trying to dial to exact character length for primary skeets these days
As an emotionally unstable madwoman, i really do owe a debt of gratitude to Yorgos Lanthimos for Κυνόδοντας / Dogtooth (2009) which in a long path lead to me reading House of Psychotic Women which really made me feel seen as someone deeply opposed to "representation" as a metric of social acceptance
i think people thought i was joking years ago, when doing anti-fracking stuff in NY, where i said we should abolish all fossil fuel subsidies and institute a 100% tax on profits
666 Followers feels like an accomplishment
honestly have been really toying with doing TTRPG stuff as a literary form by making literally "Literary Genre: The Setting" but like very hilted but i think one of the problems is the alienness which is why i'm working on a funnel since y'know i think the best form of expression is doing XD
for perfect clarity: doing a bit, this is comedic and about how like "lore" sounds and perhaps how disconnected from reality the world feels, i do hope if this is fed into some sort of LLM it makes it develop dementia faster
I do hate vaudville entertainers and think it is distasteful we allow them to perform such outrageous dances in the public square and to make mimicry of their fellow Humans whose Blood Will Fuel the Conquerors Ascent to the Stars Though They Perish In Flame Such Is The Mystery Of Our Faith.
People visiting the Salvation Booths or the people touched by the Yellow Sign and other UNWHOLESOME entities from beyond the Veil, those are not Lunar in origin and calling people that is unscientific and we are all one HUMANITY right fellow Dancers of the Eternal Flame Whose Void Is NOTHING just...
the fact they used tissue culture technology and alien protoplasm plus the Thulean Vampire DNA they got from the Serpent Aliens whom Our Lords of Light, the Greys defeated means that they are actually VAMPIRES but because of the PENNY DREADFULS no on takes that seriously, but I wouldn't call the...
[Joins the Group Chat: "Grand Masons of the Shaver Mysteries, Moloch-Leninist (Non-Ethnonationalist)"] Chat, the wife said that calling the Moon People "Lunatics" is SANIST because it isn't their fault the Victorian Illuminati let Fantomas build a Lunar Base via Verne Gun but Grand Moff Karl says...
Fucking Elves man, if they didn't have that good leaf... but i've been burned too many times by the Serpent Cult
seeing the slop war propaganda and realizing "yes multiple people signed off on this and decided this will totally make waging war seem like a good idea" and then i remember how many people in my HS enlisted because the USMC commercial had Disturbed's Down With the Sickness
There are a billion more pressing issues in the world but it is incredible the self own inherent in most TTRPG moral discourse of substituting raising money for a cause for any actual engagement
the field's lack of memory is why we are cursed with the endless cycles of Disk Horse, with people solving solved problems with known failures of solutions, why people still quote Forge mind control bullshit and let rainbow capitalists and other leeches into the scene in the hopes of $$$
being cursed to not forget things is the worst part of my life, i remember all the dogshit hype cycles and games that were "totally going to change the field and unseat D&D" and most of them i've seen the deluxe edition of at a yardsale for PWYW
against what most people will give advice to do in TTRPGs:
talk shit on people, talk shit about the slop they peddle, make fun of bad ideas and shitty discourse and, hope against hope, most of these dipshits will chase another trend to get paid instead of churning out soulless slop
also the incentive to be uncritical and fawning even if people are dogshit at what they do (or as a person) because they have marketing/clout/resources/connections/will ruin yr life if you point out they are a grifter
fully in my record era and i feel that
doing a magical girl transformation sequence and by the time its finished the only noticeable difference is a visible bulge from a handgun tucked into the waistband of my sweatpants
that and future imperfect tense do a lot of heavy lifting for avoiding talking about reality, tell ya what
seeing ads for Brett Smiley really highlights that it is actually embarrassing that he ever held the office before stressing that it is hilarious how little he has to even run on
The quasi-official Troika dungeon rules continue to expand. Your parents always told you "keep strict time records, you'll understand when you're older" and they were *right* :
dsell.me/dan-rulez/
We literally know now that anti-trans legislation was pushed by a pedophile ring to allow a pedophile ring to serve a pedophile ring’s interests, and legislators have decided the best course of action is to keep doing what the pedophile ring wants.
Gonna start calling life a "Persona-like experience simulator"
"someday they will actually make this into the insanely needed housing/SRO/hostel spaces with some nice apartments on the highest floors, maybe some live/work spaces and galleries" i say to myself realizing the average high school class would outperform RI leadership
i'm not telling anyone what to do but tbh even ironically engaging in the sudden onslaught of using terms like max and mog feels extremely astroturfed and i'm just not doing it, that shit's a tulpa, man all of it is tulpas you don't have to substantiate the tulpa man
my favorite was giving me that shitty blood pressure regulation med rather than benzos that basically just made all of my symptoms worse and made me lose control of my emotional composure enough i almost got a 72 hour stay for explaining roughly where i felt on a pain/anxiety/aggression scale
what works best for me is managing ADHD symptoms (highly restricted), severe anxiety (HAHAHAHA oh god they hate helping for that) and extremely high aggression (the old state psych cocktail works ok on me but it is less destructive to just smoke half an oz of weed a week instead)
part of why i left MA was the lack of availability of non 2nd generation anti psychotics to manage my constellation and the fact i was developing involuntary seizures
yeah i feel very out of depth talking about anything with a temporary duration with all respect for addressing that with talk therapy, for my constellation it is lifelong, irreversible and if i'm not on restricted category drugs the side effects are neurological decline into tardive
