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Damn, the smell of cigarettes and the sound of the incoming revs of a motorcycle just brought me back to my childhood.

Oh how I missed sitting by the door waiting for my dad to come home

I will also be seething with the idea of me borrowing someone's car and being penalized 12 thousand philippine fucking pesos just because the car was not registered. Damn you and your cluelessness to life

Man I can't believe I was almost gonna post a "30-day smoke free" smth. Shit's hard when life hits you with a one-two combo of academic stress and emotional strain

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Yesterday was the first day I received flowers, the first time I enjoyed my birthday cake, and the first moment when I never left home yet felt so fulfilled.

Happy 24th birthday to me

I remember picking up Orwell's Animal Farm and I've just finished it.

How ironic it is to have a political satire novel about the corruption of power being a timeless classic.

Bruh I hope iana doesn't read this lol, but I'm at the bus rn and I'm gonna surprise her. I'm about to get off in like 45 mins but she's out of her internship at 5pm bruh

2 am and I'm checkin the tracking status of my order like "is u otw bruh"

So hot🤤

I pray for the day that I will look at you and see the lines and wrinkles of our years and still admire your beauty

... or what's it like to be a father, and for a second I've forgotten every woes and worries I have. I felt like everything was alright and nothing else mattered as long as I am with them.

I'd be a damn fool if I ever screw this up again haha

A couple of weeks ago, I was with Iana in Bulacan. Idk I just felt like going there and spending time with her siblings and her.

During those days, I was reminded of my childhood. Summers where I spent playing around and everything was simple. I also saw a glimpse of the future...

I hate it, why does it always come when it's a significant time? It's supposed to be valentines, though I may not have anything planned today but I'm sure I never wanted this day to be tense just bc we fought.

It's been a while, but so far my life hasn't been of interest until rn.

Right now I'm feeling anxiety that isn't looming in, this is the type of anxiety that's you know something's about to come and it's eating my heart out.

I wanna practice drawing but if I do that I'll know exactly how bad I am

This anxiety was familiar but unwelcomed, the silence in the class was deafening. I shrunk, I felt like I knew what everyone was thinking, and I was holding my breath waiting for things to be over.

For the life of me, I haven't been put in a situation where I didn't know what to say. I've always thought I was able to wing shit every now and then. But today was different, I was truly unprepared with a presentation and I was silent with a question.

So it's midnight, and I surrendered my vape to iana earlier, thinking maybe this is the only way I'll get to stop.

And it's fucking hard. Nicotine addiction is fucking hard.

It's 2025 and I'm going to be trying my best to create new habits, break old ones and generally become a better person.

Here's to me and to more success. I'm claiming it, in Jesus' name, with the help of saints and all of you guys.

Greeting everyone a Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! 🎄🌌

Lots of people like to clown on Geloy Concepcion (even me from time to time) just for having a life that is beautifully mundane. Yet damn do I crave for that shit.

She got me🤍

I'm self reflecting about the time I told iana that I was ready to settle with her. Yet I can't remove the idea of having my own place. Just something for me. This was something I dreamt and somehow correlated to me being not ready for marital assets.

Am I still not ready?

3. That's when I had to reflect, I did compare her. Syempre madaya kasi iana would automatically come on top, but ig Keys were supposed to be that one big comparison on what I felt throughout both relationships.

Idk, maybe I'll write it fully when I have the time. Who knows?

2. Then I just never thought of it again, lahat ng atensyon ko nasa kanya. How I feel more comfortable being vulnerable and how I'm back to being jolly ig(?)

1. She asked me one time, "have you ever compared me to your ex?"

I honestly don't know what the correct answer is. When we started dating, I'd notice similarities and it kinda bothered me that they were a lot similar than I'd expect.

The "no" got me dead lmao💀💀

Ig I was comparing my ex and iana, but out of nowhere I erased everything except the first two paragraphs and just said no💀

Got so hammered recently while solo drinking. Time to check the notes app.

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