slumberpup 🐾🔞

that's it pup, get it out
cw blood

mixed media artwork consisting of alcohol markers, water, biro pen and blood

i've never liked anyone this much before

i want to take the muzzle off

he needs doggy brain removal surgery

sometimes when i see another dog or critter i feel like the human-like functions of my brain just shut down, it is genuinely baffling and i can't explain it

i would love to know what that means.

i wish i had realised the excursion today had changed to be earlier, i didn't read the announcements and i feel silly, i wanted to go

tell me you wouldn't fuck this sandwich. tell me you wouldn't put your dick in this sandwich and cum in it. tell me

she said they wish they could protect what i was worried for too, that made me want to cry. she could hear how special and real what happened was, and that my perspective in it all does make sense, and isn't unreasonable, even when I tried to backpedal, justify or view it from other perspectives

talking to the counsellor was relieving, they are queer, non-binary, neurodivergent, and understand poly relationships. she was really kind and gently spoken. i know lots of the time that counsellors just... agree, but i really did feel like she heard me. and that's what i really needed right now

what the fuck hello??? ;M; this made my entire morning,,, you drew him so cute, he's so cheery and adorable... thank you so much ;w;

Art for the colourful and cute @slumberpup.bsky.social !

not sorry for journalling publically, but grateful to have the space to speak into

healing from people pleasing isn't just necessary for myself, but for others in my life that i have lead around and hurt because i let them tread all over me to the point that i stopped living for myself
i will grow

i cannot live by protecting everybody when i have never afforded myself the same protection or care. i will surround myself with others who have the same priorities in mind, caring for ourselves and eachother, not individuals who just thrive off of the way i am, intentionally or not.

it is so selfish to try to control the outcome and protect others from the possible disappointment or harm they will feel from my decision to prioritise my own comfort and needs. and if they are truly hurt by that, that already tells me they do not love me, but solely the way I make them feel.

to the point where my life and my choices are no longer mine.

making decisions based on my needs is not selfish, it is the most necessary thing to stay alive and be happy and safe. it is necessary for growth, and above all, for healing.

some choices will be hard because they are right, but some choices feel difficult simply because they are wrong for me. betraying my core and forcing my decisions for anothers sake, i am hurting myself— not growing, but shrinking myself until it feels impossible to make any other decision

i'm told that the hard choices are the correct ones, that they are hard because I'm learning or growing or that i just don't want to do what's right.
i can't forget that sometimes the choice is easy for me because it's what is truly right and best for me, and because it is what i truly want and need

Proud to announce I am getting more perverted more kinky and more punk rock

out of everything i could have found

i'm walking to the bus and i just found this tiny green puppy on the footpath

goodnight

thank you always for sharing your creations, i am privileged to get to see. you make me proud, and really, i am lucky to see such things
keep creating, keep sharing. your expression matters. you deserve to be and feel seen.

that's enough brain for now, get some sleep
i want to cuddle them all, i try my best

your art and writing speak thousands more words than you think it capable of

positive self talk!!!

awruff

getting to be back in my soft blankets with all my plushies and things is relieving, my bed is so comfortable,, I'm going to snuggle my plushies so much
i hope all doggies get to snuggle their favourite plushies and sleep comfy and restful