Eclipse 🌙

It's not just your fault, stop acting like I am some perfect, blameless being

I am not, and I made a mistake here even if you refuse to see it

I fucked up because I was scared that talking with you about this would somehow scare you away and I'd lose you

And not it's hitting me in the face right now because I see now that the very same fear is what pushed us into this situation

I'm sorry

Estrogen has made me such a bitch, i literally feel guilt not getting her the bread even tho its a drawing and i physically cant because shes not real

Maybe i draw her with it later idk

I wanted all that and never elaborated on what that meant for us, and you still tried to give me exactly that even while acting completely blind thanks to my short comings

And this isn't a failure, not on your part alone. Not if we can work through this

So please stop beating yourself up over this

It is not just you, stop trying to carry the burden on your own

Being poly isn't selfish either, it's part of who you are and the lengths of love you have in your heart for others

And it isn't just your mistakes, I made mistakes too

It's not just you though

I failed to communicate with you, failed to establish a mutual understanding with you

And now we're both suffering for it

I am trying my hardest to be positive, but I'm stuck in my own mind waiting and rotting, desperate that if someone notices something will change for the better despite knowint it will change nothing

Take care of yourself in the meantime moe

We need more mario and luigi games frfr

Is it still suicidal ideation if like I want to die but I don't want it to be at my hands?

I think I fucked up, I'm sorry

I LOVE THE CRANE WIVES THEIR MUSIC IS SO GOOD

Real as shit

:o

You ever just do something to keep busy for the sole purpose of avoiding having an emotional breakdown in public? No? Oh yeah me neither

Spongrobert

Alolan ninetails ex card

I did not know this card existed

This changes everything

Oh my stars I'm gonna puke

Ogrepon in my notifs, what will they do? :3

Fufu is headed to the realm kf my notifications now o7

Not with just unmelted cheese 😭

Off to the notification dimension you go

I want to interact with my oomfs more, so like drop a reply here and I'll turn on notifs for you :3

I'm shaking and I feel numb, but I got school so that has to wait

Never, hun. I'll never stop loving you

Hun it's okay, emotions are high and everything is still tender from the healing

Missteps are nothing to worry about, I promise we will get through them together

Fun fact: when you hit me on the head confetti actually pops out as I am affected by the Grunt Birthday Party Skull from Halo

@charcoalnfurnace.bsky.social a random fact that's stuck in my head about you is the fact you are such an incredibly amazing person and I am so lucky to have you in my life