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I take back part of what I said. That previous post was written as I had only seen season 1.
Umamusume is the kind of sports anime with women I was looking for. I've cried a lot. And I need more anime like that.
I do not take back my statement about writing my own sports story though 🤭 working on it

A Pastoral Love

I discovered something I want to yap about but I have no energy to yap about it >:c
So I will have to wait and hope I don't forget about it.

I always have this thing where when I'm happy and focused on my arts, I start isolating myself.
I think it's partly because words can't explain everything going in my imagination, and I'm just at a loss when speaking with other people.
But idk. It feels good, but also I worry I might be too absent.

I've been lost in daydreams so much this morning that I got overwhelmed, except my main coping mechanism is daydreaming, which means even more daydreams.
I feel like the world around me isn't real anymore lol
it's one of those moments I really experience the maladaptive in maladaptive daydreaming

Like really ?
I understand you probably can't adapt to every possible program, but at least give other options than MS office...

If Dragon just learnt to work on something else that office word, it would be that easy. Either function on libreoffice or at least txt files like obsidian operates on.
For a +500€ program that's the least I'd expect, but apparently disabilities represent too small of a demography for business.

Office Word is expensive, feeds on my writing and frankly sucks.
The other option for live dictation is google doc's dictation tool, but that means also feeding an ai with my voice and my writing.
Whisper works through file conversion, not live dictation, so not an option either.

Searching desperately for a way to dictate on my PC so that I can write my stories. And doing so without feeding ai is borderline impossible. Dragon won't work properly outside of Word, so I can't write in obsidian anymore. It doesn't even work with libreoffice or open office.

Mine was Mission to Mars, which isn't really scary but for some reason gave me nightmares for months when I was like 9-10 🤷🏻‍♀️

I HAVE THE HRT PRESCRIPTION!!!!! I am still looking for any help to cover the cost of this first visit and prescription because insurance has not kicked in yet. Please and thank you. Ko-fi in quoted post.

Not me opening my window at 11pm, thinking "ah, finally I can let some fresh air in the apartment for the night", only to be welcomed by a wave of heat probably coming from the surface of the sun at this point. Why is it +30°C at night ? 😭 Give me back my snow and negative temperatures please 🥺

an illustration by Spindle with the characters lesbiab couple Ottilie (on the left) and Asimov (on the right) dancing together in their house in an open patio (is that what's this called?)

dance of love ❤️

Except as my turn starts, my opponent has 4 negates on the board and an ash blossom in hand, despite my best efforts to cancel his combos.
A perfect hand, turning to nothing, like ash on the wind 🍃
This game can be so awesome, but it's so hard to find decks on the same level as yours to have fun lol

Y'know sometimes I play a littleyugioh online, enjoying my day with my little silly non-meta deck.
I lose the heads or tail, and have to go second, but it's okay. I drew the perfect hand, feeling happy and satisfied with my day.
I wonder what card I will see. The puzzle I'll have to solve to win ☺️

I'm just riding the dunning kruger rollercoaster non stop lol
But at least I'm excited about something and it makes me happy I guess 🤭
No thoughts, brain empty, and dopamine for a day by learning a simple fact

I always want to talk about my hyperfocuses, but I also have nothing to say about them lol
Whenever I structure a little bit what I want to talk about, I realize how empty it is.
I'm just excited about a topic, but a sentence is enough to sum it up, and then I'm out of words, just excitement 🤭

I shall keep working on them then, and maybe one day it'll be done and I can finally be satisfied and move to the next one 🙏🏻

a girl with long white hair and elf ears ALT: a girl with long white hair and elf ears

Why can't I make simple projects for once aaaaaaaa
I have too much cool ideas and no time and no moneyyy
If I make the 3 videos I want to make by the end of 2025 like I would like to, it'll be a miracle lol
although tbh finishing one ever would already be a miracle 🤭

Finally got the doctors visit bill its $360. So the $360 plus nearly $600 in labs puts me just south of $1k. This is going to be tough to pay if you can help at all please do link is below.

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A couple of weeks ago I had a bad health scare and had to go se the doctor. Good news is they were able to get me on medication that has helped me a lot bad news is I have no insurance and the bill is a lot. I am looking at around $900 in expenses so far. Any help is extremely appreciated.

Might be caffeine time if I want to be done in time to chill tonight >.<

I have so much stuff left to do but I keep trying to run away from it aaaaaadjshfk
Earlier I was too anxious to do the thing, and now that ritalin's effect ran out I'm feeling great again but I can't do the thing because I can't control my procrastination anymore >:c

Aéline do the thing now pleasee

YouTube video by Le Guide du Photographe de Mariage S'adapter à son corps - Aeline Lluvi

Petit moment un peu cool, j'ai été invitée sur le podcast du guide du photographe de mariage pour parler de ma vision de la photo, de mon parcours, mais surtout de handicap invisible. Ça fait plaisir de pouvoir en parler et donner un peu de visibilité à tout ça 🙏🏻
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It seems some people just think ttrpg=D&D and that is kinda frustrating to me.
Just had a talk with someone about a tool for worldbuilding ttrpgs, and then he proceeds to present a d&d toolbox.
My guy, have you been to a ttrpg store ? D&D is like a small shelf in the corner. Not the entire store ><

HAPPY INTERNATIONAL ACE DAY!!!
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It is one I found through my research, but I haven't watched yet. It didn't seem that serious yeah, but still looked like it has potential to be enjoyable I believe you on that

Apparently there's a recent one that's okay on golfing, yeah. My complaint is more that it's just decent, not much more.
The one I found that had the budget and the ambition to create more than a decent work had to add an idol dimension to it that brings almost nothing to the plot