Ok listen up people.
There is a lot of bad language in this video
And Bunny approves of all of it :)
And if you like models, you are required to watch the whole video
Boxman is awesome
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One of my tricks is to make my mind focus on something tedious
I have what I call the 3 game Things that come in 3s Circle square triangle red blue yellow
But the problem isn't getting to sleep, it's dealing with the dreams when I'm asleep
Role gaming for example
I over think and I ask too many questions
Can demons exist without gods existing?
Do demons require the existence of evil to exist?
Then what exactly are demons to begin with?
Well last night was rough as hell on my trying to sleep
Not sure what triggered my mind, but it was going places that sure didn't help me in any fashion
I'm going to focus on hobbies and subjects with literally NO baggage connected to them
Likely means models and reading books
Toronto is a great place to live if you can afford it
So much to do, so much to see
Wrong place though if you are a white racist :)
I liked to ride the bus and play spot the other white person hehe
The underground of downtown is amazing
You can walk for hours see so much
And never be 'outside'
I love my province :)
I lived in Toronto for 4 years 86-90
The city almost never stops but the go go go pace was too much for this rural Canadian. I only left because I wanted to slow down
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Yes, I know, I post a lot of stuff, often with no video content
Be glad I don't always offer crap about that fucking orange SOB
Another weekend approaches
Not that it matters to me
But I assume at least someone out there is looking forward to it :)
SMART the ability to sound better than the person with the degree
EDUCATION is a tool like a hammer
But a hammer won't make you smart
It could make you dangerous
WISDOM the ability for me to know my massive education won't make me smart
Wisdom also tells me there is so much more to learn
It's a popular come back
"Got proof?"
Yes actually I do
You would need my extensive education first before my explanation would be possible though
Otherwise I might as well be talking a foreign language to you
I didn't learn what I know casually using Google
I had to use a lot of books
Just to confuse the easily confused Christians
Your Bible's God does NOT exist
And as written he's a right proper fucking asshole
Loving? not fucking likely
But physics doesn't rule out 'god like beings' existing at higher levels of existence
I'd explain but I require more than 300 characters
To the maybe exists all powerful universal mind of the cosmos which I am but a small part of
Thanks
Yes you made me disabled
But you also redirected my life
Hate to admit it but I needed that
I was going nowhere fast
Yes you made me trans
But I appreciate being the real me
Thanks for D'arcy
In every day you need to
Stop and smell the roses
Smile at some one just for the heck of it
Enjoy something pleasant like Jello
Be glad you are even able to be in a position to read this post
Because it means you have the device and internet
And those are luxuries
And for those wanting to say "maybe I like going to extreme lengths for accuracy because I will know the difference"
Oh for fuck's sake stop trying to convince me
I don't actually care
I have worked professionally
I'm too old for that now
If you didn't have fun you did it wrong
Models WHO exactly are you building for?
If you're not entering a contest are you sure you want to go that far on the fussy factor?
If your collection is NEVER going to be seen by other knowledgeable eyes
I do out of box
I do proven brands
I prefer fit over accuracy
I prefer fun over accuracy
Yes I know grim morbid thinking there
I'm a blunt no nonsense person You don't get airheaded crap with Bunny
I don't follow the crowd
I am NOT a sheep I am not a wolf either
I value the rational the reasonable the logical
I am NOT a philosopher just a scientist that values proof
No kooky ideas
That all said I do NOT fear death
I fear a pointless life for the most part
I grew up religious but I never accepted the mangled beliefs
Today I am not expecting any form of afterdeath
Death is full stop return to the ground nothing else
I'm not throwing my life away for any thing or any one
You can never know a person's limit until they reach it
Way back in 97 I stared at the dark waters off of a local bridge for a very long time arguing with an idea
I told death to fuck off
But I have had that conversation several times
Always the same result
Fuck off death
I'm stubborn it helps
Just to be clear it's not just 'work' I am unable to enjoy without risk of a lot of pain as a result
I can't sit past 30 minutes
I can't stand longer than 5
Walking past 3 blocks is hard
It's hard to watch a movie
It makes sex difficult
Reading a book is a challenge
My life is full of risk of pain
For anyone thinking "It must be nice just sitting around building models"
My response is "It must be nice having a purpose and pride and being able to feel useful and not be in pain all the fucking time"
I've been stuck in forever Saturday for 30 years
It's been 29 years too long
Do I need these and the previous 4 models?
No
Do I care?
No
I want them and that is all I require to buy them
Life is pretty much telling me to settle with being able to have models
Life is telling me I can have em or not but stop asking for anything more significant
You live the life you get
Plans I tend to regret making plans
I tend to get disappointed when something mangles them
Next month, I think I will attempt to clear off some models from my Amazon 'saved for later' stash of models
Individually not much of a purchase
6 is doable if I'm not 'planning' to get anything else done
I really only have a few destinations downtown worth mention
Valumart for groceries
Tradewind Imports for toys
And Pizza Pizza or Mary Brown's mainly
One Eyed Jack being when I want a bit more of a meal
Not exactly a busy life :)
I enjoy getting around more in the warm season on my bike
Sadly the only thing other than Staples is A&W and Chuck's Steakhouse
Both are nice destinations but they are too much work to get there on foot
There is no other retail at the mall I require
I used to walk to Tim Horton's but I used to be ABLE to walk to Tim Hortons without wrecking myself as well
I think 'walking to the mall' is something I will have to discontinue doing for the same reasons I can't do a variety of other actions
I only end up regretting doing it
I like the walk the sunshine and all that but lying in bed in pain is NOT fun
All I do at the mall is get printouts from Staples
Well some are graceful.
I have seen a few females who do NOT look graceful
I think brute force describes some women just fine
Well managed to get the maps printed and assembled and or prepared for use
I have the Forgotten Realms Adventures book (cities pages) printed out so I have details of those locations
I'm holding off on any more printouts for now though
It's time I created some Cairn PCs and got into it eh
I have met many females you do NOT want to say the wrong phrase to
Female military police cute and deadly
Female firefighters
But sometimes it is the men just not interested
Grade 3 is no picnic
Receptionist seems always female
Some occupations are just not welcoming to women
When it comes to gendered sports and the many professions out there
The truth is the genders need to WANT to participate/work in the fields
Why are there so many female language teachers?
Why is math mainly a male teaching profession?
Sometimes one gender just doesn't wish to work in some jobs
The only reason for women's sports is the fact most women suck competing against men
Is there a female equal to LeBron James?
I don't know much about b ball
But I have met some very tall women and who knows
As I said, the woman who could equal LeBron James needs to want to equal him
So I have a bajillion role gaming counters made
Currently trying to decide if icons (lying flat that is) is ok, or do I invent a holder thingy to allow the counters to stand up
