Cassandra Mierau

When the lower mood hits and I just sigh for it gets exhausting to be this way. #bipolar

One of the best things for mental health I've found is doing art. Today I felt like creating something. It is always relaxing.

I can't trust a good day, a good week. Always suspicious it's "too good". It is a strange concept, to be afraid of the good. #bipopar

In bipolar, you have to watch out for your low moods, because of how you can spiral downward in them.

You also have to watch out for your *good* mood. Because you can spiral *upward* in them. In ways other people can't understand. Euphoria or hypersexuality are great until they ruin you.

I had a nightmare happen. I dropped my pill organizer. 56 pills. A whole bunch of them went everywhere. I found all but one. Now I have to move furniture and crawl around some more as I have a dog. FML. #bipolar #adhd #mentalhealth

Right now I feel.. okay. Maybe this is what they call "normal mood", but it is hard for me to tell. I never know how long it will last though, but hopefully a while. I feel calm at the moment, so that is nice. #bipolar

I too struggle with boundaries and prefer people state them. Most people say they are "just regular boundaries" and I am like "my neurodivergence has no idea what that means".

I was nervous about this week as I had more hours at work than usual. Not so much worried about being physically tired, but was worried about the mental strain. I survived. Yay me. #bipolar #adhd #mentalhealthmatters

Do you think it worked to reduce the stigma?

We met in the hospital's inpatient psych unit. I left out some context in my original post. She was in crisis and told me she had been there quite a bit over the years. But who knows, maybe I will be too even with educating myself.. time will tell.

Sometimes regrets just hit me. I know I did the best I could with what I knew at the time, but the blindness of my former self can be maddening. I am on a journey of awakening in a sense, changing things that have not been right for a long time.

I met an older lady with bipolar early in my diagnosis. She said she knew she had bipolar for like 30 years. I asked her what type she had. She replied "type?" Not even basic knowledge. To feel better with bipolar, a person must educate themselves.

I was worried how my day would go after waking up feeling like a train hit me. I realized I forgot to take my meds before bed. After my head stopped pounding (once my meds were starting to take hold), the day went decent. Missing meds is no joke. #bipolar #adhd

Sounds helpful, id like the link please.

Do share please. I am relatively new to this. Diagnosed in March.

Time shall tell on these for sure. I do not feel tired right now, even though I should be. I feel.. energized. Smiling for no reason.
Gosh I hope I don't buy things. Hmm or do I care if I do? Undecided.
I feel.. playful at the moment.

Lack of worry, more of a curiosity. Amused at the idea it could be hypomania. Which in itself the lack of worry is a sign it could be.

adhd too. and we have to drink more water, as we use it more??? which i found out this year, and explains so much of my life lol.

remember y'all: rest. is. productive!

and if self-regulating is all you can do in a day, you still fucking win because holy shit, you're working hard. i see you <3

We need to rest with bipolar. We need down time to self regulate & bring ourselves to balance. We need idleness & having nothing to do. @lukesteuber.com

Playing the game of "is this normal healthy mood" (did the meds help?) or am I now in hypomania? #bipolar

Anyone feel the #bipolar mood shift suddenly? At least for me it happens. I'd be low and something just switches in me and I feel like a weight is suddenly lifted. For now anyways. How long it lasts is anyone's guess. I will enjoy it while I can.

Oh I just had the most genuine laugh catching the awkward end of a conversation my coworker and boss were having. No context to my boss saying "but those are your privates!" They left me hanging, which is even funnier. Best laugh I've had in a long while. Felt good. #bipolar

Life expectancy is one of those topics I decided not to mention to loved ones when I told them about my #bipolar diagnosis. But hell, at one point I didn't think I'd make it to 21. Bipolar is a bitch. 35 and still here.

Bipolar is ridiculous, buddy that steep sudden decline from joi de vivre to no will to live will get you. What happened because being alive was so cool this morning? But I clown throughout because bipolar makes you a pro at darkness.

Always value your peace. ✨

The moment you protect your peace, you protect your future. Not everything needs a reaction — some things just need your silence.

Hmm. Seems like a balancing act to me.

I hate being #bipolar. Not something I'd wish on anyone and there are some awful people out there. It is a form of torture. Maybe meds one day will balance me.. if that is even possible.

Being as both my diagnosis happened recently, I spent most of my life wondering why everyone else seemed to handle things better. I'd try harder (like others often insisted) and I would always be putting in so much more effort than others for less results. So yep, I can see what you are saying.

Couldn't have said it better myself. It is going to be a long work week. Putting on that happy-funny- customer service mask while attempting to fit in is exhausting. #bipolar combined with #adhd is an awful combination.

#Selfcare is petting an overly fluffy dog -who needs a haircut- while he snuggles on my lap. It also helps that he is keeping me warm.