【NOTICE】 I’ve made the decision that I will no longer show my face publicly outside of idol events. All videos will be unlisted & archived indefinitely on my YouTube channel. Instagram posts that I currently had on my page have also been archived while some Reels have been deleted. My face will be covered in all photos/videos effective immediately. For the past six years, I’m very aware that my face has been seen online, so you know what I look like already. That’s not what I’m afraid of. I smile and it feels fake. My eyes are worn out with dark circles that I refuse to cover with makeup. Please understand that my objective is not trying to hide my identity for the sole purpose of you not remembering. It’s too heavy to continue to mask. My physical appearance is not something I need to show, therefore I believe my words hold more weight. The song covers that I’ve made do not completely express my own emotions. Over the years, majority of what was sung before 2021 consisted of Love Live!. Since then, I’ve mainly covered J-pop alt music from idol groups like GANG PARADE, BiS, BiSH, and more on the way in the future. What I hope to accomplish relies on a safer living space, stable finance, and better improvement of my physical / mental / emotional wellbeing. I’ll get there after so long. Uploads and updates will be slow for the time being because there aren’t other plans regarding my content right now. When my life is more secured, I am going to resume where I left off. I don’t know what I’m trying to pursue for my “graduation” at this point. This line represents a scream in the void. A wound not healed. I feel “flat” in a world that demands constant expression, so it creates numbness. However, I need to create a newer version of myself that I have yet to connect to. I’ll be more an idol-adjacent indie artist moving forward. Thank you for everyone that’s been there for me. Just know that I will always love you. Raw, real, and flawed. いつも応援してくれて、ありがとう.
Thank you for your continued support.
I hope that I’m in a better position in my life sooner than later to resume any alt idol projects. Activity will be slow and that’s okay because I know you all are waiting for me to return.
I love you.
