Jess

Marcille lineart

#arlefuri

Who’s missing these lovebirds? #eimiko and their lovely(?!) extravagant gift exchange!🎁✨😂

I’m glad it meant something to you!

I’m used to being able to work, interact with people day to day, and not lie in bed sadly all day. I guess it’s easy to take for granted despite it being unimaginable a few years ago

I’m pretty happy that I managed to survive it

I’m grateful for not being as lonely, anxious and depressed as I was prior to a few years ago. It still hurts to think back to how I felt and I think it still shapes a lot of who I am given how that was idk more than a third of my life so far

Honkai StarRail's Kafka and Stelle as horse girls from Umamusume Pretty Derby, posing to the viewer

horsegirl actually pulls me from almost an indefinite slump #kafstel

Maybe I’ll try to do one rep of my strength training routine during each break- that’ll shorten my exercise time at least- can’t do that when I work in-person though

What I’m doing- I do a lot of my chores during work breaks now- but between exercise + shower, reading just a small amount of news, eating dinner, bit of a programming project and doing my gacha dailies I take like 2-3 hours - even when I managed to do everything else during work breaks

I don’t understand how to fit everything I do in a day while leaving myself enough time to not start to feel miserable. I had a bit of a breakdown on the weekend from lack of free time from doing the things I “should” do for all but 1-3 hours a day on work days

I’ve gotten better at optimizing

😆

I’m trying to get fit again and I’ve been reading/watching yuri more though so that’s been good. I have such a crush on granita from sherbet above the sea of fog

I also went a protest finally. Never went because of social anxiety making going alone hard so I felt good about managing that finally

Until it’s like 1-2 hours until I need to sleep so I just play like a gacha game for like 30 min and some other stuff. I’m hoping I can adjust this eventually so I can play more and do other things

It’s been so long. I haven’t had time to play gacha stuff lately because of moving and work but I may as well post again. I’ve been doing pretty well with rebalancing my life a bit but I’m really not leaving myself enough free time lately. I work and then do chores/health stuff/other daily stuff

I’m sorry to see not everyone is very polite and appreciative in response to the art you share. I appreciate the time you’ve taken to make and upload all the things you’ve posted so far! I wish people were more polite with artists and other people they don’t know personally

#Feikong

That’s sad :c

I became more openly gay last time when someone shouted faggot at my gf and I too- so that’s the positive side of this stuff for me at least I guess

If they were stealing something from me or disliked me for a reason I’d find it less upsetting because at least it’s not 100% irredeemable in my eyes. It motivates me to be even more openly gay though because who cares what people who are going to bother me think if they’re like this anyway

This also ties in to how things are politically and feeling more aware of how mean people can be online without much good reason.

It upsets me just to see people act like this because it’s so awful to just want to hurt others indiscriminately

But it feels like a bit of a waste when I don’t like people.

I had my windshield shattered while it was parked by people who could not know me or have anything against me specifically and had someone throw something at my car today for no reason besides not liking that I had glasses on? Idk

I’ve been seeing a lot of reminders lately of how people often enough do things solely to hurt or bother people for its own sake. I find it really depressing as someone who partially has found purpose in living by trying to make the world better for people to the extent that I can

💫❄️

oh they are tender