character, you can do it here: ych.commishes.com/auction/show...

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Tonight will either be easier to sleep at night, or I'll just stare at the ceiling.

Been feeling anxious trying to sleep with an important date coming up, talking about things that happened...
Been waking up early constantly, panic attacks while sleeping.

I hate being forced to share things...

I didn't feel like paying $100 for one of these, so I'm wondering if I could make one with my own crafting abilities?

Using a dummy account, by the way, is illegal and unwanted contact in his state.

Additionally, he is just as guilty for every single incident of you sending one screenshot to him from my page as if he did it himself so...

I think it's kinda funny on my end.
Playing dumb games for dumber prizes.

If you take these posts to him? Guess what.

Ya prove my existing cases and his messages are liable to being subpoenaed because of the nature of the crimes.

He can't legally access this page without block evasion, a dummy account or third party surveillance that he already admitted to using.

It's not me retaliating, but he asked about eating my organs and left bruises all over me every time he assaulted me.

I wasn't accused of lifting a finger, and they're pretty much finished presenting their narrative about how the hospitals wouldn't break HIPAA laws on his request.

If I'm not guaranteed police enforceable physical distance from me and vacatur due to false statements, I just won't sign and I'll just let the state handle the situation.
If he's in jail/prison for crimes against me, he won't need a 2 year order on false statements but I need a lifelong one.

No matter what comes of the upcoming settlement conference, where I've been asked about dismissing, I can't withdraw a criminal investigation/prosecution.

I'm probably not going to agree to anything at all just to drag things out for the investigation process.
I can wait another year. Can he?

Half of you know a narrative from a man who admitted to a felony who seeks to conceal his crime.

My narrative hasn't changed since June of 2024. Not one bit, but he's put false statements into the court system because stalking me online isn't grounds enough for an order.

That's why I reported him.

Flagged suggestive for trigger warning: SA.

This is what I see for those of you who don't know my side of things.
Plus all of the exhibits are from accounts that aren't public that he's blocked from so it's not possibly directed at him if he's having to surveil/stalk me.

He never apologized.

They are so awesome honestly! I kinda want a kei van. This one was a truck so the usefulness is a little less where I am, but I have been watching for them

Most likely.

Damnit, I picked up kei cars as my new expensive hobby, didn't I? 🥲

I don't know what it says about me to see the front of a Subaru Sambar and immediately be able to identify it and get excited, but here we are.

He did! Haha, we got him a card that congratulated him on still being alive.

It looks like a dino theme, but it's extinction themed.