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Geeky Therian Trans lesbien streamer, & prop maker, tf enthusiast She/Her Pronouns

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Four-page comic.

Page 1
Top section: Narration text says, “Every day I wake up convinced I’ll finally do the thing I’ve been wanting to do for so long, but I’ve gotten so tired of waking up every day knowing that nothing has changed.”

Panels show lists of undone tasks:
- Narration: “Another day and I still haven’t cleaned the table so I can cook, still haven’t filled out important forms, haven’t thrown out the spoiled food I put next to the fridge a week ago, still haven’t unpacked the luggage from 9 months ago, and I lost a letter and am too ashamed to ask for a copy.”

Final narration on this page: “I do the wrong tasks, don’t finish, or get paralyzed before being able to start anything.”

Four-page comic. Page 1 Top section: Narration text says, “Every day I wake up convinced I’ll finally do the thing I’ve been wanting to do for so long, but I’ve gotten so tired of waking up every day knowing that nothing has changed.” Panels show lists of undone tasks: - Narration: “Another day and I still haven’t cleaned the table so I can cook, still haven’t filled out important forms, haven’t thrown out the spoiled food I put next to the fridge a week ago, still haven’t unpacked the luggage from 9 months ago, and I lost a letter and am too ashamed to ask for a copy.” Final narration on this page: “I do the wrong tasks, don’t finish, or get paralyzed before being able to start anything.”

Page 2
Panels contrast misconceptions with reality.
Narration: “When I can’t do something, it’s not: ‘It’s not fun so I won’t bother.’ Or ‘I don’t wanna do it.’”

Next panels show dread. Narration: “It’s more like I feel dread and my body yells back at me: ‘You won’t feel rewarded for this, so you’re wasting survival resources and energy.’ ‘DON’T DO IT.’”

Further narration: “I can’t even explain why I don’t do things, so people don’t believe me. I’ve started isolating because gathering my courage to ask for help and being shamed hurts so much.”

Closing narration on this page: “It feels like I’m a ghost, unable to make meaningful changes to my life. An existence unseen and unheard, having to hide so as not to trouble others.”

Page 2 Panels contrast misconceptions with reality. Narration: “When I can’t do something, it’s not: ‘It’s not fun so I won’t bother.’ Or ‘I don’t wanna do it.’” Next panels show dread. Narration: “It’s more like I feel dread and my body yells back at me: ‘You won’t feel rewarded for this, so you’re wasting survival resources and energy.’ ‘DON’T DO IT.’” Further narration: “I can’t even explain why I don’t do things, so people don’t believe me. I’ve started isolating because gathering my courage to ask for help and being shamed hurts so much.” Closing narration on this page: “It feels like I’m a ghost, unable to make meaningful changes to my life. An existence unseen and unheard, having to hide so as not to trouble others.”

Page 3
Narration continues: “All I can do is watch as my life falls apart in slow-motion, as people watch and ask themselves ‘why doesn’t she just do something?’”

Further narration: “Every day I would fight myself to great exhaustion without any result to show for it. So after a while, I gave up fighting. 
Not because I had a negative mindset, but as a result of my experiences.”

Someone scolds: “No one is coming to save you, stop being so self-defeating!”

Shift in tone: Narration asks, “Do you know what saved my life?”
A supportive voice replies: “I believe you. I will help you.”

Page 3 Narration continues: “All I can do is watch as my life falls apart in slow-motion, as people watch and ask themselves ‘why doesn’t she just do something?’” Further narration: “Every day I would fight myself to great exhaustion without any result to show for it. So after a while, I gave up fighting. Not because I had a negative mindset, but as a result of my experiences.” Someone scolds: “No one is coming to save you, stop being so self-defeating!” Shift in tone: Narration asks, “Do you know what saved my life?” A supportive voice replies: “I believe you. I will help you.”

Page 4
Narration: “It’s not that no one has helped me before, but no one believed how much help I needed.”

Someone else says dismissively: “I’m sure you can do it!”

Narration continues: “And it’s not that I can’t do anything – I can do many things that others can’t. It’s just that where my mother needs help using the PC, I need help organizing my day.”

Further narration: “People aren’t made to survive alone – without any help.”

Closing text: “I am still my own person. I have my own morals, agency, hopes and dreams. And if I have a robust scaffolding to work on, I can not only live, but thrive.”

Page 4 Narration: “It’s not that no one has helped me before, but no one believed how much help I needed.” Someone else says dismissively: “I’m sure you can do it!” Narration continues: “And it’s not that I can’t do anything – I can do many things that others can’t. It’s just that where my mother needs help using the PC, I need help organizing my day.” Further narration: “People aren’t made to survive alone – without any help.” Closing text: “I am still my own person. I have my own morals, agency, hopes and dreams. And if I have a robust scaffolding to work on, I can not only live, but thrive.”

Sometimes I feel like a ghost, unable to make meaningful changes to my life, while not being believed when I tell people how much I try.

16.09.2025 16:25 — 👍 465    🔁 196    💬 7    📌 16
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We are live on twitch playing Hollow Knight Silksong, Getting lost in the mist and being judged for it.
www.twitch.tv/transmuted_elf

10.10.2025 20:51 — 👍 1    🔁 1    💬 0    📌 0
Slowly, two figures come into focus, one behind the other with their hand on the other's neck.

