Sauce Brain 🔞

Started a JavaScript course and now I understand binary numbers, which is pretty neat

I'm on cleaning duty this morning but I want to be at my computer and working on my little website
:(((((

Man my brain is NOT braining
I took a break and then I was like "Ok I got [thing] 1, 2, and 3 to do, and I have to send [thing] 4 over for approval that's a lot :(" then I went back to CSP and [thing] 3 is already almost done so I feel better now :)

YouTube pushed a 17 years old video in my recommended and watching it felt so nostalgic...

Man I miss the Old Internet

Back when it was a place and not just something that's always there and often required

It's good for my job but not my mental help ahah

I'm working on a new batch of YCHs and one of them is so funI can't wait to share it ehhehehe

It iiiiis!
As of now, all I've done is follow rulesets to create specific things, but I've just started trying to make my own little page to try and apply what I've learned so far without guidelines >:)

Taking a short coffee break during my cleaning duties to post about how leaning web dev has been so much fun
I keep wanting to study more. This is the most fun I've had learning something new in so long...
I understand basic HTML pretty well at this point, but I can't wait to get to CSS!

I decided to learn web dev 😤
I've been using plugins and widgets until now for my website, but I want to learn how things ACTUALLY work!!
And maybe give myself an alternative career option like.. just in case y'know..?

Need to draw more post-op transmasc Orito.... I was added to a list recently that motivates me to draw more

I don't want winter anymore I want to go outside and in the woods and look at a pond and hear the birds
or just like
go outside
without needing my coat and boots. Just put my shoes on and go outside
I want to be outside
but it's too wet and cold :(((((
( I mean it's warm for winter today but STILL)

It's my birthday today so I think the universe should grant me that wish

I want to go back to MSN Messenger. Specifically the version that allowed to send hand-written messages and doodles

Finally ordered new glasses !!!
They should be here by the end of the month (unfortunately not in time for my birthday) and I can't wait to be able to NOT look at scratches all the time

I got myself one of those brown glass bottles, the ones that are like medicine bottles, as a water bottle, and it makes me happy :)
There's something satisfying about drinking from it.

I don't think I'll ever get over Outer Wilds (not that I would want to).
I heard the word "interloper" and became emotional.

My birthday's soon and I asked for a shower drill brush and new glasses I wonder what that says about me

Some people seem to think Orito is my sona but really they're just an OC I've got a huge crush on and I'm allowed to because I made them up
I don't care if it's cringe. I know they're not real, and that's the main appeal 😌

I Created a Weapon From New Metal in the Living Snow Globe Eyeball World and Held a Mind Reading Séance Using Squares

I woke up this morning and had to write down my dream real quick but then got distracted and forgot about it

"Living Snow Globe eyeball portal to other world with forge for weapon from New metal
Séance for listening on other people's thoughts with squares on paper"

Alright

Don't mind me just venting out some frustration 🙏
I don't mind if my designs remind people of other things, and comparison is fine, pretty much accusing me of copying someone else's creation sucks.

"This OC reminds me of X": acceptable. Just relating to something familiar. I might even agree.

"This OC looks like X": a bit more annoying. Most likely not meant as an accusation, but unpleasant to read/hear.

"This OC is basically X": accusatory, unnecessary. Will definitely lower my mood.

I opened a bag of chips upside down by mistake and it feels so wrong.....

I'm a nerd so I looked into it and both contain types of alcohol sugars (maltitol for the gummy bears and sorbitol in the marshmallows)
and apparently sorbitol can be even worse as far as digestive issues go so I'll have to be careful 😳

I found a new snack and it's like marshmallows but they don't taste or feel like marshmallows and they're so good BUT the packaging warns that eating too many might act as a laxative (I mean it's probably a good thing that I can't eat too many BUT )

I need something new to obsess over that isn't something I need to create myself because I don't have the time/money for that but I have like

Nothing else

Nothing that's not mine is "doing it" for me

Or if it looks like it will get there it gets ruined by something else

It sucks

Also sorry this turned into a vent account when it started with me sharing when I was thinking about Orito's butt 🙃

I wish I were better at the whole friends thing.
I barely communicate with anyone, mostly keeping it to the people I live with and the people I see irl
I just never know what to talk about, and I'm too tired to type it out when I do

Such a weird feeling to be so unmotivated with art but at the same time really pleased with the results...
It's like some sort of dissociation.
I really hope I can get out of this funk soon. I want to want to draw again.

I'd forgotten just how good bhindi masala is
Thank you bhindi masala for making me smile

I'll avoid bsky for a little bit because I just keep seeing tons of posts about it and while I AM!! on the side of people upset about it I really don't need the nonstop negativity rn. Not ONLY about this, but it feels like every 3 post is about it and it's overwhelming