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im watching a playthrough of donkey kong bananza and i gotta say. yeah voice acting in video games is nice but i wish that pauline also spoke gibberish. just a huge fan of gibberish dialogue

nanite if you see this i am looking at you with big huge eyes

ive had Such a huge itch to play monster hunter world. maybe wednesday...

ah. period

> hurts back
> "man why am i so tired despite sleeping for 8-9 hours"

would love to not be haunted by my own inadequacy, this is so stupid

i miss working on my stories

been feeling vaguely ill since i woke up from my nap. i wanna be on my puter but sitting up makes me feel worse

with my sister's help i was FINALLY able to find the name of the campground we used to go to as kids

oosh... i have just enough for rent but i'll still need to dip into my savings for phone and groceries. oog

wish i could just float in water all day. easier to have an empty head

setting app timers on tumblr, twitter, and bsky bcuz looking at these apps are stressing me out way too much and i need to cut down

had a dream that someone made a powerpoint about why no one liked me (as a joke) and i cried and had to pretend to be okay with it. it took place in my high school's library. why....

little worried abt rent this month... might have to dip into my savings but ahhh thats what it's there for. weh

every day i keep telling myself i need to use social media less because it's stressing me out but it's so habitual it's hard to avoid it. ugh

idk why my back pain has been unrelenting lately. it feels like it's aggravated by my own weight which is really annoying :/

i should try and locate our ibuprofen... guh

oh tumblr looks quite yucky on browser now

i keep wanting to draw and then i just... don't or i fully psyche myself out of it. sigh...

this was a few days ago. i don't fault the person because, again, i Get It. i just... idk. wish ppl were more... empathetic i guess.

i get it, seeing ppl freak out or jump is funny!

it's just. the hallucinations are genuinely distressing and last for 30 minutes to an hour. ppl who don't have hallucination triggers like. don't get it. sigh. whatever

i wish ppl took discomfort more seriously. i told someone that seeing too many bugs gives me rlly bad tactile hallucinations and they later said "there's a bug on you" bcuz they thought it'd be funny

i knew there wasn't, i didn't fall for it. still didn't make me feel great

feeling vaguely sad and stressed today. dunno why. sighs

it's hard writing like... a surreal dream sequence because i see it, i feel it in my head, but putting it to words... impossible

didnt take a nap today... hope i can actually get some sleep

i dont like that i can feel something move when i press down on my back. it hurts when i do it too much so i shouldnt but i wonder what it is im feeling

i gotta go to sleep earlier

i need to clean the kitchen soon... it's driving me crazy

very rare that a wake up and decide to immediately take a shower but i took a shower. it's supposed to be really yucky later so it's probably gonna be like i didn't take one but at least i won't be self-conscious

happened earlier. thought abt it cuz im laying down and my back just... hurts. whateverrrr