Tea 🍵

2/2 woman with a little girl sitting in a radio flyer wagon, just like the one he used to pull me in. I ran to him so quickly and It was such a loving hug. I hadn't dreamt him holding me since right after he passed. Sometimes I think I've grown to disappoint him. Maybe it was him saying I haven't.

Had a dream that my grandparents (dead) visited me in college. I met them at the front entrance. I could hear them before I saw them. I heard my grandfather clearly for the 1st time in 10 years say "I used to pull around my grand-daughter around in one of those" when I saw him he was talking to 1/2

I miss the person I never was.

The hotest place you'll look is in the planet fitness dressing room

When i think about everything that has happened to me I get this feeling. It's low in my gut its a disgusting and vile feeling. Some sickly sinking nausea mixed with horror and anguish. Anger so deep and heavy I wonder how can anyone move on? I cant move past it, I dont know how.

I need top surgery I am going to freak.

I'm 23 tomorrow and I am sitting here worried that my government will kill me for being happy. I'm so tired, why can't I just exist?

There's so much pain and hurt in the world. And im just expected to go to work and ignore it.

Forgot for a moment passing isn't really the only goal. The goal is mostly just to be happy, and I refuse to stop being fashionable, actually. If passing means stop dressing like a edgy whore Ig I won't pass. Lol.

I feel so handsome it is so great. Looking at the fella in the mirror is so awesome

In these trying times, I think of Jackie Welles from Cyberpunk. I love that stupid charming man, I would do most anything for him. Man loved the women in his life more than anything. Miss and love you, king.

Makes me so happy my customers love me. Had a customer misgender me and correct herself immediately. I dont talk about my transition with customers, so it made me happy to pass somewhat, at least to her. She apologized and then genuinely earnestly asked my preference. She is so sweet.

Never confuse me for a cis man, I want people to see me, know me, and respect me as a trans one. I dont want to be stealth to be respected. I deserve it because im a living, breathing person. I'm proud to be trans, why tf should I hide it?

Being a tguy is so cool, I love my shitty mustache, and I love how my muscles and fat are reforming, I love the growing hair on my stomach, I love my bottom growth, I love my deepening voice. I love being visibly queer. I love my bright hair, and facial piercings, and my plugs. I love being proud.

I need to start working out again.

Leather at pride!!! KINK AT PRIDE!! LET'S GO!!!

I really love this just empty feeling I get after each major holiday. Blah.

#webfishing w/@teainatree.bsky.social

Not that anyone will read this, but I officially signed all my paperwork for my promotion.