Danoative

No proper communication, no hanging out for 3 weeks with your partner really hit a toll in your heart and mental state, will I last more than this...

Last time, I tried to test her by being cold back at though I couldn't bear the thought and went to confess to her and we made it up. Am I deserved to be her bf if I test her like this?? I had to fix my communication because I'm her first bf in life and I don't want to lose her as well.

I truly want to be by my gf to eat out and hangout with her but right now, its way to early for a long distance relationship and I see a trend of her wanting to draw commissions, I keep supporting her works, I love them and her... I shouldn't make her sad too, even if shes sometimes cold at me.

I dwonder how myself and my gf would do in the future, it's an unpredictable future but right now I selfishly wanting her for myself but I gotta respect her privacy. I don't how does she feel about me ever since we started dating 5 months ago after a long time confessing to her. 🤔😖

Ever since my gf changed her schedule to sleep early, I somehow adjusted my schedule a bit. We rarely have a time to play other games but just doing dailies in an online game. She is not a type to express in words a lot but she is doing her best to impress me these days. I'm proud of her so much!😊🤭

A exhausting birthday but it wasn't so bad to drive around and dine with friends. Then, at night spending time with my gf though it was quite short, I enjoyed it and I love her so much for that moment.

I love hanging out with my gf, I want to spend more time with her at night....

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lmao that was quite a question

IT students like myself who spending more time programming personal projects and staying on desk a lot are definitely not suit for servicing in a fast-pace environment without prior experience. We all take time to improve ourself upon each failures. After this failure, I won't work for them anymore.

All because I did not meet their standards of working... After they having said that I needed improvements? It's probably the schedule doesn't meet their standard because I took a quick look at their employee schedule and saw none having such short hours part-time work like me. Such ridiculous.

Even the form says "No experience needed, requiring fast-pacing". I may have not met the latter but the interviewer said "There's plenty of time to improve your pacing but you did your jobs diligently, just be more active and don't be too passive." Then 4pm today, I got a "failing rating"...?

Such a rough day, went for a part-time work trial for 3 hours to not get accepted because the desired schedule for me doesn't not meet the company's standard, meanwhile the form says
"4-5 hour and 4 days minimum required". Then I picked 7:30am to 1pm.

Even if my relationship is on the other side of the screen then I will hold on to it dearly, and progress my relationship slowly.
I do really like to tease my gf and comfort her 🤣, truly is the girl that motivates myself to be better. 🥰

But the guy that thinks a lot, is probably myself 😅🤔
We can think together though! 🤣

What a terrible grandma....😓

我什么时候也能画这么好🥲这太萌了…

siru is so good😇

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Sometimes I do wish to be able to comfort one's trauma but all I can do is listen to them and to understand their respective point of view. Am I helping them?, hard to say... but I wish I am helping them by being with them.

It's 2AM, I cannot sleep because my caffeine is still not wearing down, hopefully it will be soon so I can sleep for mushroom game with my gf tomorrow. I have been advancing on a good relationship pace but still need more improvements and listen to her more, the keyword is patient.

If there's a chance to redo this life, I will not take it because right now, I do feel fine with this current life. All thanks to my gf and good friends to keep myself going even though the current tech industry is a bit messy.

I just need to be more patient in the relationship with my gf anyways.

a lot of things to do yet the feeling of procrastination sometimes occurs, I'm such a bad example of a CS student...

I'm definitely a type to overthink a lot because my pasts being so bad, that I still felt it in the brain whenever I communicate with someone new. I'm still learning to get rid of it but the progress is minimal that I even had some intrusive thoughts of being abandoned by my gf and friend/family.
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I honestly getting tired of being bossed around by my sister for the most random things possible, when I'm busy studying nor resting. I will just be scolded for having bad hearing meanwhile I'm actually not and all I want, is a peaceful time to do whatever I want.

Will there be a time that I can do anything as I like? It's a little tiring to think of my future when the present is still unfinished, really need to work on my present-self more in coming months...
I do really want to buy a gift for a person I love dearly first when it's her birthday, but how?

There are times, I really want to punch the guts out of stupid people on the internet.... some inside thoughts.

What am I gonna do with myself?
I just hope that I had not messed up my relationships with her....

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I will do my best to make the person I love happy, that's my vow.

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