Vampire: The Masquerade: Blood Doll, Episode 1. Coming from the Not Ready for Opsec Players and Alicia E. Goranson.

https://blooddollpod.com

Slowly, two figures come into focus, one behind the other with their hand on the other's neck. Vampire: The Masquerade: Blood Doll, Episode 1. Coming from the Not Ready for Opsec Players and Alicia E. Goranson. https://blooddollpod.com

Good news, October lovers of vamps, tragic love stories, transgender drama, and leftist politics!

The Not Ready for Opsec Players are proud to announce the release of their first episode of their weekly audio drama:
Vampire: The Masquerade: Blood Doll!

Enjoy!

www.blooddollpod.com/podcast/vtm-...

06.10.2025 15:00 — 👍 16    🔁 7    💬 0    📌 9

By the way, signal boosts are especially appreciated on this, 'cos it's a mature game so I'll have less viewers than usual.

03.10.2025 20:23 — 👍 97    🔁 71    💬 0    📌 0
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Sherma opens the gate for us (ANIMATION)

had fun animating the silly bugs lol

#silksong #animation

22.09.2025 20:41 — 👍 1726    🔁 680    💬 14    📌 4
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Going live with Hollow Knight Silksong! Going to try to wrap up as much as possible in Act 1 today.
www.twitch.tv/transmuted_elf

01.10.2025 22:34 — 👍 2    🔁 1    💬 0    📌 0
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We are live! Hollow Knight Silksong, traps and pain all around!
www.twitch.tv/transmuted_elf

27.09.2025 21:15 — 👍 2    🔁 1    💬 0    📌 0

Above art by @blackshirtboy.bsky.social

25.09.2025 17:17 — 👍 2    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0
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Birthday stream! Going live with our annual return to Portal 1 followed by Portal 2.

www.twitch.tv/transmuted_elf

25.09.2025 17:07 — 👍 16    🔁 7    💬 3    📌 1

Look Atlanta Aquarium is one of my all time fave aquariums, want to hear your opinion of the open ocean area.

25.09.2025 16:15 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

Aww that is cuuute!

24.09.2025 18:44 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0
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Twitch Twitch is the world

we reached the gate! will we find out what's beyond? time for silksong! www.twitch.tv/tcstarwind

23.09.2025 00:31 — 👍 1    🔁 1    💬 0    📌 0
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We are live on twitch with more Silksong!
Ants and Sinners rejoice!
www.twitch.tv/transmuted_elf

20.09.2025 18:35 — 👍 2    🔁 1    💬 0    📌 0

Additionally in the case of character backgrounds this would enable player characters playing the same class to further separate them from their peers. Yes the design of the astirs can be wildly differnt but outside of them what else?

20.09.2025 17:26 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

Sometimes a sortie is go to point b(casino, beach, school) and get/steal mcguffin/information/ally. Some of these scenarios might mean something like an astir or ardent or the ship might not be present for most of the sortie.

20.09.2025 17:26 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

Something Id like to see in a future edition to the game(no space in the survey for this) is some option for each playbook to have both combat and non combat abilities. In leu of that backgrounds that add non combat abilities(my preference).

20.09.2025 17:26 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

Me summoning all the viewers I can!

20.09.2025 15:03 — 👍 220    🔁 47    💬 6    📌 0

Page of Cups.

20.09.2025 16:10 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0
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We are live on twitch with more Hollow Knight Silksong!
www.twitch.tv/transmuted_elf

17.09.2025 23:47 — 👍 3    🔁 1    💬 0    📌 0
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CW: Adult language in trailer.

Cassandra Davril expects much of the Seattle Kindred, despite being a simple Blood Doll.

**Vampire the Masquerade: Blood Doll** - a new audio drama, coming October 6th, 2025.

Please visit our website: blooddollpod.com

#vtm #vampirethemasquerade #audiodrama

15.09.2025 16:16 — 👍 21    🔁 9    💬 0    📌 2
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We are live with more Hollow Knight Silk song on Twitch!
www.twitch.tv/transmuted_elf

15.09.2025 22:01 — 👍 4    🔁 1    💬 0    📌 0

TBH I think it could be fun to go to an escape room with you.

15.09.2025 12:49 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0
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We are live with Hollow Knight SilkSong! Further explorations as we lay a silk beat!
www.twitch.tv/transmuted_elf

13.09.2025 20:38 — 👍 1    🔁 1    💬 0    📌 0

Which ones?
Nezha Reborn was one I had seen and quite enjoyed.

11.09.2025 17:16 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

www.twitch.tv/gtea30 Going live now!

11.09.2025 15:55 — 👍 4    🔁 2    💬 0    📌 0

My gf is going live on twitch in 8 min! go watch and follow!

11.09.2025 15:53 — 👍 2    🔁 1    💬 0    📌 0
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Live with Hollow Knight SilkSong!
Further explorations while we test the limits of our new abilities.
www.twitch.tv/transmuted_elf

10.09.2025 22:44 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0
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We are live!
Hollow Knight SilkSong! Bouncing right along and all tied up.

www.twitch.tv/transmuted_elf

08.09.2025 21:04 — 👍 1    🔁 1    💬 0    📌 0

I need to learn to breath....

08.09.2025 11:26 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

The music of that zone is one of my faves.

08.09.2025 11:25 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

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