Loxy Feldspar

i said PURPLUSSY & i said what i said 🤡

made my own Purplussy (minus the tapioca balls because ew) and Phan were right, it's really good! but now i want to make more mocktails 🤔

first page of my new scrapbook ft. a photo of me from the first show i ever played and the booklet from #afycso because i lost the CD case for it

entering my journaling era. i already didn't post much on here but part of the point of this is to spend less time on social media so...

bonus

Nadja (+the doll) from What We Do in the Shadows for halloween 🧛🏻‍♀️

Photo of Hayley Williams from Paramore.

i got suckered into buying 3 full size chocolate bars for $20. it was a lady trying to raise money to get back to her family in the Phillipines. i happened to have a 20 on me so i was like "fuck it let's do it"

just had to answer the door in my halloween costume... they asked if i'm having a halloween party (i said yes) ((no i'm not having one))

(i think i just want an excuse to buy more things lmao)

is A5 the standard size for journals? just realized i ordered all 5 in the same size despite not paying any attention to what size they were, so that's pretty lucky

if you do any fun kinds of journals let me know what they are! all 5 of mine are for different things and i'm open to adding a 6th

that's about the 3rd or 4th one i know of!! i swear there is a "me" factory out there...

finished my Halloween room in Hello Kitty Island Adventure! also made a crafting room and a spa room

misophonia has been really bad lately. every time the people i live with eat crunchy food, every time they cough burp or clear their throat, even just the sound of their breathing - i get really bad intrusive thoughts and rage

which is really annoying because i like spending time around them

i've been refraining from venting on here (aside from the last thread) because i thought it would be good to keep this more professional, but it has felt like a part of me is missing. i think i want to include that kind of openness in this new place

ahhh that's so refreshing to hear, i've always wondered if there was anyone who appreciated that about me. i usually just feel like i'm annoying everyone 😅 but i need to be less hard on myself probably

appreciate you sticking around

oh man sometimes i've wondered how he's doing, and have had the idea to ask you a couple times but yeah didn't know if y'all still talked 😅

honestly i love that for us hahaha it's a lot more comical

which isn't to say that all people consuming it are like that, and that all people i attracted were unsavory. i met a lot of good people, too. but i'd now like to meet people who didn't find me that way, & i don't know how to do that. the lewds attracted people with zero effort.

and i call it low hanging fruit b/c you don't have to have a personality, you don't have to be a good person; the people consuming it are often just sating the most basic of instincts and not giving it any more thought than that. lewds can speak a language when you don't know any words

i don't regret that i previously engaged in the low hanging fruit of posting lewds, but i regret that a large chunk of the people it attracted to me were unsavory

tfw you realize you have to seek out the kinds of people you want to have in your space, and that they're not just going to come to you magically

it's a knock-off of a Vivienne Westwood lighter necklace, popularized by Ai Yazawa's Nana manga/anime

balance is key! i went all out that first year which is probably why i rebounded for so long. gonna try to find that sweet spot between depriving myself and indulging now that i've done both

i swear i cut my bangs straight, you just can't tell until i flatiron them

weight loss journey over the last 2 years... first year, lost 15kg by working my ass off (uphill against my meds, known for weight gain). 2nd year, started slacking off, gained some back, lost some again and now i'm down 17kg from my start weight.

im half way there & ready to work my ass off again!

Out of all the Outer Wilds places, I think this is the one that made the most impact on me when I first stumbled upon it...

#outerwilds #outerwildsarts

*kneeling before the Queen*

me: my lady. Shid, but also Fard

the Queen: hmm. troubling is this news, indeed

our confidence is not infinite. when you're not young & thin it seems we're cursed to have to work for it. ruts like this come and go for me - so i'm hoping it's only a temporary thing. i understand the struggle though... sending psychic hugs your way

looking for honest opinions on this. my friend is getting a bunch of mushrooms tattooed on him designed by his friends. the drippiness is supposed to be like an inky cap. i'm starting to think it doesn't even resemble a mushroom, my idea is too out there. thoughts pls?