You suffer the signs that you needed to change.
You heed all the ways you'd been thinking.
You close your eyes and take a deep breath.
You'll come back and try again another day.
You suffer the signs that you needed to change.
You heed all the ways you'd been thinking.
You close your eyes and take a deep breath.
You'll come back and try again another day.
You view it as a form of physical therapy.
You feel stupid for struggling, and the urge to self-harm somewhere less impactful rises like bile in the back of your throat.
You resist.
You remind yourself you're trying.
You remind yourself you're making progress.
You've been trying to play more piano, but the body's long history of self-harm, especially on the arms, has been making it difficult.
You've decided to take a step back and play Clone Hero, something that will keep playing music even if you miss a note.
You're not good at it.
But you try.
the world, as we know it in this minute, no longer carries her spark.
no more Rose Lynn Darling.
no more Wosey.
a complacently nihilistic michelle
...
Great!!
Now get out.
The others are like animals, but I am very aware.
You're not allowed here.
You'll spend eternity here, you'll never let go.
it's so odd to have this branding, visage and name, created by her, created for her, created of her, and she's just... gone.
we'd tried breaks in the past, during the last 5ish years, but, they never took. she always influenced the body or thoughts or would come back.
it's been almost two months.
two months
lil less than, happened after the train ride
being broken to the point of attempting, failing and feeling like she's the worst person to grace this earth and needed to keep trying to die because those were the last things she took to heart, i... don't know if she's ever coming back.
well okay actually no
we've been cut-free since then!!
we were supposed to go home before christmas but rose had a breakdown and kept banging her head on the walls as hard as possible before nurses came in and restrained us!
but yeah
her rampant suicidality is why she's been dormant for two month
hunger + gender dysphoria combo so bad i'm making myself a penisni-press sandwich at 10pm
04.02.2026 05:15 — 👍 1 🔁 1 💬 0 📌 0
btw we got our knife back after we gave it to the body's mom after our job made rose wanna kill herself and she sliced our arm open with it in september
she made it an even worse scar on halloween before staring off into the lake below her, but that was a rusty razor
we've been SH free since then!
GOD FUCKING DAMMIT CAN A GIRL NOT JUST FIDGET WITH HER BUTTERFLY KNIFE LIKE A DUMBASS
WHAT DO YOU MEAN I THWACKED IT ACROSS MY KNUCKLES USING STORED ENERGY FROM THE HINGES
WHAT DO YOU MEAN I LOOK LIKE A DUMBASS WITH A BRUISED KNUCKLE AND A CUT ACROSS IT
Did you know that we have a 96.73% chamce of turning to The Dark Side of The Force? It's true!!
Come watch the end of the Lego prequels!
"Serena, The Sith is Revengeful!"
Twitch.tv/StarlightRLD
Daisy, the Lego Clones Attack!
(Lego'd Star-ed War Skywalk Sage Episode II)
Twitch.tv/StarlightRLD
A drawing of a pink barn owl looking into an oracle ball. The caption reads, "in every possible future... you matter, a lot"
🦉
27.02.2026 22:17 — 👍 2039 🔁 879 💬 13 📌 9
So you have a cool idea. Great! Now what?
First, use discernment. Not every idea will lead to a good outcome. Imagine the end result.
Second, use skills and make it a real thing. People want to experience it, not hear about it.
Discernment and skills take a LOT of time to develop, so start there!
If you want to watch me word (edit streams into videos), go ahead.
Or just keep me company so I don't go insane.
Twitch.tv/StarlightRLD
Oh, what would Daredevil do.
I'd rather ask forgiveness for what I'm capable of, but that's not justice.
"Leave the demon to its demons", Charlie would say.
Funny.
//
i stream more lego star war
twitch.tv/StarlightRLD
Seeing you powerless is like music to me :D
22.02.2026 17:24 — 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Daisy, The Lego Jedi Returns!
Starlight is Giving balance to The Force!!
twitch.tv/StarlightRLD
This Scott the Woz clip continues to be extremely relevant lmao
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A screenshot from VGen, listing the requirements for becoming a "Star Seller" - 5 sales in 30 days (achieved), $50 earned in 30 days (36/50 earned), 2 show reviews in 30 days (0/2), and a 4.7+ shop rating (none)
Friends, I've done it. I hit the limit on how much shop product I can put on VGen.
You are the only ones who can help me. If I can meet these requirements, there will be nothing stopping me from making my shop reach infinity.
vgen.co/isaacanzu/shop
made an ice cream float using vanilla ice cream and mountain dew code red
was gonna call it "the mountain fog" but then it struck me.
The Silent Hill
You wanna know what it's like to sleep inside the fresh carcass of a pregnant tauntaun? Me too!!
I wonder if there's any purple studs...
Twitch.tv/StarlightRLD
Daisy Skywalker Saga, A New Hope pt 2 || Road to Lego Batman 4
The grind is finally on fun times :)
Also I'm using my Sans pngtuber today!
twitch.tv/StarlightRLD
It's officially that time. The LAST collectable for Lego Marvel Superheroes 2, to finally 100% the game and never touch it again
After that, we're moving onto Lego Skywalker Saga and NO, we will not be 100%ing the rest of the games
Daisy 100% LMSH2, Beginning Skywalker Saga
twitch.tv/StarlightRLD
(Mostly Mute) LMSH2 100% Day 762,398,419 || Road to Lego Batman 4
nothing funny to say 😭
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watch my latest vod if u wanna see me sob
www.twitch.tv/starlightrld...
Happy Friday the 13th!
#art
You know the deal. We're less than 25% away from finishing this stupid game and never touching it again.
Lego Marvel Superheroes 2.
Day 67. Do the hand thing.
That's right.
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