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i managed to have a good today, had my fave sandwich, a BUNCH of sweets, played some video games, hung out with my friend for a little bit…it was okay today

hhh im fine i jsut needed to eat and lay down

im gonna kill myself happy fucking birthday to me

i dont know what the fuck i expected today to be expect bad. it’s always fucking bad this wasn’t gonna be any different

so i gotta change my age in my bio today… 🥺

finally done with work class :3 i have tmrw off and then my bday is on saturday yay !!

my head is fucking kiling me and i am about tfuckong throw up

trick or treat! 💫

my switch happened to brick itself at just the right tile i guess

birthday gift for moi from moi ….

so i got… um…

Few doodles.

when you hunt with a hammer, the costume choice is obvious, no?

Jarra wishes you all a happy halloween! 🎃 👻 #halloween #halloween2025 #oc #art #ocsky #artsky

going to school

my literal fucking job is approving SNAP benefits and people who don’t know shit about it are out here spreading racist lies on the internet like im so irritated

burn #streetfighter #streetfighter6 #art #artsky

“you’re only staying here because you’re being given the grace to stay here” so i get abused snd threatened to be “kept in line”

being abused and abandoned constantly and never feeling safe and being consistently scapegoated in all of my relationships is so.

im not escaping anything unless i kill myself. moving out is not going to erase 2 and half decades of abuse and scapegoating no one will ever apologize for and perpetuating and also racist abuse from former friends lol

literally what is the point if this is just going to follow me for the rest of my fucking life and theres no promise if stability or safety

and blame you for everything instead of looking at how we treat you. but also dont talk about it or it’ll be worse and it’s all you

wnd now im being gaslit by my father that things will be worse for me if i move out, and i wont be able to survive dont move out just let us abuse you more and tell you the abuse is your fault and lets do that over and over for the rest of your life

being abused constantly and never feeling safe. i’m almost 30 and still being abused and controlled by my parents and younger sister it’s insane and pathetic lol

there’s no point to being here

i just want to die so fucking badly. like that’s normal for me but still

or, an assessment is, i should say

i got a referral but a diagnosis is more than i make in a month

all i want for my 26th rotation around the earth is to not be completely alone that day and for my mom and sister to not be abusive to me for that day but that’s not happening lol

oh my god i’m 26 so soon