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when life has been mostly pain, it's hard to think, see and feel that there's something else in your life and about yourself outside of it

you know, this isn't my first rodeo but it's really something when you can see how long-term trauma affects you

i guess one of the biggest problems here is idk who i am or what my life can be much outside of all of this

NOT FILIPINO JFJFJRJR

man that's like a pet peeve of mine

ah it's someone in my life who took a big L recently. thank you for asking 🫶🏼

ohh 🥹 don't mind if i do then :D

should i share my music stuff too then uwu

man that sucks

i need to stop struggling when my family asks me if i'm doing okay or wtf happened to me

i hate society.

haha it's not fun out here in my head

maybe i'm such a loser 🤓☝🏼 JSJDNDJDD

i need to deal with things better aaaa get me out of here

Ariiii 🫂

thank you for being here 🥹🫶🏼

🫂

i'm so annoyed

"then do this __"

i said that that's what i wanted and since there's no chance to do so then just leave it be.

annoyed. also, kind of unrelated, i've stated what I wanted. just take that as it is, god.

maybe i just really need to accept that i'm like this and the price i gotta pay for caring is the hurt that could come with it. my wish is that i could always find my way out of my pain, especially when i'm drowning in it.

the advice that goes "do less and care less so you don't get hurt/feel that much" feels like being a bottle of water and someone is pouring it out, consequently emptying me gradually.

my stupid "it's not a big deal"s are accumulating and now truly making me feel like crap

I haven't listened to his entire discography yet but yeah I like him!

i didn't become like them. i'm just current me. don't generalize it.

This is the way you left me, I'm not pretending No hope, no love, no glory, no happy ending This is the way that we love, like it's forever Then live the rest of our life, but not together This is the way you left me, I'm not pretending No hope, no love, no glory, no happy ending

lrp happy ending by mika spotted

No hope, no love, no glory, no happy ending

Sometimes the bravest thing you can do is stay soft in a world that keeps asking you to harden up.

Pay attention to what steadies you — a quiet moment, a voice, a song — and keep those things close. They ain’t escapes; they’re anchors.

growth pain