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If it's 47°F in the morning when it's still autumn, this winter will probably be hella brutal.

My husband thinks people are reading too much into it,

But the way the widowed Erika Kirk grabbed JD Vance's head was wiiiiiiilddd.

If anyone I know (non-romantically) ever grabbed my head like that, I'd assume we're fucking cuz that seems too high above the shoulders for a normal, casual hug.

Friday.

Guess I'll see.

No CEL (yet? Again?) this morning but my car must be cursed for the rest of this task of gas cuz it's crazy how fast the miles to E is dropping (the module in the car is calculating the air/fuel ratio so it might be trying to catch up), so I might ne correctly that I'll have to refuel tomorrow or

Reckon if it stays gone, good fucking grief.

I remember being stressed cuz I was trying to hurry off this guy's usual rack, so I guess that's where I mistook the clips going on easily as having the housing secure, and CEL 2 days later.

Lost a day's worth of fuel this whole day, easily.

drive cycles.

I put the housing back CORRECTLY and the clips had resistance to them! So i guess if it's too easy, look and try again. Drove to lunch, drove back to work, and then I attempted to clear codes 3 times for each time to say "erase failed," so I just started the car, and it was gone.

I think I might've solved my CEL. And it's the rookiest of all rookie mistakes - improper placement of the (engine) air filter housing/box. Like, how was I able to do the clips without having the back put in??? No WONDER it gave me a too lean code.

But we'll see. Ever car is different as far as

feeding me all the worst case scenarios like flat tires and other busted shit and I'm just like "I couldn't just finish the dream I had the night prior?? I was on a roll banging the shit out of someone!"

I'd give anything not to have a CEL. Was really hoping it was just the gas cap as it was 11 yrs old anyway - and I sure as hell ain't putting the old back on - so it's either bad fuel from the HEB gas station when I fueled up Sunday morning, or it's anything fucking else.

Hell, even my dream was

The last time I fueled up? Yesterday morning, following some days of PLENTY of rainfall, so now I'm kinda worried.

My first CEL and it's not the gas cap. Been wanting to replace it anyway cuz it's 11 years old.

Hubby suggest the fuel I got was a bad batch basically, but he has someone at the shop with one of the fancier scanners, so we'll see if that can get us started. Please just be an O2 sensor or something.

I don't understand how this stove takes forever to boil water for spaghetti. Yes, it's a lot (2 pounds), but I know this pot can handle it. But these old-fashioned electric burners are just the worst. Gas is my preferred and I have had the fancy flat electric ones. Not my thing, so gas.

it feels like I'm in hell everyday.

I'm female, trans/nonbinary, and a veteran. If you can't imagine, I'm as happy for you as I can be, really. But if I can't have more than pity for you, you need to start doing better by first paying attention.

You want change? You have to participate in it.

you're protected and cared for as regular citizens, but even people born in the US are oppressed because of this administration.

And if you're genuinely somehow unaffected in any way, congratufuckinglations. Use that privilege to protect others. And you're very fortunate to have such a luxury cuz

targeting, other people who are a minority, and already pay significantly more in taxes but get next to no healthcare, we'll I guess I really am deplorable. Worst of the worst.

Even before I was a veteran, I was under the impression that we're all The People. Even if you're a visitor on US soil,

the rules. Ever. And they won't suddenly have a change of heart because they are too corrupted by greed and power.

How can I feel bad for these people when you see that they really did bring this upon themselves?

Like if being heartless is refusing to be sympathetic to people who are hurting, and

It probably sounds heartless, and I suppose it is, but we all reap what we sow.

What did these people expect when they terrorize everyone, all the time? And obviously not fighting back means they don't stop, so we're gonna be forced to do unsavory shit, but remember -- they haven't been playing by

The only immigrant that needs to leave is our dictator president. THEN America would be great (again?).

anything and everything too much as I only get hurt as a result of it.

So for now, I'm just the bitter veteran who only looks out for themselves, their immediate family, the cars that come in, and, by extension, the customers.

Nothing else matters to me at this point.

I won't bore y'all with those details, but at this point, best to just keep my head down and just work on cars. And I know I do a good job, so as long as I'm working or helping, they'll leave me be.

Trying to make friends got me overly attached and I got myself mixed up cuz BPD has me reading into

we also touched on other subjects like low work performance and such, and I'm really not a liar. If therapy taught me anything, it's better to just be honest even if you end up alone for it, so I made no excuses and admitted my shortcomings cuz they know how much I want to advance myself.

The internet never offered any advice, so I just had to do the best I could. I told my boss and a fellow female manager, and I told them everything, and I really didn't wanna name names cuz the idiots are still very young and inexperienced, but I described who they were, so both got sat down, but

My husband suggested a reddit post for the subreddit "Am I overreacting." Get an idea of what advice the internet might have to offer before talking to the big boss tomorrow.

What a weight to have on me.

*seemed* to be just foolish talk between 2 young men -- I'm still queer too. And that's a scary thought for me. I'm not fully out at work, but I'm sure plenty of people wonder, and I would love to if I knew the reception would be possible. And I'm surrounded by cishet men.

"that person" that is asking the hard questions cuz one of these guys just got rehired.

It's a clusterfuck and I may not want to see either fired, but if I don't speak up as the only female doing the same kind of labor as all these men, nothing about these fucked up situations -- at least this

eart would you commit a crime so aggressive and deliberate?

They're 20, one of these boys might be 21, and even if this were their way of "joking," it's really not funny.

They then proceeded to ask this question to 2 other men, both who had the sense to say "no."

I hate it, but I'm about to be

unreasonable to suggest something like rape for (in this hypothetical scenario I heard today between 2 male coworkers) a female/woman breaking and entering, trespassing, whatever on your property. Unless she assaults you directly, unless she is stealing your autonomy, violating your consent, why on

Today was the first time I heard something so fucked up in the workplace that I'm gonna have to tell "the big boss," and I'm not looking forward to it, cuz I will have to come out too... probably.

If you wanna do "crime for crime," that's on you, but the crimes must be the same, or it becomes

stop us all.

They can't arrest us all.

They can never kill us all.

As long as we resist, resist, resist. Not even just for us, but for our neighbors and all the strangers, and even - [deep sigh, cuz I still struggle with this] - our enemies -- foreign, or domestic; real, or imagined.

Everyone keeps saying the administration is doing all this stuff, especially the more person on person stuff like protesters vs ICE, is to instill terror.

Well... yea, but it's more than that. They want us to become defeated enough to stop resisting. Cuz we STILL outnumber all of them.

They can't