Dre 🖤 2/27 ♓️

Everybody got an opinion on teachers and how we facilitate teaching and it’s actually insaneeee cuz folks don’t be knowing a sliver of what they’re talking about. It makes my ass itch so bad!

I just want people to respect the field of teaching again. I went to school for this shit. I’m STILL going to school for this shit. I promise you don’t know more than me working your lil excel/ call center job. Like factually. We can put this shit on a graph if you’d like…

Me lol

As a teacher, idk how I feel about the new workforce we got coming in a few years. These kids really can’t do shit without cheating or someone else bailing them out of their own erroneous choices. It’s lowkey kinda scary.

Worse is that they will use components of our culture as a gimmick, but won’t acknowledge the cultural needs of our people.

They feel like they don’t have to respect black people as customers which I do not rock with in the slightest.

That’s cuz a lot of our people just want financial freedom(which I get), but do not view anything from a community or cultural baseline. They don’t care about anything except trying to make $500 in 30 minutes.

Yes! And to hear black women defending him out of stupid insecurities broke my heart. So much of social media is just used to demean us as people. I fucking hate it bro.

Yep. The word “ponk” being thrown around by black women haphazardly. All of these black gay influencers in mess. All the lack in communication skills and thirstiness to fight each other. I’m very much over it atp.

I love my black people so so much, but a nice ass portion of y’all are terrible at owning businesses. You cannot do everything according to your convenience. That’s like Shitty Business Owning 101.

I’m starting to hate TikTok because of its misrepresentation of black gay men and the door it opens for black women to be homophobic. It’s actually kinda making me sick.

Bigotry makes people stupid and evil. So, yes, 9/10, queer people are gonna feel like a godsend in your life cuz we actually employ empathy and acceptance.

Good morning. My sinuses are FUCKED rn, but I’m still managing lol

Did all that and now I’m watching Cheetah Girls 2. Should ice cream be added to the mix? 🤨👀

I love me some nice crispy fries with some ketchup on the side

I’m trying to. He’s so damn hardheaded tho 😭

Anyways, fast forward to a fucked up economy, a political regime that feeds on bigotry, and inequity everywhere…and now, idk what the fuck to think lmao.

I just feel like I’m losing time to attain comfort before the world is impossible to be comfortable in…which is kinda dystopian…

Now, it’s hard for me to praise myself or accept praise or even believe good things can happen to me(sometimes). This mindset comes from a longgg line of unpleasant experiences and surviving.

It’s fucked up that this is a common experience. It’s actually very easy to fall into.

That just made me feel like I needed to work harder because I was obviously doing something wrong if my life felt this hard.

I blamed my career. I blamed my skills. I blamed my choices. And eventually, I just started blaming myself.

Not to mention, teaching is an incredibly thankless job. In fact, society WANTS teachers to feel like shit- from the district to administrators to nowadays, a good portion of students as well.

I’ve been told and heard so many times that being an educator is easy.

So asking for help would just make me feel like a failure. I put myself through hella financial stress and just “bad” decisions trying to find a secure path.

Somehow along the way, I just lost faith in myself. It felt like my abilities were worthless.

Meaning, that soooooo many adults filled my head with an idea of just getting a degree, and immediately having access to a financially stable lifestyle.

That was a lie. A lie that shattered my entire fucking world. I’ve also been (kinda forced to be) independent my entire life.

I was born in 1997 and pretty much was an adolescent when the whole “go to college” movement was implemented on all grade levels.

I was told since I was a young child that I NEEDED a degree in order to be comfortable in life. Not survive. COMFORTABLE.

And I was raised not to blame other people for my own life, but this one is valid:

IT IS SOCIETY AND RACIST ASS AMERICA’S FAULT.

Actually, I have a theory, but it’s kinda long winded lol

I’m coming to realize I view myself with a deficit mindset. Idk how it got like this. But, we definitely gone break this shit.

At least I have an appetite. I’m gone steam these lobster tails, treat myself to a bath, and maybe end the night with some libations to set a good tone for the end of the day.

I’m gone see if I can make the same thing happen next year. Papa needs a break so badddd.

It’d be wayyyyy more fun if we didn’t have to work and still had our needs met(and maybe a lil extra).

I was only able to do that for one summer. I ain’t never felt that at peace before or since then.

Cuz I haven’t been through enough this week, apparently 🫠

Lmaooooo I desperately wish the circumstances were different 🤦🏾‍♂️